𝐏𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐨 | Tom Holland

12

Y/N POV:

We sat in silence as I processed over everything he had said, "Tom I-I had no idea you felt that way" I stuttered feeling guilt rise up in the pit of my stomach as I shifted side to side, "I've tried to show you, I've tried for months, I don't know what else to do" I could hear his words lace with hurt as his eyes looked up at me.

"I'm sorry" I cracked out folding my hands placing them on my lap, he shook his head as if my sorry wasn't needed and that I was innocent because in a way I still was, "if anything I should be the one thats sorry" he said and got up pushing the chair back in the desk with his tensed fingers, before he could leave the door I stopped him by grabbing his arm and pulled him to face me.

He was close to me, almost too close, I heard and felt his deep breathing mix with the breeze that passed by and I looked up into his eyes that twinkled with the moonlight, I parted my lips to continue talking, "I promised I'd help, didn't I?" I squeezed his hands holding it softly and continued talking,"with what happened tonight, I helped you, didn't I?" I whispered and he looked me straight in the eyes with an expression that could make anyone feel emotion.

"Y/N I swear you did, but you're gonna have to see many sides of me and you're gonna be scared of me and I just don't want that to hap-"  he started babbling and I heard the pain his voice but I cut him off before he could say anything by doing the unthinkable, I would never expect myself to do something like this but when I saw his wet lips shine with life I couldn't resist the feeling that urged me to him.

I admired his perfect structure for a second while his lips moved with his furrowed brows and I put my hands on his cheeks pulling him down to my lips, I could feel the shock that rested on his face but after a few seconds he closed his eyes wrapping his hands around my waist very lightly in a comforting manner and kissed back.

I felt my heart thud in my chest and felt the sparks go up in the pit of my stomach, his kiss showed so much passion and care, it was one of a kind; we let go of the kiss and our forehead touched each other as he smiled, he tilted my chin up with his index finger and leaned in again giving me a small peck on my lips then moving his head more down and gave me multiple wet little kisses on my cheeks and I giggled feeling his smile against my cheek. He moved his hands from my waist to both my hands and we both stood in the comfortable silence. 

I started looking up in his eyes and bit my lip from stopping me from smiling but I could see his lips bloom happiness, and I couldn't help myself, I put my head on his chest smiling. He kept his right hand in mine and brang up the left one to stroke my hair, "can I show you something?" he smoothly asked brushing his thumb on my hand.

I nodded looking down instead of letting a word out, scared that my voice would crack, he let go of my hand and I saw him walk out the door and down the stairs, I followed close behind him as I saw him smile again and run his hands through his chocolate brown hair. 

I saw him enter the kitchen and open the back door walking out as he motioned his fingers for me to come out, I didn't think twice to breath in the fresh air as I stepped out, I looked up to the moonlight and a few stars that were eye catching. 

"Close your eyes" he said grabbing a hold of my hand loosely, I had no idea why, but I did close my eyes, I had so much trust in him at this moment, he hasn't scared me once today except for when he was having his nightmare but that wasn't his fault. 

We started walking and I felt the grass brush against my toes as we walked further into the backyard and suddenly the grass ended on the heel of my foot and we stopped walking, I squealed then giggled slightly when I felt him wrap his arms around my legs and held me bridal style then placed me down on something that felt like a beach bed, "when you open your eyes I want you to look up, okay?" he said tucking my hair behind my ear.

"3 2 1" he counted down and I opened my tired eyes and looked into the sky, the sight brang back to many memories and it instantly made me smile, "Tom, it's beautiful" I said looking over to him and he held his arms behind his back rocking back to forth, I then looked up again and I was surprised for the second time.

There were so many stars, so many beautiful stars and the moon perfectly sat at the left corner of the sky in my view, "I uh knew you liked everything about stars and astrology, so every night when I didn't have you, I would come up here to think" he said making his way over to me and sat on the floor. The stars twinkled and for a second a saw a shooting star pass by, it was one of the best things I've ever experienced.

There were just so many things to think about when looking at the stars, "what do you usually think about when you're here Tom?" I said moving my gaze to him, "Uh the opportunities in life that I could achieve and the opportunities that I can't achieve..." he said looking up in the sky, what he said related to me on a deep level because when you have two parents that don't have much time for you, it's really hard to achieve things.

"I want to travel the world soon" I spoke out of the blue, not expecting myself to speak so confidently, "I do too" he hummed after that brushing his thumb on my hand as we both looked up into the stars zoning out into our own imaginations. 

"Tom?" I said still looking up into the beautiful sky. He hummed out not looking back so I could talk again  "thank you for showing me this."