Hagakureon Oneshots

gone pt 2.

Hagakure sat there, in the uncomfortable cheap plastic chair holding a warm, lively hand that could grasp his back. He remembered what it was like not even a week before. Holding that same hand, cold, limp and dead. The only signs of life came from the heart monitor connected to the boy said hand belonged to.

He still felt guilty. He always would. Even if Leon forgave him, he would never stop hating himself for pushing the boy he loved to suicide.

It was early morning, and they decided to let Leon go home. Thank god. Hagakure came early that morning to get him ready though when he arrived it was only 6:30 and Leon was still asleep.

It wasn't for another hour or so that Leon woke up. And Hagakure was there to greet him with an enthusiastic smile.

"Ready to go home today?" He asked excitedly. Leon stretched and nodded.

"Finally." He sighed. "I'll get to sleep in my own bed."

"I know everyone misses you and will be waiting for you there!"

Leon looked disappointed. "Oh." He said with a small voice. Hagakure raised an eyebrow.

"What's wrong with that?" He asked, slightly worried he knew why.

"I just... "Leon began he held his arm nervously not wanting to meet Hagakure's gaze. "I don't think I really want to see anyone."

"Like, for today? To get settled back at home?" He said hopefully that was the answer. To his despair, Leon shoot his head.

"Period. Nobody even came and visited me here, nobody has spoken to me this entire time and they never gave a shit about me!" Leon said growing more and more upset. "Why would I ever want to see them again?  I mean you visited, but that's only because you feel bad right?  Not because you actually care about me, but to ease your guilt right?"

Hagakure couldn't help but let his mouth fall open. He couldn't believe what Leon just said.

"What? I don't care about you?" He said raising his voice. He knew he should be sad about this, but he couldn't help but feel angered. "You put me through fucking hell! I was so fucking worried about you that I broke down your door! Called help for you! Waited for you for hours! Stayed here with you and visited every day! Because I fucking care about you! How could you say I don't care? How?" He didn't even realize ot but he was yelling. "Fucking ungrateful." He muttered.

Leon looked pretty much unfazed by this reaction. However a dull sadness had returned to his eyes. The same sadness that nobody had noticed before.

"You didn't have to do any of that." He said lowly. "You can leave."

Hagakure glared at him. "Yeah, Fuck this. I'm leaving." And with that he stood up and stormed off.

"That's what I thought." Leon muttered to himself.

It was a long ride home taking the bus from the hospital. And eventually Leon ran out of change to pay for it so he had to walk a few miles to campus alone in the dark. It had taken literally all day, and he just wanted to lay down already. He breathed a sigh of relief when he saw the tall building in the distance.

Hope's peak

Where he thought life would be amazing. And he was wrong. Kind of ironic.

When he walked into the dorm building the blast of warm air hit him and he almost moaned it felt so good. He barely had any energy left and couldn't wait to make it to his room. To no surprise, nobody was there. Nothing that said anyone had been. Just his empty room. Just how he left it. Just how he would probably leave it again. A mess. Just like him.

He didn't change, or even get under his blanket, he just fell on the bed, and passed out.

He was jolted awake by a frantic knock on his door. Before he could process what was going on his door opened. He forgot to lock it.

Hagakure rushed in and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Thank god you're back, what the fuck took you so long?" He yelled.

Leon was dazed and confused. "What?" He said sleepily. "Why are you here?" He rubbed his eye.

"Because you scared the shit out of me, again!" Hagakure exclaimed.

"Well I would have gotten here sooner if I didn't run out of bus money and walked."

Hagakure froze. "What do you mean walked?" He asked. "It's fucking freezing out there!"

"You don't have to tell me."

"Shit, Leon. I-im sorry. I should have drove you like I said I would. I didn't realize you would have to walk." He looked at his feet. He had been really selfish earlier. Only thinking about how he felt. Not about what Leon would go through.

"You left," Leon pointed out. "I don't get why you got mad at me. In fact I don't get why you hate me so much. Our entire relationship is just you belittling me and leaving me behind for no reason."

Hagakure had no words. He was right.  He was a piece of shit. Always had been.

"Do you remember when you woke up. Right after it happened. I said I love you. Leon, I meant it."

In all honestly Leon didn't remember shit. He was probably zooted on painkillers and exhausted. He shook his head. "I don't remember anything like that."

Hagakure looked disappointed. "Oh." He looked at the ground. "I-I wasn't with you only because I felt guilty. I love you. Like, so much it scares me. So I guess I did everything to cope with that. I don't know what to say Leon."

"I don't know either."

"When they lost your pulse, and had to revive you. It was only a few seconds but it felt like forever."

Leon looked at him. "Wait I died?" He asked.

Hagakure nodded slightly. "Because of me. I almost lost you." Tears began forming in his eyes. "And I can't lose you!" He began sobbing. "I would literally do anything. I would kill myself if you hadn't lived!"

Leon was in shock. Here was Hagakure, the one person he thought hated him the most sobbing in front of him. Because he loved him? It didn't make sense. He stood up and walked over to Hagakure, not really sure why but before he could decide Hagakure pulled him into one of the tightest hugs Leon ever experienced.

"I'm so sorry." He cried squeezing Leon. Leon couldn't say anything, he didn't know what to do but stay there in the grasp of this guy. This guy who tortured him for so long, only to snap out of it once he was sure it was too late? Leon didn't know what to do or how to feel. He wanted to forgive Hagakure. And start over. The other part of him desperately wanted to push him away and cut him out of his life. But that changed when he felt a tear roll down his own cheek. He began silently crying as well and didn't notice it. Hagakure loosened his grasp on Leon and pulled away. He grabbed his chin and made him look at him eye to eye. Then, he leaned down and kissed away Leon's tear.

Leon guessed it was time for a fresh start with Hagakure after all. And what he intended to be the end, would only be the beginning.

A/n friendly reminder to check on your friends ,and remember, even if you don't feel it you are loved, and there are people who care about you and will be here for you. Love you all - Lemon 💛