wish you were sober - PJM x male reader

pulling me close, begging me to stay over

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As if acting on some weird instinct you kiss back, hands grabbing his shirt to pull him im closer, completely swept up in the moment.

"Stay over." Jimin whispers before attaching his lips right back onto yours.

You let it happen, ignoring every voice inside that's telling you it's wrong— because it feels so right.

"C'mon y/n, stay." He whispers, pulling back from the kiss as he talks. Eyes filled with something unfamiliar. It's unsettling to you, for once you can't figure out what's going on in your best friend's head.

"Please stay."

Stay? You've had countless of sleepovers before. Plenty of times you've stayed over and told your mom you had early practice. Why are you hesitating now? Because of the kiss? Because now it could lead to something else?

Wait, you kissed. Oh god, you've kissed.

"I—" You shake your head before pushing the him off. Jimin stumbling back with groan as you rush off. You don't stop to see whether he falls or not, you don't stop to say goodbye. You run to your car and get in to drive off without looking back.

There's a weird and unfamiliar feeling in your stomach as you pull over close to your own home. Grabbing your phone you wonder if you can call Taehyung. What if he tells the rest of his dance team? By the time training camp comes around all the schools will know. No, you can't let that happen.

But what are your other options? He isn't close enough to Jin, Hoseok can't keep a secret for shit. That's it. That's about everyone you'd consider calling.

"Fuck." You sigh, leaning your head on your arms against the steering wheel. For some reason you feel like crying, really hard and really loud.

"Fuck!" You decide to call Taehyung anyway. You needs someone, anyone. Preferably Jimin but he's out of the question. You've kissed for gods sake. Why would Jimin kiss you? And why would you kiss back? Why did it feel so safe?

"y/n." Taehyung groans. "I was sleeping."

"T-Taehyung." You choke out, unable to fight the emotions when you're speaking.

"What? Are you okay? What happend is Jimin okay? Do you need me to call someone?" The younger panics on the other side of the line. "Did someone at the party hurt you? Are you okay? Where's Ji—"

"Shut up!" You snaps, the many words of your friend leaving no room for your own thoughts. "Jimin is fine!"

It's silent for a second.

"y/n...?"

Gripping the wheel you take a deep breath, preparing for the reaction you're going to get. "He kissed me."

"He, what?!" Taehyung sounds like he's just seen pigs fly. Unclear stammering the only thing that leave his mouth before things turn remotely comprehensible. "Wait really? Wasn't that your first kiss? How do you feel? Where are you now? Are you happy?"

You freeze. Taehyung is right. That was your first kiss. With Jimin and after he puked. You kissed Jimin's puke mouth! That's it forever! Your first kiss gone. Jimin stole your first kiss.

"Are you there?" Taehyung asks. "y/n?"

"I'm here, I'm here. Just thinking." But about what exactly? About the kiss? How things will no doubt change? Can you be normal friends again? What if Jimin doesn't even remember. What if he does? Would you guys talk? Ignore it happened? Would the elder tell everyone? What's going to happen now..?