Hagakureon Oneshots

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Every group of friends has it's outcast right? The one only kept around for who knows what. They get fun poked at them, never invited to events, never listened to. They were part of the group but not a friend.

Just a laughing stock.

Instead of a head nod, or saying hi in the hallways they would smack the back of his head and laughed at his shock.

Instead of listen to him, they would talk over him and ignore him.

When he was down and needed someone to talk to, they just made fun of him.

"She doesn't like you because of that stupid facial hair." They would laugh.

"Of course your grades suck ass, you're dumb as fuck." They would laugh.

He could show them his wrists, and they wouldn't even notice. They don't pay much attention to him unless to poke fun and harsh words at him.

Oohwada, Ludenburg, even Ishimaru a self proclaimed advocate against "bullying". All of them would laugh and sneer at him. And of course this all steamed from Yasuhiro Hagakure.
He didn't know why Hiro hated him so much. I mean, that's the only reason he would do this right?  He had to have hated him.

It's just like how a kid would have their "crush".

See a cute girl, pull her hair, chase her around the playground, steal her lunch etc.

Fall in love with your friend of 3+ years, you make them the clown of your posey.

That's how he showed his feelings. In the worst way possible. But Kuwata just laughed along with it, at first. Thought they were just that close. But as the teasing got worse he stopped trying.

He used to be social, funny, energetic. The life of the party. Now, he barely spoke, never laughed, and nobody noticed.

They didn't notice, for weeks they let their "friend's" suffering go unnoticed. Until it was almost too late.

Hagakure will never forget how hard his heart dropped when he pieced it together.

He hadn't gone to class that day, nobody texted him to see of he was sick. It wasn't like him to skip class without telling anyone. But they still ignored it,

He'll be here tomorrow.

He wasn't at baseball practice despite being the star player, his coach asked if any of them knew what happened. They didn't. And life went on as usual.  Laughing, sending memes and talking shit in the group chat. Hiro was laying down in bed laughing at something Hina said when the orange chat bubble popped up. It was Leon's color.

Bye, you clearly don't need me.

At first they we're just confused.

What are you talking about.

He didn't respond. And the chat went off asking him what he meant. He didn't respond.

Is something wrong?

Leon?

What happened?

Are you leaving us?

With that last message Hagakure knew exactly what Leon meant by his cryptic message. He dropped his phone, and ran out the door of his dorm room. He was all the way down the hall from Leon's own dorm. He had never ran so fast in his life. He grabbed the door knob and tried to push the door open. It was locked. Shit.

"Leon!" He yelled banging on the door. Tears threatening to fall as guilt filled his chest. He slammed the door and the flimsy lock bust and the door flung open.

He couldn't believe what he saw. Leon, the funniest, most beautiful, most amazing person Hiro had ever met was on the floor in a pool of his own blood with both his wrists slit and a bottle of pills next to him.

Hiro screamed, and ran over to Leon kneeling down and taking his jacket off. He wrapped Leon's wrists with it hoping it would slow the bleeding. He grabbed Leon's phone and pressed called for emergency help. They would be a few minutes. Hiro picked Leon up into his arms and sobbed into his chest, hearing his faint heartbeat.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry!" He sobbed. A few of their friends had shown up to and were crowding outside the door watching in horror and grief.

It wasn't very long before help arrived and made Hiro let go of Leon. He watched in horror as they desperately tried to stop his bleeding wrists and keep him breathing.

"We lost his pulse." One of the paramedics stated, and in a flash another one had their hands on his chest trying to revive him with cpr. Hiro just sobbed watching helplessly.

Leon stopped breathing. His heart stopped beating. He died.

And it was all their fault. For being shitty friends. For leaving him behind. For failing to notice their struggling friend.

"Pulse is back." The same paramedic stated and a wave of relief and hope fell over Hiro. He dropped to his knees and thanked every god he could think of.

As soon as they took Leon, Hiro got on the first bus he could to the hospital with no plans of leaving until he was certain Leon was okay.

And that brings him to now. After a long night of crying, pacing and worrying for what felt like forever. Holding the cold, limp hand on the bed with his own. Leon's arms were wrapped up from his wrist to just below his elbow, blood stains peeking out from under them. He hadn't taken enough pills to kill himself, but it certainly messed him up. It was the blood loss that got to him, he would be unconscious for some time while he recovered, wired to machines, iv in one arm, blood transfusion in the other and can hardly breathe without an oxygen mask over his mouth and nose.

The only noise came from the heart monitor and Leon's breathing. Hiro had cried as much as he could and now all that was left was emptiness, guilt and shame. He didn't deserve Leon. Not anymore. He never thought about how he was doing. And he regretted it with every fiber of his being. It was because of him that the boy he loved was in this condition.

He kissed the back of Leon's hand and peered up at his face. Shocked, he saw Leon's baby blue eyes slightly peeked open looking at him. He gasped.

"Leon!" He stroked his forehead and pushed his hair out of his eyes. "How are you feeling? You must be exhausted."

Leon could barely move much less talk. But he mouthed the words "It hurts." To Hiro, who had tears returning to his eyes.

"I know," he choked "I'm so sorry Leon." He let out a sob as a tear fell. "I'm so sorry. I love you!" He blurted before he could hold back, but fuck!  He didn't want to hold back anymore. He was so close to losing Leon.

Leon's eyes closed and he groaned. "Why?" He whispered faintly. Hiro shook his head.
"I don't know!" He cried. "I was too much of a pussy to tell you Leon. I fucking love you! And I swear to god if you had died I would have killed myself as well." He sobbed. "I'm sorry Leo, I'm so, so sorry." Tears fell from his eyes onto the bed. Leon slowly inched his hand over to Hiro's and grazed it with a few fingers. Hiro noticed and grabbed Leon's hand.

"I love you." He said again. And he thought he could see Leon give a soft smile. Hiro kissed Leon's forehead as he closed his eyes again, trying to get some rest.

Hiro almost lost Leon. And it was his fault. And he would be damned if it happened again. In that moment he made himself a promise.

Never take anyone for granted, you don't know what, or who you have until it's gone.

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A/N: hope you enjoyed this first one-shot, please leave me any ideas you have for future ones. Lots of love - Lemon 💛