Finn sat on the edge of the bed holding some blanket to cover his body. It was just him, his bed was half empty.
Last night, wasn't bliss for Finn. He was just trying to forget.
He didnt know he wanted to try to forget, its just what he feels deep down.
It felt like a meaningless hookup. He didnt feel no love at all, he's just trying to force himself that it was love.
She had left, Iris has left. After the one night stand, she was just gone like that.
It wasnt easy for Finn, in fact it was getting worse. One moment his mind was on Millie, the other moment his mind was on Iris.
He thinks that if Iris never helped him, none of this would've been happening.
Which is true, Iris is trying to open up his eyes.
Finn wasn't easy to understand, he would always give mixed signals.
But it doesn't fool Iris, she knows something he doesn't, which titles him as oblivious.
He questioned why she left. Did she think this was a mistake? He thought to himself.
Then, he heard the vibration of his phone in the jeans he was wearing last night, which were on the floor.
He got up and went to grab his phone.
Millie: Come oveerrr. We're having a sleepover!
Finn sighed, he didnt leave her on read he just read it from the notif screen.
He had a box in his closet, he kept it there so no one questioned it.
He didn't know that he would do this ever again, but inside was a small bag of cocaine.
So he did a line. Just one line. He knew if he did more he can possibly overdose.
The coke stimulates the brain. He felt sort of special. This is what made him want to do it over and over again.
But he only placed 1 line of cocaine, so that was good.
He felt better about himself, he forgot about everything.
He felt energetic, his foot tapped quickly. He stared at the wall.
His heart rate was fast, he could feel it. But he ignored it. His smile was big, his eyes were glued.
He started hearing voices, one being Millies.
It haunted him, the words that have been said in his head truly haunted him. Well, most. Some were good memories. Some were bad.
He made his way back into his room, and threw himself on the bed.
He closes his eyes.
And the vision he saw in his head, his heart must've been squeezed.
There she was standing in the flower field.
She was picking out flowers, mainly daisies.
She was more than beautiful to him. She was perfect.
Finns eyes quickly opened. He didn't wanna close them again, because when he did he saw himself looking at Millie.
He runs his hands through his hair, he was still high. He started to feel suffocated, he started to cough.
He felt like his lungs were burning. So he started to cough, his coughs were dry. Sounded like he was wheezing but he wasn't, it was just the rasp in the cough.
His breathing picked up, it became heavy. And then he most likely, passed out. He was already getting dizzy after all.
Finn wasn't dead of course, it just was too much for him.
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Black Lungs || fillie
Romance"The cigarettes have intoxicated my lungs. They're basically black. The smoke filled, and now I have black lungs." He said sadly. In which the stranger things star, Finn Wolfhard, slowly starts to realize what he has done to himself. That he may be...
