Paper Cut Poems

Goodbye

You know that feeling
you get in your chest
when you feel like
you're about to lose something
that means so much to you?
Like when something is
Falling out of your rib cage
But also creeping up your throat
At the same time.
Like when you lean in a chair
and for a split second
you're stricken with fear
That you might topple over.
That's how I felt in that moment.
That moment when
I realized we were strangers.
The moment that
I couldn't touch you
like I used too.
When you reached for me I cringed.
When you tried again
You proceeded with cation.
Your arms around me
Weren't comforting anymore.
They were water
and I was drowning,
unable to breeze.
I wanted to get out of your
attempt at comforting
as fast as I got in it.
And then I made the choice to kiss you.
And I was going to make it count because it would be our last.
There was so much
confusion and sadness behind that kiss.
I wanted to cry.
I wanted to let you back in.
I wanted to start over.
how do you know when
to stop giving second chances?
When I walked away
I knew my heart shattered
and I needed something to rely on.
I needed something to let me know
I would be okay.
I'm a little broken and confused
but you always have a safe place
in my heart.
I don't want this to be goodbye
but I don't know what else
there is to say.
-(cm)