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SORRY FOR NOT UPDATE WHEN I WAS SUPPOSE TO SCHOOL WAS BEING A BITCH I HAD ALOT OF STUDYING TO DO AND HAD NO TIME TO UPDATE. SO I DECIDED TO DO AT 11 AT NIGHT ON A SCHOOL NIGHT :)
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I saw des walking and I rolled my eyes and kept walking " y/n holdup " des said. She reached for me and walked besides me
" the fuck you want " I said annoyed " woah you on your period or sum " she replied " no I'm not on my fucking period, bitch I trusted you with that shit you fucking p-promised me you w-wouldnt tell you lying piece of shit " i cried " I'm sorry I just wanted your dad locked up for wait he did to you " she said " dosen't matter, what matters is that your a bitch who can't keep promises" and with that I walked away
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I made it to school with people giving me stares, I ran to the bathroom and cried my eyes out " I wanna fucking die " I cried out hesterically. I cried so I hard I started vomiting. I finished and cleaned my face and realised my makeup to cover my bruise washed off. " eh the bruise ain't that bad " I said to myself and walked to class.

" okay class we're gonna finish the project so find your partners and work on that " she smiled. I couldn't be bothered moving so I expected Mattia to come to me which he did. " So did you start on the project " he asked " uh yeah I'm actually finished " I quietly said. The door opened and des came I looked at her then looked back down. she came up to me " Im sorry " she said  I shrugged. She kept looking at me then cried and ran out the class. " What was that about " he asked " WHY DO YOU FUCKING CARE BRO, STOP ASKING ME THESE TYPE OF STUPID SHIT ITS FUCKING ANNOYING " I shouted at him " FUCKING CHILL, YOU UGLY PIECE
OF SHIT JUST FUCKING KILL YOURSELF THEN I WOULD BE HAPPY TO FINALLY NOT DEAL WITH YOUR SHIT " he said.

I stared at him with no emotion " wait y/n I do didnt- " I cut him off " it's fine if that's what you want " and then I walked out and ran out of school.

I sat by an old bridge and started crying " I wish you were here mom " I cried ( I know I said that the mom abuses her to but just pretend the mom was a good person but died :) )

" gosh I miss you so much. Mom I'm in pain I can't handle this, I got called ugly today he's right I got these ugly scars and bruises. Im gonna see you today and I can finally rest and be happy for once since you left me " I said staring at the sky. I took deep breaths looking over the edge of the bridge and closing my eyes.
" I'm coming mom " I said then jumped off the bridge.

I hit my head on the rock then passed out.

Mattia pov

" fine if that's what you want " she said with no emotion then walked out of the class. " Mattia what was that " the teacher said
" she was being Hella annoying ".

*skip to after school*

I walked home and went straight to my room " matti " I hear my mom yell " coming " I shout back. I walk to the lounge and see her sitting down watching the news " look watch this " she said and turns up the volume.

news:
Today a body has been found at the little Falls lake behind Passiac Valley High School by a by passer who called authorities right away here is what he said
" I went for a walk to clear my mind and then I sat by the lake staring at the sky and I looked down at the lake and saw a body of a teenage girl I rushed in and pulled her out but she had blood dripping from her head and had no pulse so I called the ambulance " he said
The teenage girl has been identified as y/n Valentina ( I actually can't remember the last name ) who actually attended the phvs.
Authorities are now investigating why her body was in the lake.

" what the fuck " I whispered. No It can't be her. " Do you know her " my mum questioned " yeah she was in my class " I walked off and called des. " Hello " her voice sounded as if she has been crying " uh hey did you see the news " I said " yeah I'm my on my way to her " she replied " I'm coming " I said " I think the fuck not, your probably the reason she did this " she angrily said
" what? What do you mean " I said confused " she told about what you do you to her you ignorant piece of shit " she shouted then hung up.

I layed down and cried " I'm so sorry y/n "

Back to your pov

I heard faint shouting I slowing opened my eyes and saw nurses around me one was hold a mask on my face and pumping air in me the others were hold the side of the bed and running down the hall. I closed my eyes again and woke up in a garden " where am I " I looked around and saw a lady picking flowers I tapped her should " hello ? " I said she turned around and my eyes widened " mom " I cried then hugged her. " What are you doing here " she questioned " mummy I'm in pain I hated life i wanna be with you " I cried " no baby not yet, you have people who care about you down there you can't leave them " she said softly " no one cares about me. Dad hits me and I get bullied " I said " you can't stay here baby, your gonna have to go back " she cried
" No please let me stay " i cried even more " mommy " a little voice said. I turned around and saw a little girl who looked kinda like me. " Hey baby " she smiled and grabbed her " who's this " the girl said " faith baby this is your sister y/n " my mum said
" sister ? " I asked confused " yeah I had a miscarriage " she said quietly. Faith dugged her face in my mom's chest " can I hold her before I go " I asked " sure " then my mom handed me her. " Hey Bubba " I smiled " hi " she quietly. I held her in arms and rocked her and looked down at her and she was asleep I kissed her cheeks and gave her back to my mom

des pov
I arrived to the hospital and walked to the front desk " hi I'm looking for y/n Valentina " the lady looked through the computer " room 213 " she smiled " thanks " I said then walked off. I walked in her room and saw her lifeless body she had wires connected to body, I just stood there and cried. I eventually walked up to her and sat next to her and held her hand then a nurse walked in
" friend of miss Valentina " she asked I nodded. " Well she's in critical conditions, since she my hit her head she may not remember anything maybe not you. But right now she's in coma she should be waking up this week " she smiled then went. I cried softly and held her hand tighter " I'm so sorry " I cried
" damn what will I even do without you, even since that argument we had I cried so hard, the thought of losing you as a friend is killing me, I'm really sorry I should have never told anyone about your problems and just kept my mouth, but it's just the thought of you being hurt makes me sad your dad deserves jail. But I hope when you wake up I hope you remember me " i cried the kissed her forehead and walked out.

Its been 2 months and y/n is still in coma I cry every night I haven't gone school but mum is forcing me to go today.
Damn what will school be like with out y/n. I walked out and saw someone I didn't expect to see

" what the fuck " I said quietly.

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Am I the only one who listens to sad music while writing these types of things or reading something sad. But eh I'll update tomorrow 😉 also sorry for mistake cbf doing it right.