Blood Red (EDITING)

My fault

Chapter 45
I wake up with a gasp just as Marie walks into the room. When she sees I'm awake she runs over and hugs me. My shoulder hurts a bit as a result but I'm fine.
"Marie," I start as I immediately bring my hand up to my lower stomach where 4 large bruises have formed.
"They are fine. I think that's what the bruises are, your wolf was protecting them. Axton kinda found out by the way." She breaths and I let out a squeak.
"How?"
"He laid his head on your belly about 5 minutes ago then stumbled out if the room. And told everybody else." She grinned sheepishly as I groaned. That's not how I wanted that to go.
"Well. Shit. Where is everybody?" I ask as I stand up.
"In the living room but," she paused and I raise my eyebrows. "Xander, Jared and Conner are all dead. Hannah is very injured but will most likely live."
My jaw drops. Xander and Jared and Conner. All dead. Because of me.
"It's my fault." I whimper and sit back on the bed with my head in my hands.
"No it's not. It's that fucker Diego's fault for believing he could take us on and for thinking he could have a woman who wasn't his mate. This is not your fault Dove. All these people loved you or cared enough to put their lives on the line for you." She said firmly as she pulled me into another hug. I soaked in the comfort that alpha females seem to resonate.
"Thank you Marie." I mumbled into her shoulder.
"No problem. Now let's go face all those people out there?"
"Oh no," I groaned before looking around and finding a brush, I pulled it through my hair until it was nice and smooth before I took a deep breath and walked out of the bedroom with Marie.
"Uh. Hey." I said as I awkwardly stood next to Marie with one arm holding the opposite elbow and my head down. I could feel all the eyes on me and I really didn't like that.
Suddenly it felt like a wall hit me but when it wrapped it's arms around me I released a breath I didn't know I was holding and melted into his hold.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He whispered in my ear and sounded so sad that I immediately regretted not telling him.
"I was going to tell you after the first month because that's when it's most probable they could die. Surprise?" I mumbled into his chest.
"I love you." He said and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"I know. I'm so sorry about Xander." I whispered and felt his tense.
"I was so worried about you I didn't even realize..." He trailed off and I felt even worse. He didn't even know his brother was dead. Again because of me.
"I'm so sorry about Xander." I said louder as I pulled away from Axton and looked at Esmerelda and Igor. "And Jared and Conner. It's all my fault." I turned to Melody as I said this. "Are you okay Hannah?" I asked as I walked up to her sitting frame. She was very pale and I could see blood soaking through the back of her shirt.
"I'll be fine. Eventually." She breathed.
"We will mourn. But what's done is done. You're our daughter now. He always said he wanted to die fighting," Esmerelda sniffled before smiling and holding her arms out for me. I ran into them and hugged her. Igor came up behind me and joined the hug. I still feel bad. They let go and I was letting my own tears fall.
"They both wanted to be warriors. Jared and Conner both lost their mates already. I don't think they could have lived happily for much longer anyway." Melody mumbled before I pulled her into my own hug.
"So now what?" Joseph asked from his spot on the couch with his arm around Alicia. I grinned at him and he winked.
"I'd like to find my actually parents. I would really love it if all of you came with me." I shrugged. It would be pretty cool to be a princess.