Hagakureon Oneshots

secret

A/N! Trigger warning! This contains self harm! If this is a sensitive topic for you please do not read!!

Leon leg bounced violently.  A million thoughts running through his head as he sat on the locker room bench. He was feeling a thousand things and none of them were good.

Tired

Scared

Vulnerable

Exposed

Embarrassed

Humiliated

He held his face in his hands and held back tears. He was alone physically and mentally. He would be the talk to the entire school for months and nobody would even care to ask if he was okay.

The events that unfolded just a few minutes before kept replaying in his head on a loop. Every detail, every feeling he had physical and emotional. Panic, confusion, and the feeling of his pant sticking to his leg as it soaked with his blood. They were in the middle of a game and Leon was pitching. He threw the ball and as he moved his leg he felt one of the cuts on his leg open. One of the deeper ones. He could feel the scab literally pop and blood start leaking from the wound. Time had nearly stopped. His uniform was white and the expanding bloodstain looked like a beacon of crimson color, it was impossible for anyone to miss, and even more obvious what happened. Now everybody knew his little secret, that the 'perfect' athlete that everybody loved and had everything perfect actually wasn't so perfect.

He had changed into black shorts and was waiting for someone to come in, his leg was still bleeding but not as badly as it was.

He heard the door open and shut before a pair of arms wrapped around him and hugged him close. He didn't have to look up to know who it was,  it was Hagakure. His other secret he couldn't afford to let out.

As soon as his face hit Hiro's chest he started crying.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" He chanted whilst sobbing.

"It's okay, just breathe." Hiro shushed gently stroking his hair comfortingly. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked gently.

"I didn't want you to leave me." Leon choked. "And think that I'm a mess."

"There's no way I would leave you Leon." He stated. "It's okay to have rough times and we all deal with them differently. Including self harm. I've been there too." He rolled up one of his sleeves and showed it to Leon. White scars lined his wrist. Before he could say anything he was wrapped into another hug.

"Can I see your leg?" Hiro asked and Leon sniffed and nodded. Hiro let go of him and rolled his shorts up just enough to expose the deep slices on his thigh. One of which was open and still bleeding. He grabbed a first aid kit and pulled out a small bottle of rubbing alcohol and cloth. He poured a little on the cloth before gently dabbing it on the cut. Leon tensed and tried not to jerk his leg away. It stung like hell every time Hiro dabbed at it.

"I'm sorry," he said sympathetically as he put the bloodied cloth aside. "This is really deep I don't know how well a regular band aid will do, you might need to get this stitched up." He commented. Leon's eyes widened and he jerked his leg away from Hiro. 

"No, no, no way in hell!" He stated.

Hiro raised an eyebrow. "Why not? If it's deep enough it might not heal properly."

Leon covered his leg back up. "Because they'll ask questions and they to talk to me and I'll have to tell them everything and I don't want to!" He ranted poorly, barely able to find the right words through his panic. The one thing he hated more that doctors and baseball was talking about his mental health. Especially with a doctor....  After a baseball game....

"Well, of course they'll want to know Leon. Your leg is mutilated!" Maybe 'mutilated' was a bit overkill. But it was in pretty rough shape. "Here, I have a friend of a friend who I can call and maybe she can do it here. No questions asked. Okay?" He asked. Hesitantly Leon nodded.

Needless to say Mikan Tsumiki was more than deserving of the title 'ultimate nurse'. It was quick, virtually painless and her hands had a kind of gentleness to them that was soothing. She came, said hi, got set up,  stitched Leon up and was now ready to go.

"Thanks." Leon said shyly, it was awkward to be meeting someone for the first time like this.

"Anytime, just give me a call and I'll be more than ready to help!" She said enthusiastically before leaving. Leon sighed and went over to his locker.

"What are you doing?" Hiro asked.

"Going home."

"Oh... Do you want me to walk you?"

Leon shrugged. "I kinda want to be alone right now." He said lowly.

"Oh okay... " Hiro said disappointed. He really felt like he should walk Leon home after an event like this. He needed the company.

"I'll see you tomorrow." Leon leaned up and kissed Hiro on the cheek. Hiro reached out and grabbed Leon's hand and pulled him into him.

"If you ever feel like cutting yourself again, call me. And Ill be there." Hiro said.

"Okay." Leon nodded trying not to choke up again. And with that he waved to Hiro and left, beginning the long walk home.