Black Lungs || fillie

Someone To Stay

"She never came back." Finn stated as he looks at the clean floor of the therapists office. Mia looked at him sympathetically.

"I kissed her while she was drunk. What if she remembered that?" Finn was completely panicking right now. Overthinking.

He sighs heavily, "Did I do something?"

"Finn calm down. Calm down. You didn't do nothing wrong... except for the fact that you took advantage while she was drunk." Mia says.

"But I don't really think people remember much if they're drunk. So who knows she may not even have remembered. But, she could." She explains.

Finn widens his eyes, "She could?"

Mia sighs and adjusts her glasses, "Finn, sometimes the flashbacks run back to you. You have to talk to her."

"She left without an explanation, Mia." Finn rolls his eyes and crosses his arms, being stubborn.

"Then find out why. Chase her, don't just forget about anything." Mia states to Finn trying to build up his confidence.

Its the rejection that hes scared of.
Its also that he's afraid she will leave him, just like Iris did.

"I'm probably just forcing it just like I did with my feelings with Iris." Finn says plainly and carelessly.

"Sounds pretty real to me, Finn. You're sad, but you don't have to be." Mia says slowly so he can process.

His eyes grew sad and his head hangs low, "I don't know how to be happy."

But Millie knew exactly how to be happy. And he didn't.

That wasn't real happiness she put on, though. Sometimes.

Other times she would think of things that made her happy, like Finn.

They didn't notice that thinking about each other made them happy though, but now Finn is. It just lit up the day for both of them when they were around each other.

"Finn, tell me. What makes you smile? A real smile."

"Her." He croaks out. Mia smiled sympathetically, "Then go get her, Finn. I will be here the whole way if something happens but I doubt anything wrong will happen."

He slumps into his chair barely knowing what to even do. "...Only if you want her Finn." Mia concludes.

She left. How is this suppose to be something I want?

After Iris, he was always careful when it came to love.

"But whatever happens, you have to keep calm. Losing it is just unhealthy for the both of you. Remember that, Finn." Mia says causing Finn to look up at her.

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Finn sat in his car, It was only 12 PM already being the afternoon. He tried to think it through, he was in between of just saying fuck you or taking a leap of faith.

He can literally feel a drip of sweat running down his forehead from how hard he was thinking. But his choice was always Millie.

The wind blew on the field, causing the flowers to move and wave along with it. She absolutely loved daisies.

"How about this one?" Finn asked pointing to the specific daisy flower. "Finn, they're all the same." Millie giggled.

"Well then why are you complaining about which is pretty!" He chuckled. "Because I wanna take all of them home!" She replies not holding her smile back.