The One (o.m. & c.f.)

12. Why Do I Love You?

We got to the station in Blackpool and Olly and Francesca were stood on the same platform, he saw me and walked over.

“Happy Birthday!” He picked me up and spun me around and kissed my cheek.

I laughed “Thank you Ols” I opened my eyes and Francesca’s eyes were locked on Olly’s hands on my lower back and Jacks eyes were locked on Olly’s face.

“Are you getting this train?” He asked sarcastically.

“Nope getting one tomorrow” I joked back and he playfully slapped me. “Where’s your helicopter?” I looked up at the sky pretending to search for a helicopter.

“It’s his day off on Sundays” He joked back.

In first class it was just the four of us so we sat on a table seat, me and Jack opposite Olly and Francesca.  Jack had his headphones on and had his head buried into his phone and Francesca had her headphones on and was reading a book.

“Good company” Olly mouthed to me.

“Always”

“Are you going to buy my new album?” He laughed.

“Um no I wasn’t planning on it” he kicked me under the table.

“Ow!”  I yelled laughing; it caused Jack to look up. He saw Olly’s grin and looked back down again.

“You want a coffee?” Olly asked me while standing up.

“I’ll come with you” I stood up as well and nudged Jack. “Jack we’re off to get a coffee do you want one?” He nodded and put his headphones back in.

“Fran you want a coffee?” Olly asked Francesca.

“Yes please Ols” She smiled at Olly.

We got out of the cubical and walked towards the bar on the train.

“One latte and one soya skinny latte” Olly said to the barista. He turned back to me “We’ll drink one in here, we can talk properly.” 

Me and Olly sat opposite each other, I took a sip of my coffee, and Olly looked at my hand and straight away I knew what he was looking at. My ring. I hadn’t taken it off since I didn’t know we were going to bump into anyone we knew.

“When were you going to tell me?” He asked, he sounded pissed off.

“He proposed Friday; we didn’t want anyone we know. But you know you’d of been the first person i'd of told.”

“The thing I’m wondering is why do I love you?” He looked me straight in the eye. I sat there gobsmacked, saying this was one thing but saying it after he found out I was engaged! “Another thing, why do I care?”

“Olly, you knew I felt that way about you for ages, but now I’ve found someone, someone I love, someone I’m going to marry. You tell me the words I’ve wanted to hear for 3 years.” I stood and went to the bar. “Please can I have a latte” I paid and he handed me a paper cup. “Let’s just forget about that okay?” I walked back to where we were sitting.

“Finally” Jack laughed and took his coffee off me.

“Where’s Olly?” Francesca asked.

“I don’t know I thought he was behind me” I sat back next to Jack and held his hand. I leant over and whispered. “Olly knows” He squeezed my hand in a sort of reply or it could of been relief. Since he now knew Olly wouldn’t try anything. Olly came back and sat next to Francesca and handed her the coffee. Olly leant over and kissed her. I knew what he was doing. He was trying to show me that he was fine without me and he was trying to make me jealous, two can play that game. I thought.

“Jack, can we move into a bigger house?” I pulled mine and Jacks interlocked hands onto the table, clearly showing off the ring.

“Why?” He played with my fingers.

“Don’t we want room for kids?” I looked over to Olly and he was going red with envy. I knew he wanted kids, he loved kids and it was his dream to be married and to have kids before the age of 35.

“I guess” Jack shrugged.

“Good” I placed my hands around his face and kissed him. “I love you” I mouthed to Jack. Francesca was staring at us in aw whereas Olly was glaring at us.

“Caroline I thought you didn’t want kids?” Olly gritted through his teeth.

“Well now I’ve met the right person I do” I gazed at Jack.

“I thought Harry was the right person?”

I turned my head and glared at Olly he knew that that was a part of my life I didn’t want to remember. “No” I snapped. “I know Jack won’t do what Harry did”

“Francesca do you want kids?” I asked her sweetly.

“No, not really I don’t like the idea of having screaming children in my usually quiet house” She smiled. Olly’s face dropped.

“I guess you just need to find the right person, anyway please excuse me I need to use the ladies room” I stood up and walked down the corridor.

“Caroline!” Olly snapped behind me, I turned around and saw him before going into the toilet. He managed to open it before I could lock it.

“Olly let me use the toilet” I tried to reopen it.

“You did that on purpose”

“Did what on purpose?”

“Don’t act smug Caroline”

“Well you started it, you know I could be a bitch and today you saw it” He grabbed hold of my left hand.

“I wanted to be the one to give you a diamond ring, I wanted to be the one that you had kids with” He looked into my eyes.

“Olly please don’t, you’re only saying that now because I’m happy”

“I am, you're right, but it doesn’t mean it’s not true. I’d do anything for you. I don’t believe in anything without you, thought I had nothing to lose, thought I had nothing to prove to you. Darlin I have nothing without you. I’m a mess, I’m a joke.”  Tears started forming in his eyes.

“Olly please stop” I started crying too and he pulled me into a hug.

“I’m sorry, friends?” I could feel his tears on my cheek.

“Friends, now please let me use the toilet in peace” I laughed and shoved him out.

When I returned I realised how red his eyes were.

“You’ve been crying?” Jack said when I sat down.

“Yeah, but we’re fine now aren’t we?” I looked at Olly and smiled.

“We’re perfect Caz” He smiled back; Jack looked over to us and pulled a face which I could see out of the corner of my eye. 

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Sorry for the over use of Olly lyrics

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