lifestyle || m.p™

" I fucking hate you "

" okay bet were switching then " des smirked

" I know what you can do " she whispered in my ear

" okay go ahead " I said. She told me what is should do

" fuck no I ain't doing that " I shrieked

" You have to you said anything " she smiled

" why does it have to involve him " I whined

I thought about it " okay fine " I said then continued eating
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y/n pov

" Im gonna regret this " I sighed I walked up to Mattia and tapped him in the shoulder " what " he slightly yelled.

" look I was wondering if you would like to come to the diner with me and des " I said hoping he would anwser quickly so I could get this over and done with. " yeah sure " he smiled

" Great " I sacastically smiled and walked off rolling my eyes

* After school *

" your a piece of shit letting me do this " I said

" hey you agreed to it " she laughed.

we were being anti then decided to get ready. I wore something comfortable like grey sweats, spaghetti straps and Jordans, I left my hair out and walked out with des and waited for Mattia to pull up.

* 20 mins later *

he finally arrived " damn took y'all long enough " I sighed " sorry the boys wanted to come " Mattia said.

* At the diner *

I sat across from Mattia and des was next to me " so what y'all ordering " Mattia asked " idk I feel like a burger " I said still looking through the menu.

we ordered and started talking to each other. " so y/n why did you invite Mattia " ale smirked " look I didn't want to okay des told me to " I said rolling my eyes " so you didn't want me to come " Mattia said " no obviously but des here told me to " I sacastically smiled at him " fuck you " he shouted

" fuck me, fuck you, you bitch " I yelled. " I actually kinda thought we were getting along " he said " getting along ? IVE TRIED MY HARDEST TO BE NICE TO YOU BUT YOU JUST RUIN IT. WHEN I ENDED UP IN HOSPITAL I THOUGHT YOUD CHANGE BUT NO YOUR STILL THE SELFISH PRICK YOU  WERE IN FRESHMAN YEAR, YOU LET ME LIVE IN FUCKING HELL AND I HATE YOU FOR IT. AND YOUR THE REASON WHY I JUMPED OFF THAT FUCKING BRIDGE "  I yelled back with tears in my eyes

" You should of died " he said calmly

That's it I couldn't take it I grabbed my plate of food threw it at him and hopped on the table punching and kicking him till des held me " LET ME GO " I screamed. MattiA stared at me with tears in his eyes

" I-I H-HATE YOU M-MATTIA I FUCKING HATE YOU " I choked out still crying.

* at home *

Des comforted me and we watched movies. I walked in the bathroom and locked the doors looking in the mirror " just do it
y/n don't be a pussy, no one wants you here " I said to my self

I ran a bath and stripped till I was in my underwear and bra. I grabbed the pocket knife that was in the draw and brang it in the bath with me " I'm sorry des " I whispered. I drew deep lines with the knife and the water slowly turning into a dark red colour.

I cut again then I started feeling  dizzy, the pocket knife slipped out of my hands as I sank in the water and blacked out ( with my head still underwater obv ).

Des pov

y/n was taking long so decided to check on her " hey y/n you ok " I said knocking in the door. No reply, I knocked on the door, no reply. I started panicking and started banging in the door " Y/N PLEASEE OOPPEN THE DOOR " I cried. I was kicking and punching the door nothing worked.

I did something I would probably regret and y/n wouldn't have wanted. But I had to

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sorry for not updating I kinda was lazy but I'll do another chapter later on today 😊