𝐏𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐨 | Tom Holland

14

I woke up to the sun gleaming and I felt my head jolt in pain and I hissed holding up my temple, I immediately shot up remembering the day before.

— Flashback —

Toms POV:

"Y/N" I said but she kept making her way up the stairs, "I can't, I'm sorry" I said lowly looking down, "isn't this what you want?" she exhales deeply, tired of everything that's happened.

I shook my head in dismay, she tried looking into my eyes as if she was going to find an answer through emotion, "what do you mean?" I could hear the confusion laced in her voice walking closer to me, I stayed silent looking down, I knew what we were doing was wrong, I would never take advantage of her.

She lifted my head slightly harsh and made me look at her. "Thomas what's the matter?" I took a deep sigh, "I can't do that to you" I whispered putting my head in my palms "and what if I want it?" She took a step closer, grabbing a hold of my hand.

"Y/N I would never take advantage of you."

"There's nothing wrong" she said running her hand into her hair due to frustration, "I said I'd be here for you Tom" She nagged, I scrunched my brows finally looking into her eyes "not like this, trust me, I have no problem with what is happening right n- actually I love it" I let out a concerned chuckle.

I continued "but how do I know you're okay right now, you can hardly look me in the eye without hate, and now I'm supposed to think that you actually like me?" I finished and held the bridge of my nose to control my breathing.

She didn't even say anything back all she did was look at me emotionless and scurried out the room. I face palmed myself and fell back on my bed, I decided not to run away from all my problems and I left my room to get to where she was, I knocked then opened the door, seeing her laying on the side of her bed, I walked my way towards her to the bed and fell back on the spot next to her.

We both looked up to the ceiling in a comfortable silence "Tom?" She said her voice cracking in the middle, "hmmm" I hummed out turning my head to her only to see a tear drop down her eye, "what's wrong?" I spoke lowly wiping it away with my thumb.

"I miss the past" she whispered almost as if she was scared to say it out loud, as if it had been crashing her down all this time, as soon as she said that sentence my body was filled with guilt and all I could do was stay silent, after many minutes of guilt and stress I got up not knowing what to do but leaving the room and mumbling "I'm sorry" I shut the door on the way out.

— Flashback over —

I brushed my teeth making my way downstairs and as soon as I did I felt my hands clench in a fist and my mind race in anger, there was Harry, casually sitting on the stools scrolling away on his phone.

I made my way over to the door and looked him dead in the eye, "what are you doing here?" I hissed out, he started walking towards me and all that did was make me frustrated, "not such a nice way to say hi to your brother" he smirked putting a hand on my shoulder. I yanked it off and I could feel my face going red and hot.

"Harry get the fuck out of here right now" I was two seconds away from punching him when I heard the light footsteps walking down the marble stairs.

"T-Tom?" She lightly said. My whole body went calm as I looked at her, she was so precious, in one of my big T-shirt's and rubbing her tired eyes, "Y/N, baby go back up I'll be there in a second" I gave a smile to show her that she's safe, "what's wrong?" she said again taking a few more steps down, at this point fear ran through my body because now that she's closer, she could see Harry.

Her eyes grew wide as she took some steps backwards, "ah Y/N" he spat out with a smirk, I could see his eyes traveling up and down her bare legs and that's all it took for my to punch the shit out of him, "please go back up, I'll be there now, okay?" I pleaded and she nodded without another word.

"Fuck off Tom, I told you I only came here to say sorry" he held his nose as his words came out muffled, "well, looking at my girl in a sexual way isn't exactly a way of apology, don't you think?" I said in a sarcastic tone.

He lifted himself up from the ground and started to spit some words out, "your girl, huh?" He smirked laughing.

I ignored his nonsense and started breathing heavy, just looking at him and thinking of what he's done made me furious, "it's a shit show Tom, if you really think for a second that she could actually like someone that's forcing her to stay, then you really are insane" he laughed darkly and came close to my ear, "it's all an act" I darted him with huge steps and proceeded to pin him on the wall with the collar of his thick hoodie.

"If you don't get out of my house, right fucking no-" I was cut off with his venomous words, "then what, you're going to beat me up?" he said not showing a hint of fear, "Harry I don't have time for this" my grip tightening as my other hand started forming into a fist, he very roughly pushed me off and left with a huge bang on the front door.

"FUCK!" I screamed out punching the wall in front of me, I couldn't stop myself, I kept punching and occasionally I'd let out some harsh words that you could hear from miles away, whilst forgetting that Y/N was still upstairs. I finally opened my eyes to see my ripped knuckles and the blood seeping down my arm.

Leaving a stain of the wall Y/N ran down a couple minutes after what had happened and I could already sense the unease, instead of talking my way down, she made her way over the the kitchen to get a wet towel and other necessities to heal these cuts, she made her way over slowly and sat down in front of me, no words, no eye contact, no chemistry at the moment, she lifted my hand up and started damping the towel on, she scrunched her eyebrows, which gave away that she was more focused than ever.

"Are you mad at me?" I whispered out, hoping I'd get an answer from her, but all she did was ripping bandages and making sure that this would be over with, I lifted my other hand up to brush a strand of hair behind her ear but she flinched, "baby" I huffed out, "please don't be mad at me, I was only trying to protect you by kicking him out" my eyes low and my voice even lower.

"I'm not mad at you Thomas, I'm disappointed at the fact that you promised you would control yourself and that I would help you along the way" she said getting up from her place and started making her way over to the kitchen, I grabbed her arm looking into her eyes "I'm try-trying."

"No Thomas you're not, don't convince yourself that you are" I stood up putting my hands on both sides of her head, "please Y/N, don't let me go."

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A/N: I feel like this book needs some more action so this chapter is more of a filler to I guess make the storyline more exiting. The next few chapters will be longer and I'm thinking of making Harry and Y/N 'talk things out' 🤷🏼‍♀️