Taking Over Me (An Outsiders Fanfiction)

Chapter 7

Diana's POV

It's the morning after the jumping, and I never felt so sore in my life.

It ends up that I have a black eye now too. Great. On top of all my scars.

I wonder how James is going to react when he sees me. Of course, he probably doesn't want to be around me since I came to his house. But I want to see him. I know I'm not ready to date him, but I think I love him. Why did I have to chase him away?

Damn you, Diana. Why do you ruin everything?

I cant deny my love for him. It's still strong.

Why does it have to be so hard to love?

I can't help it.

I'm addicted to him.

What are you supposed to do when you can't stop thinking about the person you love? It's like a heavy weight on your shoulders when you don't see them. But what if they don't feel the same way?

Oh, Ponyboy..

You and your unrequited love.

He probably feels terrible. But what can I do? I love Ponyboy, just not like that..

How can I fix the mess I've made? I've only been in Tulsa for a couple days, and I've already fucked up. And now I'm suffering the consequences.

I pushed my true love and my best friend away.

As if they were homeless, Dally and Two-Bit were already at the Curtis house and eating all the food.

Darry, Soda, and Steve were already at work so it was just the rest of the gang.

Bored, Dally asked "Want to catch a movie?"

"Yeah!"

"Sure."

"I'll go"

"Ditto."

"What about you?" He looked straight into my eyes.

I let out a sigh.
"Sure. Whatever. I'll go."

Honestly I felt like shit. But being the person I am, I don't want to miss out on anything.

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It wasn't dark yet, so we had to mess around before we went to the movies.

Thought it didn't cost much to get in to the movie, Dally didn't want to do things the legal way. We had to cut in to the movies using the broken fence. Ponyboy, Johnny, and I got in pretty easily because of our size. The rest had a little bit of trouble, but they made it.

A crappy beach movie was playing as usual. But we got front seats and enjoyed the free show.

I was talking to Johnny about some of the things that happened in California when a girl approached us. She took a seat right next to Ponyboy.

Her hair was a reddish color and her clothing told me one thing. She was a Soc. Turns out that she's a cheerleader at our school. I don't know. She seemed pretty stuck up to me. Bad news.

"Howdy there, Ponyboy." She beamed.

"Hey Cherry. How are ya?" He smiled-

Too big.

"Oh, I'm doing fine.." She said flirtatiously, twirling her hair.

She was obviously hitting on him. And he was letting her! What the actual hell.

"Your looking really nice today." He flirted back.

I felt anger burning inside me. Was this jealousy?

No. It can't be.

I'm in love with James's. Not Pony.

Or am I?

I knew I was stressing on the outside. Anger was clearly showing on my volatile face.

She laid her head on his shoulder. "Aw thanks, Pon."

"Are you jealous?" Johnny smirked at me.

I ignored him.

As if things were escalating, Ponyboy put his hand around her.

I had the gut feeling and I knew then that it was jealously. But I just couldn't admit it.

Pony smiled at me.
"Diana, would you mind getting us some popcorn?"

I stood up in a flash.

"Here's your damn popcorn!" I threw my popcorn box at them. "And you know what? You can go fuck yourselves." I snapped and ran out of the drive-in the right way.

I immediately regretted what I did. I shouldn't have let it get to me like that. But I was so caught up in my emotions that I just couldn't think straight.

Do I really like him?

All these questions were buzzing around in my mind. I had only one place that I would figure all this out. Where I should be.

With James.

I ran in the direction of his house. When I got there, lights were on so I thought he was home.

I knocked a couple times with no response.

"James?" I knocked some more. "It's Diana."

Still no response, so I decided to just walk in.

"J-" I spoke before witnessing something I shouldn't.

James was there alright.

With his face smashed against another woman's.

I stood in shock as he pulled away and gave me an apologetic look.

"Diana-" he said quietly.

"N-no. Just forget it." I stormed out the door with tears streaming down my eyes.

Now I've lost everything. As if things couldn't get any worse.

What am I supposed to do? James is gone, and Ponyboy is off with someone else.

Love is such a bitch.

I didn't know where to go. If I went back to the Curtis house, Ponyboy would probably be there and everything would be awkward. But I couldn't just stand out in the cold.

As always, I didn't knock. I just walked in with my mascara streamed face and ran right into a worried Soda.

"Diana?" Soda asked anxiously. "Are you alright?"

He held me close until I sobbed my heart out. Then we sat down on the couch to talk about it.

"So what's bothering you?"

I spilled everything from James to Pony, Socs, and all the horrible things I've been feeling and witnessing.

"Looks like little Diana is having love problems." Soda smiled. "I know your probably expecting some good advice from me, Diana, but the only person that can solve this is you. Honestly, I think that James guy is bad news. You should talk to Pony. All you two need is some conversation and understanding. Just get some sleep and talk to him in the morning." He patted my back.

"Oh," he smiled. "I know for a fact that Pony isn't over you just yet."

I couldn't help but smile myself. Sodapop has that personality.

"Thanks Soda."

"Your welcome. Now get some rest."

I tiredly walked into my room and collapsed into my bed.

I let the sleep take over me so I could enjoy a moment of peace after this awful day.