Paper Cut Poems

Around this time

Around this time I think of all the miles apart we are.
And how at any moment they will wrap around my neck and suffocate me and
all I can think about is how if they coils around me like a boa constrictor maybe they'll bring you closer.
Around this time I sip on hot chocolate and sit inside surrounded by family but feeling so alone.
Because around this time two years ago you had your arms wound around me so tight that I couldn't picture a time when my body could breath without you.
My lungs were filled with you and my heartbeat kept in time with yours.
My head fit perfectly into your neck and "I love you" is the only thing that we said because it was like it was the only thing we ever learned how to say. Around this time is the loneliest Time of year because being inside is just as cold as being outside in the snow.
Sitting by the fire made it worse.
Sitting by the fire made it worse because it reminded me that you weren't hear to warm me up.
This time of year reminds me of your grandma's cooking and the screaming kids at the park.
Around this time two years ago your lips would explore my neck like you were Neal Armstrong and I was the moon.
Around this time, this year, I'm stuck in this cold/warm, lonely, house. Thinking about what you're doing right now.
Cramming for a test you forgot about over break.
Sorting through magic card in your dorm room( because apparently you're into that now.)
Maybe, hopefully thinking about what I'm doing.
And maybe around this time next year I won't be so lonely and maybe I'll be warm again because you'll be here.
Maybe.
Around this time..
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