Gods Sinners

Chapter 16: Sorry

Rachel's POV

Again, today is a day that will be the same for me. I will just go with the flow again. As I stare at the window, I look outside staring at the flowers.

"Eddie..." even though we had to kill him and he killed his family, Eddie had a big heart and was very caring. He was my childhood friend who was there for me back then, but was tainted by jealousy and hatred, but also loneliness. I'm at fault for not noticing and leaving without saying goodbye.

"Rachel," I turn to the person who called me and smile at him.

"Good Afternoon Gray," I say as I stand up to bow. After bowing, we take a few seconds to hug.

"How are you feeling today?" he asks me.

"Better than I did the past few years, but of course I'm still mourning here and there," I respond.

"Well of course, there's nothing wrong with mourning for him," as he says that, I just nod, "shall we head over now?"

"Yes..." we walk together to the car and drive to the cemetery. I fell asleep during the ride due to lack of sleep. The reason for that is because today is Zack's birthday, and this is the month when he died.

After a year of isolating myself I began to look into finding my mom. Found out she moved to where my grandparents lived and decided to visit. When she saw me, she immediately hugged me and I told her everything that happened. We both apologized and we shared secrets. She then told me about Danny.

Danny lost his mom at a young age due to her depression and was abused by his dad. He met my dad through the police academy and were good friends but was obsessed with me. Danny just didn't know how to love correctly or understand people's emotions. So Gray made a grave for him back at the church, which I was fine with.

Every month I will go and visit my mom. Sometimes we will both go visit my dads grave. My dad drowned himself with drugs and alcohol which blinded him with rage. I'm sad that I couldn't be with him longer then I hoped for but I'm glad and cherish the memories I had with him.

Both Gray and I continued to do what we did before. I still work at the noodle shop and moved up working in the kitchen and at the bar. When I returned my boss was crying and wouldn't let go of me. While with Gray, he decided to take a break for a month for me, to make sure I was doing okay.

Once we reached our destination, we both get out of the car and get stuff from the car. We take a blanket and food to have a little picnic. I made noodles and bought coke while Gray brought the cups and bowls. We walk to the grave under a cherry blossom tree and lay out everything we brought. On the grave said Isaac Foster, beloved friend and partner, continue to fight on and find the path to happiness.

Before eating we pray and say our thanks to God. For the past 4  years, I have been getting therapy classes from Gray because he knew I was going insane when I would remember anything about Zack. That day was probably the worst day of my life, we searched everywhere to find Zack, but couldn't find him. We also checked the footage from the other buildings, no sign of movement or Zack. His body was crushed when the building collapsed on him and buried his body. Throughout the search, we were only able to find Danny's left hand that was sliced off by Zack's scythe and Zack's scythe.

As we were eating, I ignore everything. I'm grateful to have someone like Gray who understands that I need time to register the fact that Zack is dead and have time alone when we're here. After we finished, we did our usual routine; I would stay alone with Zack's grave for a few minutes and Gray would wait for me in the car. As Gray walks to the car, he carries our supplies and waits for me. I then sit down and stare at Zack's grave. On it is Zack's scythe, when we created the grave we left the scythe there knowing that this is where it belongs.

"You know, I thought so many times about killing myself to be with you, but then I thought when you died you wanted me to live. The truth is, it still pains me to believe that you are actually dead," I speak to the grave hoping that there is some way I could just see Zack again, "Zack, I'm sorry."

As I say that I get up and begin to walk away, but then-

"Wow, this guy must be a bastard to have left you," as the person says that, I turn to face him and get ready to attack, because usually this doesn't end well.

"If I were you I would be quiet and just walk away," I respond. In my left hand is a knife that I always carry with me. The man was very tall, couldn't see his face due to the jacket he was wearing.

"Truth is, you might've had a better life without him,"

"SHUT UP, YOU DON'T KNOW ANY-"

"But how could someone leave an annoying pipsqueak like you, huh Ray." I immediately drop my knife and run to him, as he stands there just smiling. He mostly likely grew and maybe had gotten stupider to have left me alone the past 4 years. I throw my arms around him and hug him to death, never wanting to let go. God has brought my Zack back to me, and it was the best thing that I could ever get.

"I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!" I cry as he hugs me back...

"Yo, language pipsqueak..."

"Shut up!!"

Heh, I love you too, Ray

終わり

The End