The One (o.m. & c.f.)

24. Thinking Of Me

Olly had gone to his sisters for a few days for a catch up with his family while he left me alone in my London flat. Xtra factor wasn’t going too well, me and Olly had some fall outs over stupid things and it was straining our relationship so It was good that he went away to Fay’s. I reached into the back of the bowl cupboard and found the packet of cigarettes I bought back in December. I laid on my bed while smoking, I’d of gone outside but my neighbours know I am pregnant, and knowing them they’d tell the press and if it’s a slow news day it’d get printed. I was on the sofa having the last cigarette in the pack of 20 when the door opened.

“Caroline?” Olly called.

“Shit” I muttered I stubbed out the cigarette and put it in the ash tray.

“How are you darlin?” he walked into the lounge and I could tell the smell of smoke hit him. “Caroline, you haven’t?”

“No I haven’t Olly, Lou was round” He sighed a sigh of relief and lent over to kiss me. I moved my face away so his lips kissed my cheek.

“I’m just going for a wee, again” I stood up and waddled towards the stairs. I was due next month and I was massive. I could hear him rattle in my cupboards in the room below. I returned downstairs and Olly was stood on the bottom step holding the empty cigarette packet.

“Why did you lie?” He sounded so upset.

“Because I knew this would happen”

“Exactly Caroline I’m going to go”

I stood on the steps and watched him leave, tears staring running down my cheeks, I did the only thing I could think of doing. Texted Lou Teasdale.

‘Chick come round? And bring cigs!xxx’

She replied almost instantly saying yes and within half an hour we were sat on my sofa both smoking and laughing.

“Caroline aren’t you 8 months pregnant?” Lou stopped laughing and stared at me.

“Yep I am, due the 20th of August” I took another drag.

“When are you filming judge’s houses?”

“September so it’s not the school holidays”

“Are you going? I mean what about the baby?”

“I am and my mum said she’ll look after it for a month while we are away” I placed my hand on my belly and felt the baby kick, me and Olly decided not to find out the sex of the baby because we wanted it to be a surprise so we bought unisex clothing mostly all white, we had painted my office and decorated it with zoo animals for the nursery at my flat and we painted the spare bedroom in Olly’s house which was quite a big room so the baby could have it until we move even if we happen to move in 6 years.

“You’re not supposed to be smoking Caz”

“Last one I promise” I smiled as I took back the last few drags and stubbed it out.

Our baby girl was born on August 17th 2015, and Olly wasn’t there for the birth since he was still annoyed with me so she was still unnamed. We flew off to New York first for Louis judges houses with the groups, me and Olly only spoke to each other when we had to. For the little surprise for the contestants we took them to central park to see who could roller skate around the whole park quickest in teams. Me and Olly were on opposite teams but had to act really competitive. Some members of a group had noticed me and Olly weren’t friends and picked up on it but other than that I think it was believable enough. Olly’s team won and he picked me up and spun me around.

“In your face Flack!” he joked smiling, I don’t know if he was being serious or if it was for entertainment values. Louis had asked Robbie Williams to be his guest judge and since Olly and Robbie were good friends he knew about our fall out.

“How’s the baby Caroline?” Robbie asked me when we were interviewing him.

“She’s good, she’s at my mum’s at the moment, I cannot wait to get back and hold my baby girl” I smiled, Olly’s smiled dropped.

“Are you going to release who the dad is yet” Robbie joked; he knew who the father was.

“I don’t know if he wants it revealed yet, but I’m happy for it to come out” I smiled at Robbie. “You’re interviewing me, it’s supposed to be the other way round!” I laughed.

“I know” Robbie smiled placing his hand on my knee.

“Robbie how have you been?” Olly asked changing the subject.

“Changing the subject because he’s jealous” Robbie whispered loud enough for the microphones to pick up and loud enough for Olly to hear.

“I am very jealous, Carrie is beautiful” he kissed me on the cheek. It burned, I had missed his touch so much and I grabbed hold of his hand.

“Olly” I smiled.