The Kissing Booth: After The Break-up, Elle and Noah

Part 11

The four of us started walking towards the beach, talking. Elle was asking how they met.  Margot explains how they met at a party when one of her friends dared her to walk up to the next guy to walk in and kiss him.  It just happened to be Tuppen. After that kiss he followed her and asked her out.   Since she thought he was cute she agreed, they started dating and spent their college years together and right before they graduated he proposed and she accepted. It was truly romantic.  After telling their story she asked about us.  Elle looked at me and she smiled.  Elle starts to explain our family history.  She tells her about our moms being best friends and all about Lee, the fact that I'm Lee's big brother.  Tuppen tells her how I used to make guys stay away from Elle.  Then I spoke up and while watching Elle I explained how I fell in love with her, but that I kept it hidden, because I had thought Lee was in love with her and that she was in love with him.  We told her about the kissing booth, how I was the one to kiss her and how we both realized that we loved each other, how we started dating and hiding it.  Elle then explained how Lee found out and kept us apart then finally relented and let us be together.  Margot says how it was such a sweet romantic story and that we were still together makes it even better.  Elle speaks up again and says, "Oh, we aren't together, we broke up 5 years ago. Now I'm just his baby momma."  Her saying this in that way instantly  pissed me off.  I grabbed her and spun her to face me, " you are not just my baby momma.  You are my son's mother.  Don't you ever put yourself down like that again."  Tuppen excused himself and Margot, to give us some privacy.

I'm standing there looking into her eyes and I say, "Elle you will never be just my baby momma.  No matter what happened in the past or what happens in the future you will always be the first (and only I think to myself) woman I have ever loved.  Yes we do have a child together, but it's not like you are some skank I slept with once or twice and got pregnant.  We loved each other and that love created Nate."  Her tears started to fall and I pull her into my arms, holding her.  She sniffles, "I'm so sorry, Noah.  I guess I'm just feeling horrible about the way I have handled everything that has happened from the break up until now."

I get her to sit down with me and say, "enough of avoiding the hard topics we really need to resolve the past."  She finally agrees to talk about it.  I'm nervous as I start, " I guess we should start with the things I was hiding when you over heard that phone call with Amanda.  We were Lab partners so she would see the grades I was getting.  She knew I was in danger of being kicked off the football team and loosing my scholarship.  She started to tutor me.  We got to be close friends and would talk about our lives, I mostly talked about you and how much I hated being away from you, missed you and how lonely I was without my family around me.  It wasn't what you and Lee had, but she became like a sister to me. Whenever we went to parties together she would make sure the girls would stay away from me because she knew what you meant to me.  I would be her wing-man and get whatever guy she liked to talk to her, but I would always make sure she was safe and not put in dangerous situations.  I always made sure she got home safe.  There was never anything but friendship between us.  She called that morning to see how things were going, because she was encouraging me to tell you everything about my grades, football and our friendship.  She kept telling me if I didn't tell you she was going to.  Then you over heard that phone call and lost it. When you broke up with me you ripped my heart out.  I couldn't figure out why you would be so jealous that I had a female best friend when you had Lee as your bestie.  I thought you would be more understanding about how it was possible for guys and girls to be friends without it being something romantic and physical.. So when you freaked out and broke up with me I thought you were just looking for an excuse because you wanted to be with Levi.  When I brought Amanda home with me for Thanksgiving it was because I hoped to show you there was nothing but friendship between us and I hoped that you two would become friends and that I could get you back. When you left mom's that day and I followed you to the park and saw you kissing Levi it was my worst fears come true.  The whole time we were together I was so afraid that you would realize I wasn't good enough for you and that someday someone who deserved you would come along and you would leave me for them. So when I saw you kissing him I knew why you broke up with me.  I loved you to much to really let you go and I did try to tell you all this, but you wouldn't let me.  Then I stopped trying because I didn't want to stand in the way of you being happy.  By the time I came home for your graduation I had realized that you and Levi had only shared the one kiss that I saw.  I was determined to get you to listen to me, but you left the party or so I thought and I got drunk.  I truly thought finding you in my room and making love to you that night was a dream.  That my drunk mind was letting my subconscious  show me what I really wanted.  The day you showed up and asked to talk I was really a dick and gave you back your own words.  When I left I went to our spot and I had hoped you would either follow me there or show up there later but you never did.  I broke completely that day and stayed at the sign crying and spent the night there.  When I got back Lee was on the phone with you and you were already gone.  I went by your house so many times hoping you had come back home and that I would see your car there, but it never was."  She was silently crying through my whole explanation.  She continues to cry after I'm done.  I'm sitting beside her waiting for her to respond to everything I just old her.