𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞; mattia polibio

034 part 2

mattia's pov:

mia leaves in two days and i have not stopped crying. i can't help it, i really fucking love her and i'd do anything to stay with her forever. i wanna have kids with her, i wanna marry her, i wanna die with her. i may sound SUPER clingy but i just genuinely love her, i didn't even love jenna like how i love mia. mia's different from other girls, she doesn't try and get my attention, she doesn't change her whole personality when she's around me. she's herself around me and i love her.

luca: what's up mattia
mattia: nothing
luca: you're crying
mattia: no i'm not
luca: yes you are

he wiped a tear from my face and made me sit on my bed.

mattia: mia's leaving in two days and i'm gonna miss her
luca: then do long distance with her
mattia: i am but i f-
luca: TRUST HER MATTIA, SHE LOVES YOU LIKE SO MUCH
mattia: and how do you know
luca: have you seen the way she looks at you
mattia: no
luca: you're dumb, don't cheat on her
mattia: yes luca
luca: whatever

i sighed and felt another tear drop, i fucking love her. she's the only one that makes me happy, every stupid decision i make, she's either there to fix it or let me fuck up on my own. she always tells me "what'll the consequences be mattia" like yes i know but let me live. i'm not getting mad at her, i'm glad she's letting me fuck up and learn.

mattia: get out luca
mia: not luca
mattia: mia oh um

oops. she walked over to my bed and i sat up, she had a gift bag with her, i was confused. is she leaving earlier?

mia: gift before i leave and i'd be too lazy to give it to you tomorrow
mattia: classic, i um have something for you
mia: what is it
mattia: gimme yours first
mia: k here

she gave me the bag and i opened it, i saw a canvas that looked similar to when she told me she was leaving. please don't tell me she's leaving sooner.

mattia: this reminds me of when you were telling me you were leaving
mia: that's why i got it
mattia: i love it
mia: yeah i know, next gift
mattia: ok

another one, i love her. i grabbed the box and opened it, it was a gold bracelet and it was amazing. it could go with any outfit.

mattia: how much was this
mia: around 400
mattia: MIA
mia: yes
mattia: i can't
mia: you can and you will
mattia: m-
mia: ANYWAYS, my gift
mattia: at the party i will
mia: mattiaaa
mattia: i need to get ready, bye bye mia
mia: ugh whatever

not her leaving me, she kissed me goodbye and left. the boys would be coming over anytime soon so might just stop being sad mattia, for now.

ale: big boy mattia
mattia: small annoying piece of shit
ale: that hurted
kai: so, did you give her the gift
mattia: i said at the party
robert: your parents actually agreed
mattia: surprisingly but i'm happy about it
ale: heard jennas gonna be there
mattia: are you serious, she's everywhere
robert: you literally got back together with her, shut up
mattia: long time ago robby
kai: still loved her
mattia: ANYWAYS, you coming as well rebound
robert: yup, i told my mom right when i found out mia was here
kai: so cute
mattia: watch it babe
ale: bruh
kai: you cried today mattia
mattia: no
ale: the tissues and you holding her hoodie
mattia: ok, i'm gonna miss her, i love her like i LOVE her
robert: you'll be with her again
mattia: but she's leaving and i-
ale: SUCK IT UP MATTIA
mattia: no need to yell monkey
ale: bruh

we started playing fifa and luca annoyed us as always so i bought him robuxs. kids and their electronics. i noticed it was time for the party so we stopped playing and i went to mias. i saw her talking to cynthia and it reminded me of when i knew i had feelings for her, i always have but in that moment, it hit differently.

i notice every little thing mia does when she talks to someone she doesn't like, she often looks around, leans next to something, plays with her hair and makes eye contact often. i notice everything, call me creepy but yeah call me creepy i have nothing to say.

mia sat on the couch so i sat next to her, i knew she was bothered by something, basically cynthia but she hates talking about her. she rested her head on my shoulder and i smiled, might be the last time we're at a party together.

mattia: let's get drinks
mia: fine

we went to the kitchen and grabbed the vodka bottle, i took a shot while she mixed her pineapple juice and rum. whenever she mixes drinks together, she does so good. that's why i let her make me drinks, they're just so good.

i looked at her and leaned in, her soft plump lips creating a perfect match with mine. i could never get tired of how her lips felt against mine, her lips calm me down, her touch calms me down. fuck her whole presence keeps me calm.

mattia: i need to get your gift so wait outside
mia: can't i come with you
mattia: mm no
mia: finee

i went to her room unlocking the door and shut it immediately, i kept her gift in her closet behind the mattia box. i grabbed it and smiled, she's gonna love this, i know she will. i left her room making sure to lock it and jenna ran towards me, i rolled my eyes and she gave me her phone.

jenna: how do you feel about that

it was a picture of mia and nico kissing, i was angry, fuck i could've killed nico in that moment. jenna was smirking at me so i kissed her, would it be wrong if i said i missed her lips against mine?

kai pulled me away immediately and looked at me, i saw alessya and julia come towards me and they both slapped me.

mattia: WHAT THE FUCK
alessya: you broke mia once again
julia: and you had us fooled
mattia: what the fuck are you talking about, i loved that girl with my whole fucking heart but she didn't
julia: ARE YOU DUMB, mia would NEVER do that to you
mattia: tell that to the picture jenna showed me
alessya: oh the picture that NICO kissed mia and she pulled away immediately, how stupid can you be to think she would cheat on you and YOU KISS YOUR EX
julia: you messed up mattia and this time, she's NOT going back to you

i fucked up. i ran out of the house going to the park she likes to be alone at, i saw her crying on roberts chest and i let them be. i knew she'd be angry if she saw me, i was fuming at this point. i got back home and my eyes landed on nico, i walked towards him and punched him hard.

nico: WHAT THE FUCK

i punched him again causing him to fall.

mattia: THAT'S FOR KISSING MY GIRLFRIEND YOU FUCK

i said in between each punch, mia would've stopped me, her touch would've calmed me down but she's not here. i made a big mistake and nothing i do will fix it, i went to my house and sat in my room. i curled up in a ball and grabbed her hoodie, i fucked up so bad. ONE THING MATTIA, YOU LOST THE ONE GIRL WHO LOVED YOU FOR YOU AND NOT YOUR FAME. i looked at the gift i was gonna give to her and cried more.

plane ticket so i could move to ottawa with her.

author's note
not done yet 😝
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