Vampire queen

Chapter 12

I bursted through the front door the house we were staying in. I don't feel comfortable yet calling it my home. I see Logan but I just walk right passed him. I don't want to talk about it. I just need space. Kyle, my childhood best friend, kissed me. I ran into my bedroom and shut the door behind me. I slid to the floor against the door. I didn't want to lose Kyle but I also don't know how I feel about him. I thought I could force my way back in his life as this new person but I don't know. There was a knock at the door. "I don't care who it is. I don't want to talk." I yell through the door. "I know. Just open the door and let me sit with you. If you end up wanting to talk I'll be there." Logan says through the door. I don't want to let him in but I can't just ignore him. I get up off the floor and open the door. I sit on the bed and Logan sits on the floor by the bed. 

He just sits there in silence with me. Just letting me process all these thoughts that are going through me head. Till finally he breaks the silence. "Why were you in the cemetery?" Logan asked. 

"What? How did you know?" I asked. "Where you following me?" 

"Well, I told you I was going to look out for you. I didn't follow you once your friend got there. I thought you would be fine." He responds. 

"His name is Kyle. I was in the cemetery because maybe I needed to say goodbye to who I used to be." I explain. 

"You are still you. You are the same person that you were before you became a queen. I just hope one day you see that and that one day you take who you were and turn her into someone who leads with great strength." Logan says to me. His face is serious and I know he is telling me the truth. 

"Thank you. I think that is something that I needed to hear. Can I ask something?" I asked him. He was still looking at me and just nodded. "Are you turned or born a vampire?" 

"The myth is that we are turned. Truth is that we don't know. It's like one day we woke up like this. We woke up and we stopped aging, getting sick, we are faster, stronger, and it's harder for us to die. There is one story of the handsome vampire that fell in love with the human. They had so much love for each other that somehow a child came of that love. I don't know if that is true or just a story." Logan tells me in this voice that is of a parent tell a child a bed time story. He has this old way about him. Some of his mannerisms are so old school and the way he talks it almost reminds me of someone from a show I watched ironically. He reminds me of a Elijah from The Vampire Diaries. Though he looks nothing like him. 

"But aren't we like dead?" I ask trying to distract myself from how slightly attractive Logan is. 

"Yes and no. If you listen close enough our heart doesn't beat but we still walk around like we are alive." He answers. 

I nod. "Do you love him, Kyle?" Logan asked and I can hear his voice crack almost as though he wasn't sure about the asking. 

"I don't think I love him in the way he needs me to love him. I love him like family as though he was my brother. I don't love him like he loves me. Or who I sort of am." I answer as honestly as I can. He doesn't say anything. We just sit in silence again. 

"why are you so concerned about Kyle? Why haven't you gone to check on your family? Not that I support that but it just seems odd to me." Logan says breaking the silence. 

"The only family member I am concerned for is my little brother Jamie. He deserves the world but he is stuck in this home with a mother who is never really home. I basically raised him. He is at an age now where he was starting to not need me as much anymore, so it is a little easier. Don't get me wrong he is still little, plus I know Kyle is looking out for him. Kyle on the other hand doesn't have anyone. He only had me. That is why I'm so concerned for him." I explain. 

"I understand now." Logan says as he slowly gets up off the floor. He walks to the door and slowly starts to open it. He turns to look back at me parts his lips and shakes his head before he leaves the room gently shutting the door behind him. I can't help but stare at the door. He wanted to say something so why didn't he just say it? Honestly I think that's the most time he has spent with me. 

I shut the light out and curl up into bed. Thoughts racing through my mind of not only Kyle but now Logan. Logan has something about him and those green eyes could break some real hearts. I shake my head. No! Only one boy at a time. Plus I can't feel something for a guy right now when I can't even look at myself in the mirror.