The Kissing Booth: After The Break-up, Elle and Noah

My secret revealed Part 6

I'm roaming around the store when I hear my name called, "Elle? Is it really you?" I turn and block Mrs.  Flynn's view of my cart.  She comes over and says, "your dad said you were coming home. How are you?"  I'm thinking SHIT! she is going to see Nate! Well I guess it's time for everyone to find out the truth. I reply, "I'm doing well" and purposely step to the side so she can see my guy.  She glances at him, looks back at me before her eyes snap back to Nate and she puts her hand to her mouth, gasping.  Her eyes never leaves him and she says, "Well, it seems we have a lot to catch up on, Please, come to dinner tonight?"  I stammer, then blurt out, "please don't say anything to Noah until we talk. I want to be the one to tell him."  I can see the emotions running across her face.  She finally agrees, but only after I agree to go to dinner and take Nate with me. So, I agree. She approaches the cart and reaches out to lay her hand on his cheek, but looks back at me as if she is asking for my permission to touch him.  I nod my head.  She lays her hand on his cheek, he looks up at her with Noah's eyes and gives her a Noah like smile, left dimple flashing. I can see her heart melting as she smiles back at him a few tears falling from her eyes.  She looks at me again and says, "I'll see you tonight." and she walks away.

I finish my shopping and quickly go home.  What have I done, its all happening sooner then I was prepared for.  I unload the car and I'm in the kitchen putting things away when dad wheels himself in.  He sees my face and asks what happen. I tell him about running into Mrs. Flynn and explain I'll be going over there for dinner tonight.  Dad's only comment is, "it's about time."

My phone rings, I look at the caller ID it's Lee.  I answer quickly.  He doesn't even say Hi, he just says, "My mom called, demanding answers about you and Nate.  I didn't know what to tell her. I know he is my nephew, but I've been hiding this too."  I tell him I saw her at the store and she saw Nate.  I'm going over there for dinner tonight and I'm going to tell them everything.  Then I ask, "Do you think she is going to tell Noah, before I go over there?"  He says, "She told you she wouldn't so she won't , but after dinner I'm sure she will."

I'm so nervous driving to the Flynn's.  Although she has promised not to tell Noah, has she?  Is he going to be there? I'm so scared of their reactions.  I pull up to the house. I never used to be nervous coming over here, it was a second home to me.  It's so strange now. I get out of the car, I open the back door to get Nate out and grab his bag of toys.  I set him down and close the door.  I take Nate's hand and walk towards the house.  The door opens and Lee comes out.  Nate sees him and runs to him yelling Unkie Lee.  Lee catches him and swings him around making Nate laugh, I smile, and he sets him down and takes his hand.  My smile don't last long as I look at the house.  Holding Nate's hand in one hand he takes mine with the other and squeezes it, he says, "she didn't tell him, he isn't here.  It's all going to work out." I breathe a sigh of relief. I'm not ready to face Noah, yet.

Mr and Mrs Flynn are waiting for us in the living room as we come in.  I lean down and pick Nate up.  I hug him to me briefly before turning him so he can see them. Nathaniel Lee, I want you to say Hi to your Grandma and Grandpa Flynn.  He smiles at them and says, "hi."  Mrs. Flynn smiles back at him and I lean forward so she reaches up and takes him.  She holds him and cuddles him before he starts to squirm.  She sets him down, but can't take her eyes off him.  We all sit down after I give him his toys that I brought with me so he is content for the moment. 

I take a deep breath, hold it for a second and let it out, then I start talking.  After Noah and I broke up I was devastated. I didn't know what to do.  He kept asking to talk and I wanted to because I still love him, but I was very hurt and didn't think we could ever work it out. So at our graduation party he showed up. I kept avoiding him. Eventually he caught up to me.  I don't think you want specific details so I'll say we were both pretty drunk and one thing led to another.  The next morning I was prepared to talk and try to work it out, but I heard Noah say he didn't remember anything from the night before.  For him nothing had changed, but for me I was hurting even more.  So I pretended nothing had changed, I refused to talk to him that morning and he seemed to give up.  

Then about six maybe seven weeks later I started getting sick. I went to the doctors and found out I was pregnant.  I came straight here and was going to tell Noah, but when I told him I needed to talk to him he threw my own words back at me and left.  At the time, I was glad I hadn't told him, because I needed to think all of this through before I did anything, so I went home.  It never entered my mind to have an abortion, I loved my baby already.  I played different scenarios out in my head and didn't like any of them.  In everyone of them he left school and came home for me and the baby.  I didn't want him back like that and I really didn't want him to leave school and ruin his future, so I had to think of other options.  The only thing that I seemed to work was for me not to tell anyone and leave.  It was the hardest decision I've ever had to make.  Was it the wrong choice not to tell anyone, probably, but at the time I felt it was my only choice. So I left.  After I'm done I sit and wait for their reaction.  

Mrs. Flynn gets up and comes over to sit beside me and takes my hand. She looks down and then looks me in the eye and says, "whats done is done. I wish you would have told us. You didn't have to go through this alone, but we can't change whats been done all we can do is try to forgive and move forward from here.  I want to know my grandson and be a part of both your lives.  Your mom was my best friend and I have always thought of you as my daughter.  You are and always will be a part of this family. She hugs me and holds me while I cry.  Mr. Flynn says, "welcome home, we've missed you." We continue to talk and I catch them up on some details of the last 5 years, when Mrs. Flynn asks when I plan to tell Noah.

I'm not sure.  I don't even know how to reach him.  She gets up and writes his number down for me. I look at the number and she just smiles knowingly, he never changed his number.  Why, i wonder.  She tells me she will give me some time, but not long. She says he deserves to hear the truth of why I left from me.

I visit with the Flynn's for a bit longer, until it's almost Nate's bedtime.  As I pack up to head home, Lee states he is going to go with me for a while.  After we get to Dad's I give Nate his bath and put him to bed, then join Lee downstairs in the kitchen.  He leans his elbows on the table and says, "they are going to question me about all of this and when Noah finds out he is going to be furious with me, because I didn't tell him.  I'm in deep shit with him.  I have to  figure out what to tell them."  I say to Lee tell them the truth, "we never talked about it and you didn't want to bring it up until you were sure.  You can also say that you were afraid I would run again if you said anything."  "Nope, I can't lie about it. I will tell them the truth that I figured it out, but I refused to out my best friend. They will get over it." "I'm so sorry I put you in the middle of all this," she says.