Dear Journal,
I can't handle it anymore.
I haven't heard from them since the day they left. Phil had sent me a text checking to see if I was okay, but I didn't respond. In fact, I haven't really left my house since Sunday.
After my shift at work ended, I quit. I had the money to support myself. I got a check every week from my publisher. And after making an agreement with the coffee shop, I would get a check from them also for selling my banana creme muffins, that were now avaliable to the public. I was fine money wise.
I had gone straight to Tesco after my last shift at work and stocked up on food. Ten bags of crisps, four bags of Sour Patch Kids, two bags of Maltesers, six boxes of popcorn, five packages of bacon, three packages of sausage links, four family-sized bags of Lucky Charms, two cartons of eggs, and two gallons of milk. Oh, and thirty cans of Monster. The lady in the checkout was looking at me like I was preparing for the zombie apocalypse. Or maybe the alpacalypse...ugh, no, stop it.
I had also made the mistake of tweeting a picture of Dan laying in his existential crisis hallway, saying that was how I was feeling, initially causing my Twitter to explode. So I decided to put my phone and laptop somewhere I wouldn't be tempted to go on it. I have kept myself busy by playing Scrabble by myself, listening to music, or cleaning up things that were pretty much spotless. I think I officially have a serious case of OCD.
You know, now that I think about it, it makes sense why I haven't heard from Dan and Phil. My phone has been out of my sight for about 51 straight hours. I should probably check it. Oh, look. Six missed calls from Phil and three from Dan. Eleven unread messages from Phil and forty-six from Dan. Oh look. I'm getting a call from Dan right now. *sigh* might as well answer it. Later, journal. Wish me luck.
Sincerely,
Alec************
Ugh. Sorry about this filler chapter. It is extremely short and it makes me feel sad just reading it over. Things get pretty intriguing in the next few chapters. In fact, I only have one completely finished chapter left before I get to the one I'm writing at this current moment. Therefore, I am updating one tomorrow, and then Tuesday. I'm going to try to work out a schedule for all of my stories. So, until tomorrow.Yours Mercilessly,
Andromeda Leigh Barnett
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