𝐏𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐨 | Tom Holland

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Toms POV:

"Harry" I stumbled my way over him after Y/N made her way up, Harry sat me down and held onto my shoulders making me look up at him, "it's going to be okay" he tried convincing me but that made me even more anxious about the whole situation. 

"Did you not just see what happened, there's no way I could gain her trust again, she's everything to me and I fuck it up by being angry all the damn time, I can't even be normal for one second" I started ranting, pain flashes through Harry's eyes as I spoke and I could feel myself loosing my breath as I kept talking with emotion, "Tom slow down please" he whispered pulling me into a hug.

"All you need to do is talk to her."

"She won't even look at me Harry!" I put my head in my palms as I shed a tear.

"You can try?" he lightly smiled at me making sure I knew that he was here for me, I gave him one last look as I nervously made my way upstairs, every step I took up just wanted to force myself to run back down. I stood outside the door contemplating whether I should go in or not. I walked in seeing her back faced against me, I knew she didn't hear me come hear me enter the room because she didn't move the slightest bit. 

I walked up behind her putting my arms around her waist, she took a deep breath not moving at all, lowering my head I placed it on her shoulder as I started talking. "Please hear me out?" I whispered shutting my eyes, "get your fucking hands off of me" she spit out coldly but not too loud, it was almost as if she was pleading, she turned around to face me and her face softened up when she saw my state. 

"Thomas please let me go, I'm no good for you and you're no good for me" she softly said holding my hand and resting the other on top of it, "you're the best thing that has happened to me I can't let you go Y/N" I shook my head and she put her hands on each side making me look at her "if you really needed me, you should've shown it" she spoke out and I really sinked in the words. 

"I'm sorry for hurting yo-" I said running my hands through my hair, "Tommy.." she stopped me but I went on, "I'm sorry for not treating you the best" I said banging my fist against the wall as angry tears streamed down my now red face, "Thomas stop it" she backed up not knowing if I would hurt her and those actions made me stop everything in that moment.

I looked up at her and brushed a hair behind her ears, "Y/N I'm in love with you" I shut my eyes not knowing how she'd take it but I was met with arms around my waist and a head on my chest, I pursed a grin when I knew she was trying to calm me down, her touch against me could stop everything around me, every emotion, every thought.

We stood like that for a while as my hard breathing started to calm down "I don't expect you to forgive me but I want you to know that I'm going to try my best to be the best to you" I sat down on the bed as she followed imitating my actions.

A pressuring silence roamed around before she started speaking up again, "I want to help you, I really do but when you pull off stuff like that, you can't expect me to stay" she twiddled her fingers, keeping her eyes fixed on the ground, "I know and if I could apologize a million times I would" I shut my eyes not knowing what to say, "it's not good enough Thomas" she got up wanting to leave the room and I scrambled up walking in front of her. 

"Please?" I whispered begging her to stay, I don't know what I'd do without her, "move out of my way" she looked down not wanting to meet eyes, "I promise you, with all of my heart I would never do anything to hurt you mentally or physically ever again, just give me one more chance" I almost lost breath telling her all of that but it was worth everything in my body, "I can't give you anymore chances Tom this isn't a fucking game, I want you to let me go tomorrow I'm not going to deal with your bullshit anymore" she put her head in her hands as she talked out with distress.

"I'm not going to do that" my voice cracked as I felt hurt flash around me, "I won't tell anyone anything, just let me go" she put her hand on her temples resembling stress, she's been more and more tired everyday and I couldn't help but think it was because of me, obviously it's because of me.

"Well don't be surprised if you see me gone one day" she left the room leaving me in dark silence.