Addicted To You (MAYHEM #1)

Chapter 16

"Gusto ko siya," Tatiana announced as I watched Felicity walk away with that guy. " Ang ganda at ang sweet niya."

"Mabait si Lucas. Halos kaibigan niya lahat noong nasa high school pa lamang siya. Wala akong maisip na taong may ayaw sa kanya," dagdag naman ni Emily sa usapan.

A pair of tits pressed against my arm. I wasn't in the mood. My head was somewhere else.

Shrugging off the unwanted female, I turned to look at Emily. "You know that guy?" I asked. I didn't want to let this bunch know I gave a shit that Felicity was on a date. They would all misunderstand and harass me about it endlessly. Emily nodded and bit her bottom lip nervously.

"She's right. Guy's nice," Preston said. "He always did that Peer counseling for teens  in the mornings. But he wasn't like the other kids. He even stopped one night when Marcus and I had a flat tire. I didn't have a spare or some shit like that, and Marcus wouldn't call his dad because I was so hammered. So Lucas gave us a ride."

This wasn't something I wanted to hear. Preston liking someone so completely different from him meant this Lucas guy probably was fucking perfect for Felicity.

Shit.

"May gusto ka ba sa kanya?" Tanong ni Tatiana sa akin. Wala talagang paligoy ligoy pagdating sa ate ko. Napaka-straightforward niyang makipag-usap. Sana lang ay itinanong niya sa akin iyon nang hindi niya kasama ang mga maiingay niyang kaibigan na mataman ding nakatingin sa akin.

I shrugged. "She's not my type. But, yeah, she's a friend. Glad to know the guy she's with is worthy of her." I took a swig of my beer. "I need to get back. Fifteen minutes are almost up." I never made it backstage on time. They were all thinking just that as I walked to the door leading to the stage.

I ignored the girls trying to get my attention. I just needed to get the hell away from everyone and hit something. I didn't want to fucking care that Felicity was on a date.

She wasn't someone I could mess with. She was fragile. The more time I had spent with her, the more I realized just how fragile she was.

I wasn't good with fragile. I broke shit. I'd never forgive myself if I broke her. That would likely destroy me.

But could I just cut her out of my life? I'd missed her like crazy the past week. She made me laugh. Really laugh.

And damn, I smiled all the time when she was around. I loved watching her find herself and her independence. It made the darkness that seemed to live in my chest ease up.

Felicity made me feel whole inside. I'd never felt whole. There was always this emptiness. I had tried everything to fill that dark ache inside, but nothing had ever worked. Until Felicity smiled at me.

"Break's up," Sawyer said as he came through the door and slapped me on the back. "Cheer up. You're thinking too much about this. Just be her friend. Be her motherfucking friend. That's it. Try it. You might find you like it."

I watched as my best friend grinned at me and nodded before turning to go back onstage. Sawyer had been the only person in my life to really know me.

He knew my dark places and he knew why they were there. Not even my sister knew everything. I couldn't tell her; she'd blame herself for not protecting me. For leaving me. But Sawyer knew. He'd seen it.

Should have known I couldn't hide my battle with Felicity from him. He saw it all over my face. Was he right? Could she be my friend?

Melissa had been my friend. Sure, I'd wanted in her pants most of the time, but in reality she had been my friend. She'd accepted the dark side of me and she'd understood it. She also had been one of the toughest people I knew. Hurting her was impossible. At least for me. I knew I'd never break her.

Felicity wasn't Melissa. She was so innocent and . . . hell, she was precious. I closed my eyes and let out a string of curses. I was so losing badass points for that thought. Who the hell thought a girl was precious? Not fucking Kyson Grey Montenegro.

"Think about it later, dipshit! We got a crowd to please," Sawyer yelled at me from the stage.

He was right. I shoved thoughts of Felicity to the back of my mind and put on my game face.

Tatiana would be watching me, and I needed to get her off the scent. If she thought I wanted Felicity, she'd bust her ass to get into my business.

I loved my sister, but she was hell to shake when she got something in her head.

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