A Boy Named Conan

Finding out why Conan Jr.'s been so upset.

       It is currently 9:45 in the morning.  The night seemed very sleepless.  Because Every hour, Conan Jr. would wake up crying, and screaming, and it would last anywhere between a half hour, and an hour and a half.  And of course, We couldn't stop it no matter how hard we tried.  It was horrible!  I'm totally exhausted too.  And so is Conan.  We just spent a week in the hospital, and now we came home, to get a Good nights sleep, and ended up not doing so.  But it's worth it for my babies.  It always will be.  So, I get up, and Conan cries and so does Luna.  I could hear her from the other room.  So I grab Conan Jr. and he clings to my shoulders, and bites down a little again and screams.  Conan grabs Luna for me.  And I sit down on the couch in the living room, and breastfeed them.  I'm back to the usual routine.  Conan Jr. stops screaming as he drinks from my breast.  A moment of sweet relief and peace.
Ten minutes later, they're finished. Conan Jr. ends up falling asleep minutes later. Then Luna falls asleep. I can hardly keep my eyes open. "Conan, do you want to get the babies in their bassinets, and let them sleep in our room with us? That way we don't sleep through the babies crying? I really need sleep. And so do you. It's our chance while they sleep." I say. "Yeah, that sounds great. Let's take their bassinets to our room. I'll actually do that, if you carry the babies." Conan says. "Yeah, that sounds good." So I pick them both up, carrying them into our room. Thankfully me picking them up didn't wake them up. That would be a mom fail. And it would be annoying, because I'm so exhausted. I need sleep. So, Conan sets the bassinets down, and I place them in them. I tuck them in, and then Conan and I crawl into bed, for a much needed nap. We cuddle until we fall asleep. We didn't talk, Just like last night. We're too tired to talk. All we want to do is sleep. I think it took about 15 minutes.
3 hours later, the babies wake up and cry. They needed their diapers changed. So Conan and I did that. But Conan Jr. was still crying afterwards. And a few minutes later, Luna cried again. I think it's because of Conan Jr. crying. Maybe she's sympathetic even at such an early age. "Does Conan Jr. make you cry from all his tears? Does it make you feel bad? Because I feel the same." I say to Luna. She keeps crying. I start breaking down in tears again. "Ohhh, I can't take this! Now we have BOTH the babies crying, and there's nothing I can do about it!" I say. "I know. But it will be okay. We can get through this. Together." Conan says. I smile when he says that. I breathe, trying to calm myself down. "I know. Thank you." I say. "You're welcome. We'll always get through everything together."  Conan Says sweetly.  "I know.  I wouldn't rather go through any of this with anyone else."  I Say lovingly.  I still cry a little.  Just kinda weeping lightly.  "You okay?"  He asks.  "Yeah, now that you said just those few words."  I say.  "Good!  I'm happy to help soothe you just from your words."  Conan Says.  "You never fail at that, my love."  I Say lovingly.  We go into the living room, I carry Conan Jr. and Conan Carries Luna.  And we set them on our laps.  "Do you guys wanna watch The Pink Panther?"  I ask the babies.  Even though they can't respond.  They keep crying and Conan and I decide we want to watch The Pink Panther.  Within a few minutes, they stop crying.  There are just a few tears in their eyes, but they're not making a crying noise.  They were calming down.  Then they both LAUGH like CRAZY!  I get out my phone and record it.  It's the episode where the Pink Panther fights with a dinosaur and The short guy, with the weird mustache, over a bone.  In the prehistoric times.  It's called "Prehistoric Pink".  I am genuinely laughing too.  And so is Conan.  At the show itself, but also the fact the babies were laughing so hard, made us laugh even more.  They're bouncing from laughter.  It's the funniest and cutest thing.  The Pink Panther episodes are approximately 5 minutes each.  So we watched many of them, and with them, came many laughs!  "Oh it feels so good to get a good break from the tears." I Say.  "Yeah definitely!"  Conan says.  So we just sit there enjoying the episodes, on our Apple TV.  About an hour later, Conan Jr. cries again.  Then Luna cries again because of that.  So I pick him up and take him to the nursery room.  I just sit down in the rocking chair, and set him in my lap.  I place my finger by his chin, to rub it to comfort him.  I bend to whisper in his ear, saying "Shhhh.... it's okay.  What's wrong?"  Then he grabs my finger and puts it in his mouth and bites down.  I feel it isn't smooth.  I open his mouth, and move his lips down to see what's going on.  Just as I suspected: He's got a Tooth growing in!  His first tooth!  So I walk out to the living room.  "So, I think I found what's wrong with this little guy."  I Say.  "What's wrong?"  Conan asks.  "He's got his first tooth coming in!  Poor baby!  I know from what every parent says, it's very painful, which, duh.  Gums are so weak.  Very soft.  So I even know from when I was growing Wisdom teeth, it hurts when teeth are shoving their way through the gums.  I feel so bad.  I'm gonna call the Doctor."  I Say.  "Okay.  That's a good idea."  Conan agrees.  "I know what I can do to help.  I know teething toys help.  But I need to know if there's anything else.  Like pain numbing stuff meant for babies, or something.  I just hate the idea of him being in pain, and not being able to do anything about it."  I Say.  "I know.  Go call the doctor."  Conan says.  So I step outside, and I make the call.  I decided to take Conan Jr. with me, just because I didn't want to leave him.  Conan could comfort him, but as a mom, I wanna be the one to be around my baby when he's not feeling well.  "Hello, Doctor Graham here in Children's Pediatrics!"  The Doctor Says as she picks up.  "Hi!  You are my children's doctor!  And I just wanted to call to let you know, My Son Conan Jr. here, is almost 2 months old, and has his first tooth coming in!  Which is exciting.  Babies don't grow teeth that fast.  But it's absolutely heartbreaking!  Seeing him go through such pain.  Ever since last night he's been crying constantly.  Last night he woke up like, 4 times screaming and crying.  Each time lasting from 30 minutes to an hour and a half.  I don't even care that I've been robbed of sleep because of this.  I only care my baby is in pain and there seems to be nothing I can do.  Could you tell me, is there a medication of some kind, that's made for babies?  I know teething toys are good.  But he can't sleep with one in his mouth."  I Say.  "Yes.  There are Medicines safe for newborns, such as Motrin Infants, and Camilia. I'll tell you exactly what both are used for. Motrin infants are clinically proven to relieve pain and reduce fever. In fact it gets rid of fever completely. And then the Camilia, that soothes irritatability and pain, of the gums, that come with teething." The nurse says. "Hmm... what do you think would be best?" I ask. "Well, both are great options." The nurse says. I think for a minute. "Well, I love the idea of the Camilla doing the extra work of getting rid of gum sensitivity. Or at least soothes it. But the Motrin Infants would be good. Because if he gets a fever, that will need to be treated. Babies can never have a fever. It Is dangerous to them. It can be very fatal. I know that. And babies are very vulnerable about stuff like that." I say. "Well, let's see, each medicine lasts a limited amount of time. The Camilla lasts about 3 hours, and Motrin infants lasts up to 6 hours. So I could give you both. So you want to give him the Camilla, give it to him, while he just has normal pain. Then, if he gets a fever before the time of the medicine runs out, a cold wet washcloth also works well with fevers. Although that might heat up fast because of the fever. You could use other methods to get rid of fevers. Until you can get him some Motrin. And if you never use the Camilla, that's okay. You seem troubled and unsure of what to do. So I would like to at least let you have a decision to make." She says. "Yes I am thank you SO much! I appreciate it a lot! You're already a great doctor! I like you a lot already!" I say. "Yeah it's no problem! I'm here for you AND your babies. Conan Jr. and Luna, is it?" She says. "Yes, Luna. Luna Mae. Named after my grandma. And thank you, I appreciate that you're here for not only my babies, but me too." I say. "I love Luna. It's a beautiful name! And your Grandma's name was Luna?" She asks. Then she continues "And yeah, I will be your babies doctor, and YOUR friend. If something scary is happening, or if you're upset about something like now, I will be here to ease those fears and listen to why you're sad." She says. "Well thank you! The name is perfect for her! And No, but I always called her my moon, and she always called me hers. So I felt like that's a way to name my child after her, in honor of her. Since Luna is another word for moon. I also got a lot of signs from Gaga, as I called my Grandma, when I was pregnant with the two. And I think they were specifically for Luna. To let me know she'd be her good luck charm. I am sure of it, because before my first ultrasound, I saw a ladybug outfit, which are signals of good luck. And then I got an instant feeling like the baby was a girl. Well, it was. There were countless other signs from her. And anyways, I think Gaga is around her a lot. And I couldn't think of a better way to honor one of the greatest people to exist in my life." I say, smiling. "Awwwww! I LOVE the meaning behind you naming her Luna. And that story gives me chills, in the good way. I'm tearing up a little, it's so beautiful! I'm sure she's smiling down at your baby girl from heaven. And Conan Jr. too. Because they're her great grand babies. So she loves them both, and no doubt she will be Luna's good luck charm through life. And she smiles down at you, because of the fact you named your daughter after her. I'm sure she's very touched!" The nurse says. "I'm sure of all of that too! Ha, I always imagined, if she was around for the time for me to have kids, and until they were old enough to talk, I'd teach them to call her Great Gaga. Instead of Great Grandma." I say. "Aww! That's cute! You still could." She says. I smile. "Yeah! I am going to tell my kids all about the wonderful Woman that is my Grandma. And show them pictures of her, and tell them to call her Great Gaga, when talking to her from in their heads or out loud." I say. "Awww! See! You still can. It would be fun for you, and it would be good and fun for the kids." She says. So we keep talking, and then she eventually says "Alright, I'm gonna have the medicines sent to the local Walgreens, and it will be ready for pick up in an hour." "Okay thank you again so much! For the helpful advice, and it was nice talking for a bit. Getting personal." I say. "Yeah! I enjoyed every minute of this! And while we're at it, do you want to set up an appointment for next month or so? For the first check up?" She asks. "Yeah! That would be great!" I say. "Okay, Are you able to schedule it for February 5th?" "Yes I am! So I will write that down! What time?" I ask. "How about 1:30 in the afternoon?" "That'll be perfect!" I say. "Okay, Perfect!" The nurse says. "Okay, have a great day! And I will keep your number on my contact list, so I can call you about anything, really easily." I say. "Yeah, absolutely! Anything, okay? Whether about the babies, or if you need something to help you with just mom life. I know it can be stressful at times." She says. "You are just the absolute best! I won't hesitate." I say. "Good! I look forward to seeing you or talking again soon!" She says. "Likewise! Have a good day!" I say. "Thank you, you too!" She says, and hangs up. I go back in the house. "Okay, so as I said, Teething toys. Wanna go get some? And the doctor is sending over prescriptions for baby pain relief, to Walgreens. It will be ready in an hour." I say. "Yeah sure we can get teething toys! It should help a lot. What were the medications?" Conan asks. "Camilla, and also Motrin Infants. The Motrin gets rid of pain, and fever, and for more specific pain relief, the Camilla relieves specifically gum irritability and sensitivity." I say. "Okay, that sounds great! You're a good mom. Look at you. You may not have been able to help Conan Jr. feel better right away, but once you found out the problem, you called the doctor for advice, to see if there is any pain medicine safe for babies, so he won't be in pain if he doesn't have to be. And now we're gonna get teething toys... and that will give us plenty of time. It will pass time while we wait for the medicine to be ready." Conan says. "You're the absolute best! Always reminding me I'm a good mom. Especially when I really need the reminder. And you're a good dad. In case you didn't know. Sorry I don't say that as often as I should." I say. "Well, you should be reminded! You are an amazing woman, an amazing fiancé, soon to be upgraded to wife, and a great mom! And no, don't apologize. Listen, I do feel pretty confident I am doing a good job, as a father. You are too hard on yourself most of the time. You need the reminders. I do not. But I certainly will take them." Conan says.  I smile.  "Awww, yeah, I do be kinda hard on myself.  I wish I wasn't, but I guess as a mom, I keep feeling like I'm not doing enough.  Or that I'm not doing the best to keep them safe.  Like how I didn't even put lotion on their bodies, every time we went outside or anywhere to do errands.  It is SUCH horrible parenting.  I literally had skin cancer when I was 19!  And I have to put lotion on myself every single day, in every exposed part of the skin, since then.  They are at high risk because of the fact I had cancer!"  I say, tearing up a bit.  "But I wish you would realize you ARE doing enough.  And that's in the past.  You're gonna make me cry.  I know you don't want me to do that.  Ever since you realized that, you have been putting lotion on them daily before we go anywhere.  I don't think of that as horrible parenting.  It never crossed your mind.  You forget that as a human, it's okay.  You may not think about certain things.  You may screw up at times.  But you're human and you are allowed to make mistakes.  You might do things in the future that you may regret afterwards, but they will never think of you as a horrible mom.  And neither will I.  I guarantee I'll make mistakes too.  Or maybe I have and haven't realized yet, like you with the lotion thing.  You didn't realize you hadn't done it all along, until a month later."  "But see, the way I look at it, is as a mother, I should have KNOWN, and make sure I put lotion on them.  By INSTINCT!  As a mom I should do all I can to protect our children, from the sun and cancer, and anything.  But your encouraging words and your expressions of your thoughts on me as a mother, do help me a lot when I'm really tearing myself down.  It's horrible that I am like this.  I can't help it though.  I should talk to their pediatrician.  She said she'll also be here for me, to listen to anything I am feeling.  As well as taking care of the babies."  I say.  "There you go!  Go do that.  That would be good for you.  And what an amazing doctor!"  Conan says.  "I know I really like this doctor.  She's here to help with medicine if needed, and check up on them, and talk with me personally, about what I think."  I say.  "Yeah, that's a great doctor!  She's a children's doctor and parents friend!"  Conan says.  "Yeah, She's a blessing."  I say.  So I go to call her.  I sit on the front porch.  With my cardinal table and comfy chair.  I sit and call her again.  "Hi.  What's going on?"  She asks, nicely.  I am in tears.  I gasp.  "Can we talk?  I didn't think about it when we talked about Conan Jr. and all that.  I have something that has been bothering me a lot lately."  "Yeah, of course!  What's going on?"  She asks, very sympathetically.  "I feel like I'm a horrible mom a lot of the times."  "Well you're not, I guarantee it.  Why don't you tell me the reasons why you feel that way, and I can guarantee I wouldn't feel the same.  I'm also not a judgmental person."   She says.  "I know you're not judgmental.  That's why I'm comfortable telling you the things I think and the reasons.  First off, I sometimes feel like I need a break from them.  Like if I need to sleep, because they keep me up all night, I send them to their Grandma's house."  I say.  "Well, Time with their Grandma is absolutely NEVER a bad thing.  And I promise you, neither is wanting or needing time away from your babies.  All moms feel that way.  I'm a mom as well, I know how it feels.  The need to have a break, and the guilt that comes with.  You feel bad for wanting a break.  But it's nothing to feel guilty about.  Besides, guess what?  One day, they're gonna grow up, and maybe at 4 or 5, they'll go to their first sleep over.  So if you think about it, you'll be used to being apart from them.  So in the long run, you'll be glad.  And also, babies can be absolutely exhausting.  Lots of moms like you, tend to lose sleep.  And sometimes mothers go crazy when their baby cries constantly, and the mom is so tired.  It's like, all they want to do is sleep.  They snap sometimes, especially when babies have so many needs.  Even though they know it's not the babies fault it keeps crying.  But it happens."  "I appreciate letting me know and making me realize the good things about taking a break.  And the fact you said I'll be used to being apart from them in the future for their first sleepover, I like that.  It is a good plus.  But yeah that guilt.  And yeah, grandma bonding time!  That is so good for them!  They'll be close to their grandma from a very early age.  It's very important.  Hopefully they'll be as close with their grandma as I was and am with my grandma."  I say.  "Exactly, I'm glad I gave you that realization.  It's good that you're talking to me about these things."  The nurse says.  "Me too, I think I just need to hear other points of views.  Conan tells me all the time about how I'm actually a great mom, doing the best I can.  I think it's just, I need someone who is also a mom, or even if you weren't, you'll be monitoring our children, with check ups and all that.  You know, I think I just need to talk with someone who's gonna be here through their childhood."  I say.  "Yeah, it feels good you're coming to me for this.  And yeah, sometimes some different perspectives helps."  She says.  "So, onto the next thing.  The thing that I feel the worst about.  So, I had cancer when I was 19.  Basal cell Carcenoma.  It was on my face, and they just had to scrape a few layers of skin off my face to get all of it.  And ever since then, I've had to apply lotion to all the exposed parts of my body, before I step outside even.  Life or death the doctor says.  And so I'm very compliant with it.  And I also have to wear hats before I go outside.  And, because of the fact I had cancer, now the babies are more vulnerable to cancer.  More at risk.  I forgot for the whole first month of their life.  What kind of a parent does that?  I was so careless!  That's HORRIBLE parenting right there!  In my mind.  As a mother, I feel I should do absolutely everything I can and should, to protect my babies!  I failed for the first month!  I will be so upset if they end up getting cancer."  I say, sobbing now.  "Hey, listen to me, it's okay.  You didn't think about it.  And have you been compliant with yourself and the babies, about applying lotion, and wearing hats since then?"  She asks.  "Yes, of course.  The babies mean the world to me!  And I want to protect them from the sun and cancer."  "Well there you go!  See?  Let me tell you right now, if they get cancer in the future, which I sure hope not, it would NOT be your fault, because you didn't apply lotion or make them wear hats for the first month of their life.  Like if they get it 5 months from now, or even next month, or 15 years from now, that will Not be your fault."  The nurse assures me.  I breathe, trying to relax Myself.  "I hope they don't get it either, and thanks for reminding me that it's not my fault if they do get it in the future.  But you could see how I could feel that way.  And there's other things I've felt bad about, but I can't think of them at the moment.  I feel better now, and next Time I need to release what I feel are mistakes, I will call."  I say.  "Okay, have a good rest of your day now, okay?  Remember you are a great mom!  Who's doing the best job possible."  She says.  "Okay, I will.  Thank you so much for listening to me."  I say.  "No problem!  Bye.  Take care."  She says.  "Thanks, you too!"  I say.  And Hang up.  I go back inside and say "woo, alright!  Ready to go buy some Teething toys?"  I ask Conan.  "Yes, let's go."  He says.  So we carry the babies to their car seats.  I carry a Conan Jr. cause he wants his Mommy.  "You know, it's not that He missed me, that he cried when anyone but me held him.  It was because every kid wants their mommy when they don't feel good."  I say.  "Yeah, that's true!  Now that I know it's just cause the poor baby's in pain, I know that.  I was kinda heartbroken when he didn't want me to carry him, it made me feel like him and Luna didn't miss me."  Conan says.  "Oh honey, of course they missed you.  But I can see why you felt like that."  I say.  "It's so stupid I felt that way."  Conan says.  "Well no, it's like you think 'wow.  What am I, chop liver?'  My mom used to feel that way when my sister went everywhere with my dad.  She was honest with my sister, about how she was a little hurt at times.  It sucks.  I'm sure one of them, you'll be their favorite parent, without telling us, everybody has a favorite parent.  And everyone has a favorite child, favorite niece, nephew, grand child.  So, I'm just saying, whoever you're the favorite To, I will probably be a little hurt.  Just like my mom was.  But I'll get over it.  And I'm sure you'll be a little hurt about whoever thinks of me as their favorite."  I say.  "Well thanks for not making me feel like it's ridiculous to feel that way."  Conan says.  "Of course!  Your feelings are 100 percent Valid."  I say.  Conan Jr. screams again, he had stopped for about a couple hours this time.  Thankfully.  I sit in the back with the kids, and I give Conan Jr. my finger in his mouth, just like he did when I made the discovery.  It doesn't hurt, because the tooth isn't even up yet.  It's about halfway through the gums.  Not at the top.  I could Just feel it was bumpy.  "You're so miserable.  I hate that because you're my baby.  But don't worry, momma's gonna take care of it.  I called the doctor, you're gonna get medicine for your gums, and other pain.  And we're on our way to get you teething toys right now."  I say in a comforting tone of voice.  He was looking at me with tears in his eyes, as I was talking to him.  "Yeah! We're gonna help you feel better!"  I say.  He must have understood me.  He smiled through the tears.  He bites down a little harder on my finger.  It doesn't hurt still, since he really doesn't have any teeth.  I lightly rub his gums, to ease the pain until we get the medicine and toys.  He stops crying within a few minutes of that.  So I do that the whole way to the store.  A half hour Later, we arrive at the store.  Conan grabs the stroller and sets it up, then he grabs Luna, and I grab Conan Jr.  I carry him and when we get a cart, I put him in that space where babies are meant to sit.  It has a little mini buckle, to keep babies secure.  As we walk through the store, I put my finger in his little hand, and he closes his fist, to keep my finger there.  "It's okay baby.  I knowww, I hate seeing you so upset."  I Say.  I look At Conan.  "I think he's upset cause he's in pain, but also because he wants me to hold him.  He was just fine until I set him down in the cart.  I can't though.  Because you have the stroller, so you can't take the cart.  And I can't carry him even if you do.  Because that would mean we swapped.  I still am pushing something.  Either the stroller or the cart.  There's no free hands to hold him with.  Let's try and make it fast, so I don't have to hear him cry for too long.  It's not annoying, it just sucks not being able to hold him when he wants me to."  I say.  "I know, we'll be fast."  Conan says.  We go to the toys section.  We get hard things and soft things.  I found a soft cube like thing.  It's big and squishy.  Something squishy might work really well with him.  So I grab that and put it in the cart.  It $13.99.  But hey, if it will help my baby, it's worth every bit of the money.  Conan Jr. keeps trying to grab the leather strap that hangs off the handle, and putting it in his mouth. I keep telling him no, because it's unhealthy.  Unsanitary.  So I try to find one of those.  I can't find it.  It must be a texture thing.  How it feels on his hands, he might think it will feel good in his mouth.  So I hope to find one.  I find a large bracelet looking thing.  But it's not a bracelet.  It's called a "Cooling Teether ring.  Soothes the pains of incoming teeth."  So I get that.  That has a hard texture.  Which is good for babies.  People recommend hard teethers, because it can strengthen the tooth, and also, soft to reduce pain.  Next, I find a toy that massages the gums.  It says "Munchkin Orajel massaging teether toy.  I feel like that would be most helpful.  I think all these would be a hit though with Conan Jr.  Then, we saw a toothbrush teether, so we can keep those teeth and gums healthy the whole time.  We got other helpful toys, and then we head out to get the medicine.  After we checked out at the store of course.  I grab the bags, from the cart, and I let go of the cart.  We put the bags at the bottom of the stroller, where people usually store their diapers and baby food and stuff.  That little compartment.  "Yes!  Now I finally get to hold him!"  I say.  I pick him up out of the cart, immediately.  He once again kind of sinks his gums into my shoulder.  I have one hand against his butt and back, and the other on the back of his head.  "Is that better?  Now that I can hold you again?  No?  The pain?  Alright.  We're gonna go get you your medicine right now."  I say as we walk out of the store.  We put the bags in the trunk, and the baby just cries the whole time.  Screams.  It just doesn't stop.  For at least 25 more minutes.  Then he finally calms down again for a bit.  I put hand sanitizer on, and rubbed it in really good, so I could put my finger in his mouth and rub some more, without possibly poisoning him with hand sanitizer.  Once it's all rubbed in, I put my finger in his mouth to rub his gums.  He still is done crying at the moment.  And it seems to be preventing him from crying more.  Because it gets rid of the pain.  We get to the Walgreens Drive thru, and we let them know what we're here for.  "I have 2 prescriptions for Infant Motrin, and Camilia, for Conan Jr.  or the other name might be Katie."   Conan says.  "Okay, it's right here!  Give me just a second while I grab those for you."  She says.  "Great, thank you!" Conan says.  "No problem!"  She says.  And disappears from the window, to get the medicines.  "Alright, here you go!  That'll be $52.00 please."  She says.  "Okay, here's my card."  Conan says, handing her his credit card.  "Okay, you're all set.  Have a great day."  The lady says.  "Thank you, you too."  Conan says.  So we drive away and start heading home.  "You'll be better soon.  The pain will go away shortly, baby."  I say.  I rub his head in circles with one hand, and hold his hand with my other hand.  That way he knows I'm there, when I'm not able to hold him in my arms or my lap.  Soon, we are home, finally, and I get Conan Jr. unbuckled, and take him in immediately to give him his much needed medicine.  Both are liquid.  I checked his temperature, and he is at the average temperature.  So I decided to use the Camilia.  I read the back "Dose: Give 1/2 cap full of Camilia, every 3 hours or until symptoms last."  So I fill the cap half way, and Conan Jr. is a good sport.  Unlike I was when I was little.  He did not cry or anything when given the medicine!  "Yayyyy! Good Job Buddy!"  I say to him, smiling.  Conan Jr. smiles back, and it makes me smile even wider.  I take a picture real quick because it melts my heart.  I kept saying what I had just said in the exact same way to make him keep that same smile, for the picture.  "You're gonna have no pain at all pretty soon!  You don't have any now, and you shouldn't again for at least 3 hours!  I'm so proud of you!"  I say.  I had set him on the counter to give him the medicine.  I held onto him with one arm, to make sure he didn't fall.  And I picked him up and carried him into the living room.  For once today, I'm smiling wide.  I take a selfie with my baby boy, and kinda have tears in my eyes from thinking about the fact he's had to go through so much pain since last night.  But also tears of joy that he doesn't have to anymore.  I'll post it tomorrow, with a picture of the bottle or a selfie of me holding it, once I make sure he sleeps well tonight, on the Motrin or Camilia.  And if it works, I can give a good review, to help other moms with teething babies, with options of pain relief.  Conan sits next to me on the couch.  I smile.  "Conan Jr. was a good sport, and took his medicine!  No tears or anything."  I say.  "That's such a good boy!  Is that true, what Momma said?  You took it with no trouble?  That's a very good boy!"  Conan says, smiling at him, and then Conan Jr. smiles back at him, like he did when I talked to him and smiled.  "God that smile melts My freaking heart!"  I say.  "Hey, so it's 4:30.  Do you want to watch Ice Age?"  I ask.  "Yeah!  That sounds good to me!  I'm in the mood for Disney movies or any child cartoon movie."  Conan says.  "Okay cool!  That will be so fun.  And I think we all need some laughs, And you know scrat will make us laugh."  I say.  "Yeah, I couldn't agree more.  This day has been very long, or at least it's felt very long, with all the screaming and Crying our baby boy did.  And it's only 4:30."  Conan says.  "Yeah, exactly.  And after Ice age, you can pick a movie to watch."  I say.  "Okay, that sounds good, that's fair."  He says.  So I pick an Ice Age Movie.  I choose "Ice Age The Meltdown."  I get excited as we start to turn it on. So does Conan. We cuddle up, and Conan pauses the movie to ask "Hey, do you want to get Pizza for dinner? We can have it delivered." Conan asks. "Yeah! Pizza sounds great!" I Say. "Okay, I'll order it." He says. "Okay, order some Bacon Stuffed Howie Bread too, please!" I Say. "Okay, anything else? Or any specific toppings you prefer?" Conan asks. "Umm, I don't think so. I think just regular Pepperoni Pizza is fine, or whatever you want." I Say. "Okay. Yeah I was thinking of getting just Pepperoni Pizza." Conan Says. "Okay perfect." I Say. So I keep the movie paused while he calls to order. They answer and Conan says "Hi, I'd like to order delivery." "Okay, what can I get for you?" The guy on the phone asks. "A medium pepperoni pizza, and an order of Bacon Stuffed Howie Bread please." Conan Says. "Okay. Anything else?" "Nope, that'll be all." "Okay. It will cost $17.00. Where is it being delivered to?" The guy asks. Then Conan gives him the address. "Okay, it will be there in about 35 minutes." He says. "Okay thanks, have a great day." Conan Says. "You too." The guy says and hangs up. Conan grabs his wallet so he's ready to pay when the guy rings the doorbell. We play the movie again. Back to cuddling. We set the babies in their carriers and put them on the floor. The first scene is of course one with scrat. The babies laugh so hard and so do we. We laugh til our stomachs hurt. I record and post "with the day we've had so far, I figured we'd need some laughs. The days stress is cured! Sometimes All you need is a movie, and a baby's laughter." I Say, and post. I put my phone back down to focus on the movie. About a half hour goes by, and the doorbell rings. "Oh! The pizza's here!" I Say. So we pause the movie and Conan goes to get the food, and pay and leave a tip. I was about to go with him, but he said "no no. Stay here. You don't need to get up at all. I want you to stay comfy and cozy, and warm. I will bring the pizza box to the living room table, and I will bring plates over." He says. "Okay cool! Thank you!" I Say. "No problem. I want you to be comfy." Conan Says. I smile. "Well that's very sweet! I appreciate it. Very thoughtful." I Say. So Conan does what he said he would and also asks if I want anything to drink. "Hmm, I think just water." I Say. "Okay, coming right up!" He says. And he pours himself a glass of Pepsi.  Conan day back down and grabbed his pizza slices, and got underneath the quilt and curled back up, cuddling into me.  I smile as he cuddles into me.  "I love it when we have days or nights like these.  I love cuddling with you.  Just being all loving, just because.  It's different than just cuddling at night when we fall asleep.  That's for a reason.  But the random cuddles, ugh.  So sweet and adorable."  I Say.  "I feel the exact same way.  It really does feel different."  Conan Says.  "Yeah, I don't know what about it makes a difference.  But I love it.  And I love you."  I Say.  "I love you too."  Conan Says, smiling and giving me a smooch on the lips.  "I love you more."  I Say, kissing him as well.  "I love you most."  He says, kissing me, and we kiss twice more, for the last two parts of The Who loves who most game.  And then Conan smiles and leans his head on my shoulder, as we continue to watch the movie.  We have many more laughs.  We enjoy the pizza and stuffed bread sticks.  The babies enjoyed the movie SO much!  Especially the parts with Scrat.  And they thought Sid was pretty goofy.  Which, I think so too.  Eventually, the movie ends.  Now he chooses something to watch.  He decided on "Laurel And Hardy, the Music Box."  Which is such a good classic!  No matter how many times I've seen it, and will see it, I will still laugh just as hard.  The babies are laughing even harder every time the piano kept falling down the steps.  And when Laurel and Hardy were getting hurt.  I record again as they laugh hysterically.  I record for a good 5 minute.  5 minutes of pure joy.  It's not so much a movie.  But they called it a movie back then.  It's a show basically.  It's 30 minutes long.  It's black and white.  I guess they considered a 30 minute show to be a movie back then.  I don't know.  Then we watch more episodes of the Pink Panther, and soon, it is 8:00.  "Hey, it's been 3 and a half hours since I've given Conan Jr. the medicine.  And he's still not crying.  It says that Infants Motrin gets rid of pain, and reduces fever.  I was thinking of giving it to him, but now that I think of it, that wouldn't be good to give it to him if he doesn't have symptoms.  I think we should all go to bed.  It couldn't hurt to get an early night.  I hope Luna sleeps well."  I Say.  "I'm sure she will.  I see your concern though.  She slept all night last night, actually she woke up once last night.  So you think it might be too early for her.  But she'll be fine.  Remember when they used to sleep all day for the first 2 weeks or so?  And if she has a hard time, she's not gonna be up all night.  That's for sure.  Her body will make her sleep when she needs to.  Just tuck her in, turn on the dream Light Pillow Pet, and everything.  That should help."  Conan Says.  "Yeah, and besides, you and I need sleep, and so does Conan Jr.  he slept horrible last night.  And he needs it more than us.  We've been up the same amount of times last night and for just as long, but he's a BABY!  Sleep is way more important for him."  I Say.  So, Conan and I go to the nursery room, to tuck Luna into her crib.  We turn on the dream light and give her a kiss on the forehead.  "Goodnight, sleep well sweet girl!"  I Say.  I ask Conan Jr.  "Are you ready for bed?  I think you need to go to bed early."  I Say, as I carry him up by my shoulder.  He doesn't bite and he doesn't cry! Not for the moment. So we get to our room, and place Conan Jr. in the Bassinet, and tuck him in. We kiss him goodnight, and crawl into our bed. Conan and I start cuddling, and soon, we heard Conan Jr. snoring. Cutest little snore ever! "Wait I gotta get this." I say. "Me too." He says, so we both grab our phones and record. After a minute, we stop recording and put our phones down to cuddle. "Ahhh, it feels so good to be in bed. And I'm happy, it's been almost 5 hours. The medicine stopped working 2 hours ago, and he still hasn't felt any pain. I'm happy that the medicine worked!" I say. "Yeah, me too! You're such a good mom. See? You got the medicine that would be best for our child. It was right! And it was nice he hasn't cried in a whole 5 hours! And we will sleep tonight that means. Because if he cries Even in the middle of the night, in pain, you can give him the Motrin. Cause that lasts longer. So it will be only once that he wakes up." Conan says. "Yeah, I'm so excited. I love getting a good nights sleep. It's important for our sanity." I say.  We quickly fall asleep.