At Dusk

11

Over the next few days, we go to many events, meeting many important and rich people, and having many boring conversations which I will have to get used to if I decide to become Chancellor. Harrison gives me all the dirty information about who cheated on who and things like that before I meet the people and to be honest it is the only thing keeping me sane.

I sit on top of the plush bed reading the letter, that Beck left me, over and over again like I have done every morning since I first read it. It's the only piece I have of him and the more I read it the closer I feel to him. I try to decide if I should tell the others about the letter but I don't know how they would react. As I read it for the sixth time this morning, there is a knock at the door and I swiftly tuck the letter under the covers and I readjust my light grey robe that I had put on after my shower.

"Come in," I call out tossing my freshly dried hair behind my shoulders, trying to act natural.

"Hey we are heading to the hospital now, we will see you there later right?" Hayes tells me making sure I remember as he steps into the room.

"Yes I will be there the second I can," I softly smile.

"Well I will leave you to get ready, I'll see you later," Hayes replies slipping out of my room and shutting the door after him.

I sigh wishing that I didn't have to go to this event. I walk over to the vanity and I sit down in front of the mirror. I stare at my reflection and what I have become. I slowly glide the fluffy makeup brush across my face, applying makeup that is so fancy I can't even pronounce it and never in a million years think I would own. I curl my hair leaving it to cascade down my shoulders. I can't help but feel like I have changed into a person I can't even recognize. Going to functions and socializing with people that I can't even remember their names once I walk away all while my best friend lays in a hospital bed. I've turned into a Dawner and that just doesn't sit right with me.

I walk over to the closet searching through the rainbow of luxurious clothing trying to find the perfect outfit. Once I do I walk over to the full body mirror hanging the clothes on the rail next to it as I drop my robe leaving me standing in my underwear and bra. I look at all my scars tracing them with my fingers remembering who I really am. I start to become emotional so I quickly get dressed pulling on a cream longsleeved cropped t-shirt and I slide on a black high waisted mini skirt that has a mini slit in it. I throw on a nude tattersall jacket before accessorizing with gold jewelry and pulling on knee-high black boots.

I spray on some perfume before applying some hand cream and heading out to the kitchen. I make myself a simple late breakfast of yogurt and fresh fruit before heading back into my room. I eat my breakfast while I read Beck's letter over once more. I hear Rose walk into the kitchen and I have learned not to keep her waiting. I grab a black clutch with a gold chain and then I head out to the kitchen leaving my bowl in the sink to clean later. I look up to see Rose popping some leftover berries into her mouth before walking over to me.

"Are you ready the car is waiting," Rose snarels even though she said she wouldn't be here for another ten minutes.

"Yep," I respond strolling to the elevator.

When I walk out of the building I am greeted by Harrison leaning against the car in a suit, staring down at his feet. As I get closer he looks up and smiles, then he opens the car door for me. On the way, Harrison and I joke about how I am never punctual even though my parents are and I start to wonder if my dad was always late to things.

We pull up outside an enormous manor and we all get out. The long driveway is lined with cars that are all extremely expensive. As we stroll up to the house the noise of people chatting gets louder and louder. We walk in and I politely wave and smile at the people I have met over the last few days. We make our way through the house stopping in the kitchen for drinks.