Concrete Angel (Zerrie)

Chapter 4-Lost

"Are you okay?" She whispered. She has been sitting on the floor for ten minutes with tears streaming down her face. She stood up and covered my body with a blanket.

"I think so" I finally said. "I'm so scared."

"I can't believe I let this happen. I knew but I did nothing about it."

"Stop it, Jesy. It's not your fault."

"Perrie, you need to leave him."

"I can't. I love him."

"Perrie, what he did isn't love. Promise me, you will leave his sorry ass."

I looked away. "Okay, I promise."

"I'm going to run you a bath. Can you make it to the bathroom by yourself?"

"I'll try. " I said.

Jesy left my side and rushed to the bathroom. I didn't want anyone to find me like this but I couldn't move, everything hurts. I feel as if I move my legs, they would snap in half.  I'm frozen.  Jesy makes her way toward me. I slowly swing my legs to the side of the bed. Everthing ached as my feet touched the floor. I straightened up, my legs wobbled under me. I'm afraid they might give out, Jesy grabbed my arm as I stumbled. I pulled the blanket closer as she guided me to the bathroom. I dropped the blanket to the floor as Jesy helped me into the tub. I slid down into the bubbles, the warm water relaxing my aching body. Jesy sat the floor, her chin rested on her hands, which laid on the tub.

"Are you okay?" She asked me.

"I will be."

"So, what's going to happen?" She said, softly.

"I don't know." I whispered. "You're a good friend Jesy. I seriously don't know what I would have done if my mum or dad had found me." My voice broke as I tried to get the words out.

"I told, Zayn. Perrie."  She said, not looking at me.

"What?"

"About the first incident."

"Jesy, you didn't!"

She looked at me, sadness in her eyes.

"I had too. I was worried about you and I knew I should have been. I mean, look what that bastard did to you. You can't even move without wincing.

"He'll kill him!"

"I'm sorry, Perrie. I knew it was the right thing to do. He has the right to know."

"Jesy, what did you do?" I yelled.

"I'm protecting you." She stood up as I started climbing out of the tub.

"I have to go find Luke!"

"No, you aren't. You can barely walk as it is, Perrie. That jackass took a toll on you. You seriously want to protect him after what he did to you.

I sighed, sitting back. "You're right."

"I wil go find Zayn."

"okay." I whispered.

***

My body's numb and I felt lost. Jesy left ten minutes ago to look for Zayn. I begged her to stay, I didn't want to be alone again. I'm afraid that Luke will come back but yet, I wished he was here, I wouldn't be alone anymore. I love him so much yet he scares me to death. I want to be with him but I'm afraid he's going to hurt me again. I can't help but love him yet I don't want to anymore. I still sat in the tub, the water cold now but I didn't care. My mind wandered with so many thoughts of Luke, Zayn, I can't  control them. I'm lost, so totally utterly lost. I just want all this to end. I slid slowly down into the cold water until my head was completely covered.