Again

TWO

Again- part 2

As I walked out, the snow fell on my hair, chilling my body to the core, I took a deep breath and walked out hoping to find a taxi, to my luck, a guy was waiting there, seemingly due to lack of customers, I walked towards him and got in, giving my address to him.
After reaching home, I sat down on my couch taking a deep breath. I couldn't believe what I did, but I just shrugged everything off and unpacked everything and organized my stuff in my room.

I felt a grumble from my stomach, I sighed and opened my refrigerator, hoping to find something, but as expected, there was nothing.

I changed into a turtleneck sweater dress and a long overcoat to match it, after putting on earrings and lipgloss, I took my wallet and walked out.

Soon, I sat at a roadside food stall, it was almosst empty since it was too cold but not completely deserted. I asked the lady to give me some dumplings and ramen, hoping to fill my stomach.

Soon, I was given a large bowl of steaming hot ramen and dumplings, making me extremely happy as I slurped on the noodles.
" Would you like some soju to warm you up?" the lady asked smiling. I nodded without thinking much about it.

It's not gonna be a big deal, I feel lonely tho, I should just watch some videos while eating. I thought to myself and opened the k-drama I was watching. The lady just laughed at me and left after delivering a glass and a bottle of the soju.

I poured myself a glass and took it down as a one-shot while watching the male lead being lovey with the female lead, he picked the female lead up and gave her a piggyback ride.

Somehow this reminded me of jungkook, I was mad at myself. Y/n you freaking broke up with him because you dont love him. Why are you falling for him again? The voice in my head said.

I tried to shrug everything off and poured myself another glass and bit on a dumpling, not noticing that it was too hot, I burnt my own tongue, I immediately grabbed onto the bottle of soju and chugged it, hoping it would soothe my tongue, I didnt realize how much of a fool I was to do that.

I closed the drama I was watching and decided to scroll through my messages, to see if anyone texted, there were a few texts from my family's gc that I chose to ignore.

I opened my gallery, and found myself scrolling through photos of me and jungkook, I don't know how, but hot tears seemed to flow out of my eyes. I wiped them quickly and sniffed.

" Aunty, can you get me a bottle of soju please?" I asked and gulped the remaining soju in my bottle. She sighed as she got more and gave me, I opened it and slowly sipped some, still scrolling through the huge folder.

Somehow, I ended up opening the photo we took when we went camping with the school, somehow, our teacher mixed up my name with a boy's and I had to share a room with him, we were so young, so beautiful, and full of happiness, blushing at each other's presence and not sleeping all night.

Did I do something wrong? Am I right in breaking up with him? Do I really not love him anymore? Am I being stupid? Is it too late to care? These were my thoughts as I scrolled through, my heart couldn't take it anymore, after three bottles of soju, overthinking and the path down to memory lane, the fresh tears flowed out of my eyes.

I left the money on the table and a 6000 won tip and left the shop, stumbling in the snow while holding my phone and walking through with unsteady pace.

I felt like crying a lot, how was I able to fool myself? I have loved him, always, but I thought I didnt and broke up with him ruthlessly, I was such a fool. The tears seemed they had no intention of stopping.

I sat down on the bench nearby and pulled my knees close, I started crying and I had no intention of stopping, thankfully I grabbed a bottle of soju before leaving, I opened it and downed it quickly, hoping to drown my worries in alcohol.

After finishing the bottle, I was pissed drunk and didn't know what I was doing, I opened my phone and tried to text my sister, but I couldn't see anything, somehow I thought I texted, but seeing no reply, I realized I had to make a call, I just clicked the number that appeared first and it rang, a crisp yet cool voice greeted me.

" Hello?" I said slightly slurring.
" Y/n, where are you?" he asked, his tone inficated that he was worried.
" Lei? Huaze lei? Is it you?" I asked, unsure of what he was saying.
" yes, it's me. Where are you?" he repeated himself.
"O-oh it's really you! Lei?" I was silent.
" What happened y/n?" he asked again.
" Lei am I a fool?" I started crying hard and loud.
" Y/n? Y/n? Where are you? No stop crying please?" he sounded worried.
" No! I won't answer you till you answer me, Am I a fool?" I kept crying.
" oof, let me just find uou through the GPS, don't move anywhere okay? I can get you soju if you are obedient okay?" he coaxed me like a kid.
" Lei? Are you coming here? Can you get me ice cream please?" I said, sobbing still.
" Yes yes, I can get you anything! Just don't  move" he said and hung up.

I just closed my eyes hoping to rest, and after what seemed like a while, the sound of a car woke me up, I opened my eyes to see properly but the headlights were making my vision blurry.

" Oh you poor thing" someone said and hugged me tightly in his arms.
" lei is it you?" I asked, unsure of who was with me.
" Yes, yeah, it's me, lei. Let's go" he picked me up, soon my vision was blank, and I was laying passed out in lei's car.