I was starting to really like these meeting with Seonghwa.
Because one, this place isolated, creaky wooden bench nestled between rocks and close to the crashing sea, was the only place that I loved besides my own room, and also maybe the cafeteria because that is where we had met, in and around the whole area.
And two, because as patetica and desperate as I sound, I like to pretend that we're on a date, my little fantasy, just having our little rendezvous. And it feels like that sometimes.
When Seonghwa just always says what I want him to say, shocking me, proving to be even more perfect that I thought he was.
and it feels like a date when we both sit here together for hours, our shoulders pressed togethers as I yearn for him to just cuddle me in his chest but I know that will be a bit too much.
And when we're both just admiring the sight of the sea, the gulls, the everything.
And when I turn my head around, and met Seonghwa's hazel eyes so fervent with emotion, his flawless smile that always tugs at his lips, his perfect hair that the wind always ruffled up, honestly a sight way, way more indulging then the one which we adore together.
No awkward silences or gestures, nothing. It's almost always too perfect.
And that scares me, because that serenity, and that sense of camaraderie I experience with Seonghwa make me fall for him even harder. I just can't stop it.
But as for Seonghwa, he still sees me as a friend. Apparently I amuse him, so that's why he lies to hang out with me.
But amusement, admiration.... whatever it is, I'll very, very gladly take it, if it means that Seonghwa will keep noticing me.
It's false hope, sure, but it sure as hell is better than nothing.
I know it's kinda impossible for something to happen between us.
Seonghwa is a teacher here and I'm a student. I'm four years younger than him. Mullet boy wants him and he'll get him. Oh, and did I mention I'm not really normal? Yeah, sucks for me.
I still had no idea what to do with my Seonghwa-feelings. Wooyoung was cheering me on, always urging me to make a move on Seonghwa in the right moment.
But then there was Hongjoong-Mullet boy, who was looking at v with the same eyes with which I admire him.
And it's pretty obvious who has a better chance to win Seonghwa's heart between me and him.
And that fucking sucks.
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𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 || seongsang
Fanfiction"He probably knows it, but how I wish I could tell him. Tell him how happy he makes me, just with a small smile." Or, the one where a shy, introverted deaf and mute boy living in a boy's hostel falls in love with the new heart-throb art teacher slas...
