remember those nights,
when i refused to let you in
and pushed you off my bed,
to keep you at bay?
you'd stand by the side
and tug at me
asking me to let you in
although i never did.
you felt like champagne
to my penniless life,
i was used to cheap liquor
and you were someone i couldn't afford.
yet you'd taunt me,
day in and out
promise me of better days
and drowsy nights.
you'd reach out to me
even when i pushed you away,
you'd call me your little one
and ask me to let you stay.
you were a luxury
that my heart couldn't accept
so i looked the other way
and silently prayed for you to wait.
months and years rolled by,
yet i never caved
so tell me darling,
how did you manage to stay?
i wasn't the right fit
to the warmth that you carried,
then why pick me
when you had an assortment ready?
maybe i was selfish
when i pretended to not notice,
how you climbed into my bed every night
and gathered me in your arms.
i kept my eyes closed,
even as you whispered sweet words to me;
soft kisses against my cheek,
how i wish i could tell you
they left butterflies in my tummy.
i told you i hate softness,
and hid my gentle side from you
but you reached deep into my heart
and pulled out every bit of darkness.
you treated me carefully,
like you believed
i'd break at one wrong touch or move,
how do i tell you,
you whisked my heart away too?
so come dance under the moonlight with me,
knock windows on car doors
and seek for me
like you once promised to.
come hide under the daylight with me,
hold me close and hold me tight;
and i promise
i won't let you down this time around.
i miss you & always will. found this in one of my hidden notes and had to bring this out.
