𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 || seongsang

XXVIII

This is Seonghwa's first ever letter that he wrote in response to mine, the one after I had started to so stupidly avoid him because of my own insecurities, and he had sent through Wooyoung. I'm going to keep it between the pages of my journal, forever. Because honestly, it makes me a squealing and blushing mess whenever I read it, and manages to lift my mood. Park Seonghwa has the tendency to do that.

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Dear Sangie,

I haven't been seeing you around lately, are you alright? You're worrying me.

I always saw you everyday at the cafeteria, it's not like you to get out of your routine much. And that isn't a bad thing either!

The last time I'd seen you was when you swung by at my Art class to give me your latter when I was talking to Hongjoong about managing the upcoming fundraising bonfire... Wait. Are you upset about Hongjoong? What for?

He's just a good friend, Sangie! Nothing else! I have told you that before when you'd asked me. I have no idea why I want to explain myself and Hongjoong's relation to you again, but I do. There's nothing between me and Hongjoong. Nothing.

Oh God. Hongjoong din't to anything to you, right?! I want you to always tell me if something like that happens, alright?

I'd been at the bench everyday including today, but you didn't show up. I assumed you must have gotten bored and wanted a change. It's not my place to ask you why, though I was worried. Still am.

I have been tempted to knock on your door and ask you to come out more times than I'm willing to admit, but I didn't. I had stood at you dorm door so many times and walked away. Because I respect your privacy.

But aren't I an idiot? I see your feather-haired friend everyday, but hadn't thought to ask him about you. Or give him my letter to you. Mostly because I'm so used to you talking to me everyday and I never had to ask your friends.

I admit it. You're the highlight of my day with cuteness and you comments about everything and-- sorry, creep alert, haha.

But I'm giving my letter to Wooyoung today, and when I asked him if he'll convey my latter to you, he willingly agreed, and also told me that you were worried that I was ignoring you for Hongjoong, and didn't appreciate our friendship. Isn't that ridiculous?

Your friend is too cute.

But you are cuter.

Ugh, okay. Sorry. I'm a terrible flirt. But you sure are cute.

And about Hongjoong? What you're thinking is ridiculous. Hongjoong is a work friend of mine, and you are a... everything else friend!

Isn't it weird though? Our friendship? It just happened. And I wouldn't change it for anything I assure you.

I hope you'll talk to me Sangie. You're the only good friend I have. The only one who gets me so much.

I realised how much I need you in my life, need your friendship in this past week.

I miss your adorable silent laugh, your vibrant brown eyes, your soft blonde hair always hidden by your hood, and how you see everything so differently and everything you say is so fascinating, and honestly? I miss those secret, or not so secret because your best friend told me he knows, meeting of ours.

Oh my God, please ignore my creepiness. I sound like an obsessed perv.

Okay, I hope I wasn't creepy. I'm just, I'm going to stop writing more before I decide to crumble this one and thrown it in the bin.

But what I just wrote is all true, Yeosang. Don't ever let anyone put you down because you are so much more. You deserve so much more.

You are fascinating, whatever you decide to believe me or not.

Well, you are.

At least to me.

I hope you miss me too, jus a tad. Even though I sometimes tend to be a bit nosy and persistent and annoying.

So this week apart made me realize how much you have grown on me, in the best way. I like our unusual friendship, I really do. And I sincerely hope it isn't over. That would seriously suck.

I'm sorry if I did anything wrong. Forgive me Sangie?

I still have that surprise to give you. Hope I'll see you at the bench soon. I really miss you.

Love, Seonghwa (or The Creepy Guy Who Thinks You're Adorable).