concubine ( Completed )

19. The Bride...

Five months later.. Krist pov

The whole kingdom is alighted up since the last five days, everyone is in Holiday mood, schools colleges offices everything remain closed.

..but for me, the time seems to have stopped..the large tinted one way opaque glass windows remain my only view finder to the outside world.., 

 I can see the multiple fairy lights adjoining doors and windows of far off houses,the lights making their silhouette very much visible in the dark..

I can see people excitedly going around with families, crossing the road laughing, many of them randomly stop in front of the mansion gate.. 

obviously staring at the grandeur and opulence shining more with the festive and decorative lights which are placed aesthetically on the mansion too..

but they will never know the loneliness hidden behind the sparkly shine and the rich decor..well,who am I kidding, they will not even bother to find out or if they find out they will not be bothered... 

There is not a single servant in sight as far as my eyes go,..as usual they all have hurriedly left after giving me the dinner through the opening in my personal wing door, the food is lying just like yesterday, untouched, uneaten..

 I, so desperately had wanted to talk to them, ask them whether they saw news of the twins today in the palace ground, how are the palace wedding preparations going on and have they seen their to be brides, have the brides parents arrived? Princess Iris's mom, My mom is she here already..

So many questions which I really don't need answer to..I may be machoistic but I can't make myself watch the news anymore..

Thus, like always, since the past few days, I had kept quiet.. the twins are getting married in three days, everywhere there are only happiness and festivities, who cares in this midst,  if my heart is bleeding, who cares for this lonely soul watching everything from afar and wishing it is him by the twins side.. 

I am what,..nothing,  but the revered royal concubine, a mere heartless piece of flesh in the kingdom's eyes,  the servants have even started to look down upon me from the day the royal marriages were declared..

Most of the days ,now, the food is bland, tasteless, my part of the wing looks unclean, unkempt..they think my days of glory has come to an end..since the twins have stopped visiting me from the last five days as the final lap and preparations of the wedding has began..  . . 

A traitorous tear escapes my eyes,..I wipe it down hurriedly, I have promised myself I will not wallow in self pity and mope for a future which can never be mine..

Then why am I crying..my life remains unchanged, I am called by both of them, everyday, saying that I am still cherished by both,they do say they love me,I am their world..but the call doesn't last for more than two minutes and then my self doubt, insecurities and heavy loneliness creeps in..

Since,the college is also closed due to the impending wedding and celebrations going on for the same, all around the kingdom.. I have no escape from my dreary thoughts..

I sigh, since I can't shout or whimper or have raging tears of regret..how can I, when I am the one who finally convinced Singto to go ahead with tying the knot, after his final exams got over.. do you ask why did I burn my own house of bliss..well,there was no other way. like there was no other way but to get engaged, five months back..

The military in my sister's country was still trying to create stir, they even started creating rumours about her and Prae..Obviously, I couldn't let the rumours and accusations which were not really baseles, spoil my sister's finally found happiness and let her again suffer the horrible fate of being engaged or married to some vile man like Godt.