𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞; mattia polibio

034 part 1

mia's pov:

turns out i'm having a party for when i leave so basically in two days. i have no clue what to wear but i'm for SURE not wearing a dress cause fuck that. i cried when i first woke up cause i didn't wanna leave at all, i just wanna stay here with mattia and enjoy the rest of my life with him. i'm not saying for sure we're gonna be together forever but i really want us to. although he broke me, i never stopped loving him. from when he asked me to be his to when he cheated on me. yeah cynthia threatened him so i can't fully blame him but at that moment, i thought he didn't love me anymore.

it's crazy how i went from bumping into him the first day of school to me being his girlfriend to losing my virginity to him to him being my first boyfriend to us breaking up and now to us back together. as much as i didn't wanna come back, i'm glad i did and i'm also very happy alessya came up with the idea. i wouldn't be happy right now if it wasn't for alessya.

i put on ripped light wash jeans, white polo top and my chicago 1s. i sat on the edge of my bed and looked through my window to see mattia looking at a picture which i assu- I FORGOT TO GIVE HIM HIS GIFT. fuck me. i ran out of the house and grabbed the gift, i knocked on his door and luca opened it.

luca: hey mia
mia: hi luca
luca: mattia's sad right now
mia: what why
luca: he said it was about you leaving, he's in his room
mia: thanks luca

i ran to his room to hear me and my guitar playing and i looked at him, he was holding onto one of my hoodies i left here.

mattia: get out luca
mia: not luca
mattia: mia oh um

i walked towards his bed and laid next to him, he sat up and looked at me, he noticed the gift bag and gave me a confused look.

mia: gift before i leave and i'd be too lazy to give it to you tomorrow
mattia: classic, i um have something for you
mia: what is it
mattia: gimme yours first
mia: k here

i handed him the bag and he opened it, his jaw dropped when he picked up the canvas.

mattia: this reminds me of when you were telling me you were leaving
mia: that's why i got it
mattia: i love it
mia: yeah i know, next gift
mattia: ok

he picked up the box and opened it, his eyes sparkled when he took the bracelet in his hands.

mattia: how much was this
mia: around 400
mattia: MIA
mia: yes
mattia: i can't
mia: you can and you will
mattia: m-
mia: ANYWAYS, my gift
mattia: at the party i will
mia: mattiaaa
mattia: i need to get ready, bye bye mia
mia: ugh whatever

i kissed him goodbye and left his house, i would've stayed but he wanted to spend time with the boys for today. i walked over to alessyas room to see her and julia talking.

mia: wow without me
alessya: you were with your boyfriend
julia: i don't wanna leave
mia: neither do i
julia: kai can go tho
mia: YOU'RE LYING
julia: nope
mia: OMG I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU
julia: ig you and mattia will do long distance
mia: let's hope it works out
julia: he loves you mia, he wouldn't hurt you, again
alessya: is that what you're wearing
mia: yup, what are you guys wearing
julia: no fucking idea
mia: yeah right
alessya: ugh i don't wanna go to school
julia: none of us do
mia: when alessya had a reason to want to go to school
alessya: fuck off, me and him are done
mia: i know
julia: we could tell
alessya: i hate you both
mia: aww i hate me too

the party had just started and of course at my house, i can't even cry in my room anymore. i have extra rooms so i locked each bedroom, i have valuables in there, like gifts mattia gave me.

cynthia: hey mia
mia: cynthia hey
cynthia: so you're leaving
mia: sadly
cynthia: we didn't hang but it was good to have you back
mia: you'll survive cynthia
cynthia: remember when we were in gym class and you passed out
mia: that basketball wanted to kill me
cynthia: i'll miss you mia and i know you can't say the same
mia: just to be nice, i'll miss you too

she left and i sat on the couch, crazy how we went from best friends like practically sisters to friends, i guess. whatever. mattia sat down next to me and i rested my head on his shoulder, might be the last time i get to enjoy a party with him.

mattia: let's get drinks
mia: fine

i went to the kitchen and poured pineapple juice with rum, i mixed it and wow. i could be a bartender, mattia took a shot of vodka and kissed me. the kiss was full of passion and love, it felt like it would be the last time i'd kiss him.

mattia: i need to get your gift so wait outside
mia: can't i come with you
mattia: mm no
mia: finee

i stepped outside for some fresh air since mattia told me, why did i listen? i like being punis- no stop that. nico came out and him being the nice person as always, started talking to me.

nico: hey mia
mia: hi nico
nico: heard you're leaving
mia: sadly
nico: you and mattia doing long distance
mia: yeah
nico: it'll work out, he loves you
mia: i trust he won't do anything stupid so it'll work out, hopefully
nico: mia
mia: yeah

i looked at him and he pressed his lips on mine, i pulled away immediately but i heard a click.

jenna: i wonder how mattia will feel when he sees this picture

this is why i hate her with a passion.

jenna started running so i chased after her, she showed mattia and mattia was heartbroken, he didn't notice i was there and he smashed his lips on hers. everyone was recording, taking pictures, our relationship just fell apart.

i ran out in tears, running far away from the house. call me a pussy but i thought we would work out this time, all the laughs and smiles i thought i couldn't make, mattia helped me. he gained my happiness back, i thought i'd be numb forever.

i sat on the bench at the park and robert stood in front of me, i got up and hugged him, crying on is chest while he rubbed my back.

i thought mattia loved me. he promised.

author's note
DON'T HATE ME FOR THAT, I'M SORRY 😔