In Case You Didn't Know

Here is where the story ends

...this is goodbye

I'm not crying.

I'm not crying.

I'm not crying.

Can you imagine a pregnant Alexia? Nathan snuggling and kissing his baby?

I am crying.

I thought that finishing this story was going to feel powerful and liberating –it did, but it also kind of broke my heart.

I've been reading all your lovely comments on both the ending and the epilogue, and my heart is full to the brim. Simply put, Natlex are my babies, and I can't believe how anyone could love my characters as much as you guys do. Thanks for reading, for voting, for the conversations. I also can't believe that it's over. If it is of any help, I've been crying all week too.

I write about the things that scare me. About the things that keep me up at night. The things that give me hope. I write about the things that make me be...me. Writing has always been the best way I have to communicate, whatever it is I want to say. I have dedicated over 2 years and a half of my life to Nathaniel and Alexia, and although it pains me to say it –I think it's time for me turn a new page.

I don't only write –I let it consume me. In case you hadn't noticed, I'm completely obsessed with my characters. That's not always a good thing. The last few months have been the most difficult for all of us, and writing this story is the thing that has been keeping me sane. Thanks for sharing your time with me each week and making me feel less lonely.

That being said, I do need to focus on the present and what's actually happening around me –and how to grapple with that– and for that reason I have decided to step away from Wattpad for a while.

I'm very proud of ICYDK and how much my writing has improved. But, the Wattpad's algorithm has never liked me, and despite me having a lot of faith in this story, I do feel like it is going to bury this and let it flop –and I don't want to be here to see that happening. I don't want this to sound as me whining (my writing pursuits go way beyond Wattpad), social media has always caused me stress and that's why I do my best to avoid it.

I don't know how long this hiatus is going to take, maybe a few weeks, maybe a few months. Just know that I'm going to miss you lot like crazy. In the meantime, if you have some inquiry or comment of dire importance (or simply want to chat),  you can find me on twitter as @KaraEH_

Otherwise, I'll catch up with your comments and messages when I get back.

Finally, I have one last thing to ask from you.

Could you please, please, please tell me what you liked about this story and what you didn't? Don't say everything was perfect because we well bloody know that's unrealistic.

For instance, I know that my summarising skills suck and that I ramble a lot. Proof of that is how this story is over 140,000 words long when typically, a romance book should abide by the 90K-110K rule. I also know there were a few cringe-worthy moments. Maybe something was way too long, or unnecessary? Or the opposite, perhaps something was not explored enough.

I know this might be asking a lot from you, but it will help me greatly to keep improving my writing so at the end of the day it will also benefit you? If you decide to keep reading what I write in the future, that is.

Here are some ideas to guide you, but honestly, it can be whatever.

-Favourite(s) scene.

-Least favourite(s) scene.

-Favourite quote (dialogue, description, etc.)

-If you had to delete one chapter, which one would it be?

-Favourite character besides Nathaniel and Alex.

-Favourite Alexia's trait.

-Favourite Nathaniel's trait.

-Did you feel, at any point, that you didn't want to keep reading?

-Do you think the story would be better if it had more dialogue?

-Let's talk smutt: was it enough, was it not enough? Did it add to the story, would it had been better without it?

Last but not least, if you have made it this far into the story: you have my full beating heart. You are the reason I keep writing.

Love you guys, be kind & stay safe out there!

Xx, Kara.