✨Josh Richards FanFic✨

I'll Just Have To Pretend For Now

I stayed in my room while Avani made everyone leave. Josh has been waiting at my door for the past hour and for that hour I've been doing research on this lady. She is a difficult women to find but I finally found her. The man she helped block out his feelings is actually in a mental hospital now.

"Damn, will this happen to me? Oh well, Yolo." I whisper this to myself. 

I already have my escape plan ready so all I have to do is put it into motion. I changed my clothes to something more 'in the middle of the woods' kind of style. I opened my window and climbed down. It was pretty easy since my house wasn't that big. I successfully landed on the floor and walked to my car when I made sure no one was outside.

I drove off and took a thirty minute drive to the location. I jumped out of my car and went straight into the woods. I walked the same path the article said that the man took. I walked for about fifteen minutes and just when I was about to give up, I see a shop resting on a small hill. I walk towards it and knock on the door. A young woman comes out and stands tall before me.

"Wow. That's a weird mark from your soulmate." She speaks in an enchanting voice.

"Wait, you can see my marks?"

"Yes. I also know why you're here. Want to hide your emotions from your soulmate huh?" 

I started getting freaked out but swallowed my fear down and faced her head on.

"Okay. So, what do we do now?" 

"Come in." She walked away leaving her door open for me. I enter her home and look at her as she starts working on some type of drink.

I look around and see a bunch of different elixirs. 

"What did you mean when you said that I have a weird mark from my soulmate?" I asked her as she mixed some liquid together. 

"You and your soulmate have a strange connection. It's almost as if you two can't keep your hands off of each other."

My mind wanders to every time Josh and I were together. We haven't gone a day without touching all up on each other. 

"If you aren't holding onto each other, even in the slightest way, you start to itch. As if you are addicted to each other." 

"Isn't that a bit toxic?"

"Not really. My soulmate and I were fine."

"What?" I ask while I hold a bottle that I took off of the shelf.

"My soulmate was a hot woman who loved me with all her heart. She never let me feel alone. She was there when I needed her and there when I thought I wanted to be alone but actually needed someone to hold me and tell me that they love me."

"What happened to her?"

"I broke her heart."

I dropped the bottle and it smashed.

"Sorry."

"It's fine." She gives me a bottle full of sparkly black liquid. 

"Drink this and it's done. You'll be able to hide your emotions from your soulmate." 

I looked at the bottle and thought about Josh. He's always worried about me and I don't want him to be. 

"If I take this, what color will his marks be?" 

"They will be whatever color you want. You want him to see yellow then just imagine his colors as yellow and then they will be. You're in control of your own emotions now." 

My marks went red and I didn't know why. Maybe Nessa and Chase didn't leave?

"Thanks, I have to go. Can I ask you one question before I go?"

"Yes."

"Do you regret it? Breaking her heart?"

"Everyday."

"Too bad a broken heart can't be fixed."

"Maybe." She says with a wink.

I didn't know what she meant by that but my marks started to burn which meant that Josh was extremely angry. I had to leave immediately. 

I ran to my car and drove off. The drive felt longer coming back from the words rather than when I was going to the woods. I finally reached my house and parked my car. Before getting out of my car I decided to drink the bottle. There's no going back now. I start walking to my front door and see that Anthony was waiting on my porch. 

"Anthony? Where's Josh?" I ask noticing that my marks were still red.

"He saw that you were searching up that lady in the woods and went to go look for you."

"Oh. I didn-" 

"You're emotions are hidden now aren't they?"

"Yeah."

Anthony looked at me with a sad look.

"I won't say anything. When I told you guys the story I thought about it and I realized I would've done the same thing. If I knew that I would be sad and there was nothing to fix it then I wouldn't want Avani to know that I was feeling that way. So, I understand and I won't say anything to Josh."

"Wow. You don't usually talk that much." We both laughed at my joke.

"Thank you. For understanding. Josh is always so worried and I hate the fact that he can see when I'm sad or jealous because sometimes I just don't want him to know. Sometimes I just want to wallow in my emotions without making Josh upset."

"I get it. I use to hate it when Avani was able to see my emotions." I made a weird face but then realized there were no marks on Anthony.

"Wait, what? How did you get rid of your marks?" 

"You and Josh really need to do your research. I'll let you figure all that out on your own. Don't go looking it up either." Anthony says this but doesn't continue speaking when he sees Josh's car pull up.

"You should go. He's pretty mad."

"Yeah I'll go. See you later Y/N." After that Anthony makes a great escape while Josh gets out of his car and approaches me. I stand up ready for the yelling.

"What the fuck Y/N? Why would you go see her? You said you wouldn't do that."

"I couldn't find her." I sent him a smile.

"So, you didn't take anything? You didn't eat anything weird?" I laugh at him.

"No I didn't." I lied.

"Okay." Josh smiled and hugged me tightly. 

I was sad about lying to him so I did what the lady said and instead of Josh's marks turning blue they turned yellow. I held him tight while I tried my best not to cry. His colors were yellow but it was all a lie. Josh doesn't deserve to be lied to but I know it's for the best to just hide my feelings for now.

I'll just have to pretend for now...