𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 || seongsang

XIX

I have no idea how long I sat there.

Nobody came to check up on me though, no surprise there. And I was really grateful for that.

Judging from the color change of the water, evening had descended. The sea was getting angrier, the waves hitting the rocks with more ferocity, and I seriously wondered what would happen if I just took a few more steps, climbed down the short stone railing, and join those waves.

I then shook my head feverishly as if to rid myself of those thoughts. My late father's face flashed in my mind. And then the promise I'd made him. The promise, that I'll never let anyone put me down because of my disability, and I won't let it get to me.

The same promise I had made my best friend.

But it's really hard to pretend not to care when it's all weighing down on you, and everyone is unintentionally throwing it in your face, especially the ones who you never to do that to you.

I felt an arm wrench me back with ferocity, and I stumbled into a body, curling my hand inter shirt. I slowly looked up and met Wooyoung's eyes, which were blazing with anger.

I know what he was thinking; I was standing at the very edge of the cliff, far away from the bench, and I'd gotten to this point quite absent-mindedly, not purely intentional.

I shook my head slowly at Wooyoung to ease him, to tell him that was not my intention.

I had thought about my life countless time, but then I'd thought, that only I would be the one getting the shorter end.

Sure, my misery will end, but it's only misery because I'm letting it get me so much.

I know this wasn't right, but sometimes the smallest things push me to the edge and trigger me to graze this all time low. I can't help it.

No one will miss me if I'll go. And only I would be deprived of the pleasure of sitting here everyday, of writing in my journal, of admiring the waves, and... Yes. I won't be able to talk to Seonghwa anymore. And of course Wooyoung.

"Look, Yeosang. You're doing it again. You're letting life get to you", Wooyoung signed in frustration, looking absolutely terrified as he searched my eyes while gripping my shoulders, and I bit my lip guiltily for scaring my best friend.

"I'm sorry", I signed back weakly, and Wooyoung frowned as he let me go.

"I'm sorry for worrying you, for ignoring you back there when you were just trying to make me feel better", I explained, then looked away, sitting back down on the bench, Wooyoung copying me.

Wooyoung cupped my cheek, making me look up. He smiled with his signature smile, the smile that always makes you feel that everything is going to be alright, and shook his head, the wind softly ruffling his feathery hair as he pushed it out of his eyes.

"You don't have to be sorry, Yeo. I know how much this day hurts you, and I wish I could change that. But that's just one bad thing in your life", Wooyoung signed, then took my hands in his for a few seconds, squeezing them comfortingly.

"Look at all good things. The boy you like wants to be friends with you and admires you, even if you can't hear, you still are able to admire the beauty around you... And your best friend wants you to came back and help him with this huge piece of  cake. Need I go on?", Wooyoung clasped his hands, wiggling his eyebrows, while I suppressed my tears.

Wooyoung is literally the sweetest human being, he always bring me up before I sink too much into my morose thoughts, which I had a tendency to do a lot.

"You forgot one good thing. I'm the lucky guy who has Jung Wooyoung as a best friend", I signed, and Wooyoung grinned, holding me in a tight hug which I returned, as I felt my worries fading away, dimming just a little bit, as I hugged tighter, burying my face in the crook of his neck.

"Now how about that cake?", Wooyoung smirked, and I smirked back. 

"Lead the way."

Wooyoung is so right. You just have to show life that even in its shitiness, you will still came out with a tiny shred of happiness even if it sometimes seem impossible, so suck it.

a/n A little Woosang was needed, but don't worry 'cause many more intense moments are reserved for seongsang!! Also thanks to the people who came here after Flowers!  I hope you enjoy this story just as much!!