The One (o.m. & c.f.)

13. I Blame Hollywood

We got off at Euston station and I hugged Olly goodbye, kissed Francesca on the cheek and Olly and Jack shuck hands.

“Bye Caroline, have a good birthday and ring me later this week okay?” Olly said while waving.

We got into my car at the station. “What were you and Olly crying about on the train?” Jack asked.

“Oh we just said that we were missing each other” I lied what else were there to do?

“Oh okay” Jack shrugged.

Jack packed his clothes then left. He gave me a small kiss on the cheek before he left the door. “Caz I’ll be back before Christmas, I’ll text you and stuff” The Olly stuff had hit him hard and It was all going so well.

November was soon gone and I was still in Strictly! I was on instagram and there was a photo of Jack and Dianna Argon an actress. They were hugging and he was kissing her cheek. I texted Jack.

When did you get close with Dianna?

He replied quite quickly

Since Sam’s music video, we’re only friends.

Liar I thought.

Yeah and me and Olly were only friends, Jack I made that line up I know what it means.

That weekend came and went and Jack had tweeted saying ‘vote for Caroline’ I still felt so upset that he would do something like that to me since he had just proposed!

I replied saying ‘trying to loosen the guilt Jack? Fill yourself with Glee’ I was quite happy with myself for the small pun. But I realised I was getting loads of notifications through since nobody knew we had broken up. I deleted it and replaced it with ‘it’s not bad to be sad’.

While rehearsing for our Argentine Tango Pasha had called in a surprise guest.

“Caz!” Olly called walking through the door. I was so happy to see him so I ran up and hugged him.

“Ols” I squealed as he spun me around.

“What’s Jack done?” he asked when we sat down on the floor.

I told him the story and by the end I was crying my eyes out and he was hugging me.

“And I don’t know why I’m wearing this fucking ring!” I took it off my finger and through it across the room. “Anyway do you want to watch the dance?”

“Of course” Olly stood up and helped me up.

“Can you two dance together?” The camera man asked.

“Sure” Olly got hold of my hands and twirled me around.

“You ready for the lift” I joked.

“Go for it!” he joked too. I ran towards him just stopped both of bursting into fits of laughter.

“You just have to stay positive with Caroline” Olly said into the camera, he walked over and hugged me. “That’s what I’ve learnt from working with her”

After the cameras went off I had to ask Olly. “I know it’s a big ask but please can you stay the night, if you want I’ll sleep on the sofa but the house just feels so lonely without a man there”

“Why would you sleep on the sofa” he nudged me. “I thought we were close enough to share the same bed.”

“Shut up Murs!” I laughed playfully hitting him.

We got to mine and I was so tired so I left Olly downstairs to watch TV while I went to bed. I pulled on a baggy top and fell into a deep sleep knowing I was safe with an alpha male in the house. I woke up by the strong winds and Olly was still fast asleep, he had his arms around me still wearing his top and jeans.  I felt bad that I fell asleep before I asked I’m he wanted any clothes to sleep in. I rolled over and looked at the time and the clock said 1:34 ‘it’s going to be a long night’ I muttered aloud.

“What?” Olly replied half asleep.

“Just talking to myself, do you want something to wear?” I got out of bed before he could tell me not to and I rooted about in one of my draws and found a pair of tracksuit bottoms that belonged to Olly and I threw them at him.

“I was looking for these!” he got out of bed and put them off before climbing back into bed with me topless. “Snuggle up its freezing” he whispered, I did what I was told and clambered into his arms, which was somewhere I had missed being.

We woke up and Olly decided it was best if he left because we knew what Francesca would be thinking, she’d be jealous. I had to leave early any way to go to rehearsals it’s all I was doing lately, dance then fitting in sleep around it. Pasha had understood that I was upset he added in more work to keep my mind off it.  I rarely ate; I had no time for it however it was really unhealthy since I was losing too much weight from dancing 8am to 9pm every day. Saturday was amazing and the dance was flawless and I was really in the mood, the character I was taking the role of became really prominent because of Jack and my personal life. After Saturday night’s show I decided to do something I hadn’t done in a while, I went to the local corner shop and bought a packet of cigarettes. I used to socially smoke, however it’s a really bad habit of mine was smoking when I was depressed. It happened after Harry and I was going through the same thing with Jack.