Paper Cut Poems

Lethal

I remember The first time we kissed.
It was our first date.
we were at your house watching movies and somehow we went from sitting awkwardly on your couch
to your arm wrapped around my shoulders and my whole body leaning into yours.
I wondered if we were moving too fast
Because it was getting late
And we had decided on watching another movie.
I turned my head toward
you to tell you I had to take a piss
And you took that as the most opportune time to kiss me
and I'm pretty sure it's surprised you too.
And all I could think was
"Yup this is really fast"
Instead of taking a piss
We made out... for half an hour.
I didn't go home that night.
We fell asleep there.
I never did go to the bathroom.
Well not until the morning when your mom woke us up for breakfast and I realized I had to go.... BAD.
When in the bathroom I thought
"Shit! What am I doing!?"
And that is what our relationship consisted of, every time after that.
I should have listen
to my subconscious telling me
We are going too fast.
Telling me that
we needed to slow down
before we hit something.
Our whole relationship was
everything that you wanted
but little of what I wanted.
I'd begun getting scared
of making you mad.
Not that you were physically abusive
But because you made it
all look like my fault.
I felt like I took
two steps forward and
one step back with you.
We always leaped into things together and you shoved me back
when I did something you didn't like.
Instead of talking to me about it you got back at me.
You took revenge on me.
That's when I learned
you weren't my sidekick.
That's when I learned
you were my enemy.
We didn't fight crime together.
I was the only one fighting and you were the one causing harm.
I was naïve.
I brought a knife to a gun fight
And you had already pulled the trigger.
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