The Kissing Booth: After The Break-up, Elle and Noah

Part 27

The next weekend Noah and I left LA to drive to San Francisco so we could pack up my apartment.  It's a 6 hour drive. About 1/2 way there we decided to stop to stretch our legs and get something to eat.  It was a normal roadside diner. We both had a double cheeseburger, fries and a shake, of course mine was strawberry and his chocolate.  We spent most of the time talking about the time we spent apart. I told him how I started school while I was still pregnant with Nate and was almost finished when I had him and then went back after I had him and completed school.  I explained that the school I was attending also had a day care program and since I was an enrolled student I didn't have to pay anything.  I liked the fact that I could see Nate on my lunch break and between classes.  The only days I didn't get to see him was when I was off campus doing clinicals.  As we continued to talk I told him how much I enjoy being a Nurse and that I really would like to go back to school to continue my education.

After hearing that he was silent for a few minutes longer then usual, then he replies, "if you really want to go back then do it.  You have a support system now to help with Nate,  I'm sure our parents will help with him, but I can take him most of the time.  You don't have to worry about Nate I'm here to take care of him including financially. As for paying for school I'm sure their are grants, maybe even scholarships and even student loans to pay for school.  If all that isn't enough I can cover everything else.  In fact I would prefer if you just applied for grants and scholarships and let me do the rest.  You don't even have to work while being in school."

That's when I got angry, "Noah Flynn, I'm not with you for you to take care of me and Nate. I don't want you to support me financially while I go to school.  Helping take care of Nate I can understand, but I don't want your money. I'm more then capable of supporting myself and Nate.  When I figure out how to support myself and Nate while I'm in school that's when I'll go back.  It may never happen, but that's the sacrifice I made when I decided to keep my child and I'll never regret it as long as I live.  When I first came home and told you about Nate I also told you I didn't want anything from you.  I meant that. I know things have changed between us, but that doesn't change the fact I don't want you to take care of us financially. I'm not with you for that. I'm with you because I love you and always have. Do you really think so little of me that I can't do this on my own?"

Noah waits until I'm done with my rant, he takes my hand that is laying on the table, I try to pull away, but he doesn't let me.  He says, "Elle, look at me, please." When I do I can see the anger and hurt in his eyes as he says, "I know you are more than capable of taking care of yourself and OUR son. You have been doing an amazing job of that for the last 5 years.  I did not mean to offend you or imply in any way any disrespect, in fact besides my mom, wait no I believe even more then her, I respect you more then anyone I know. Not only did you become a mother right after high school, you did it alone and you found a way to make a decent life for yourself and Nate.  You are such an amazing person. You are so strong and I know you are more then capable of doing it all, but I want, no I need, to be there for you and Nate. I need to help you and support you while you follow your dreams. I want to be there when you succeed. I want nothing more then to see you happy, I hope to be a big part of that happiness, because you are a major part of my happiness. You sacrificed so much to have Nate and you gave me time to follow my dreams and succeed, now it's my turn to give you your chance. I'm not forcing you to take financial help from me, but I want you to understand that I am here and I am going to be here in any way you need me to be.  I just got you back and I will not give you up again for any reason and I will support you in whatever way you will let me. I know you don't need me, but I need you and I need you to let me be here for you emotionally and in every other way, including financially. I love you, Elle."

I'm in tears by the time he is finished. I take a minute to gather my thoughts, "I'm so sorry. I should not have over reacted that way. I think my reaction was more about how it will look to others, because it's what people think of single mothers, that we are just looking for someone to take care of us.  It's part of what I faced after having Nate, but I shouldn't take it out on you.  I admit I want to go back to school and to do that I do need help. I'm not saying yes or no to anything right now, so what I'm saying is lets do some research when we get home. Lets find out what I need to do, what programs are out there, what financial aide is available and discuss it and decide together what are the best options. I love you Noah, you are my past, present and future. You and Nate are my happiness. I will always need you."

Not long after Noah paid the bill and we continued on our trip. Noah kept the conversation light and fun.  He was telling me about what happened with the OMG girls after I left.  The best kept secret of our high school years was about Mia and Gwen, it was discovered that they are bisexual and had been together since our Sophomore year.  They had agreed to keep everything a secret and even let each other date guys, while still being together.  Then at a summer party, Mia slept with Warren and ended up pregnant, but before she found out, Gwen had hooked up with him as well and yes she was pregnant too.  Well Mia's parents forced her to marry Warren, but after she found him in bed with Gwen she divorced him.  It took them some time to work through it all, but now the 3 of them were all living together as a happy trio.  It was all quite the scandal. When it all came out Olivia said she knew about them being bisexual the whole time, but she wasn't involved with them in that way, but remained the ever faithful friend and kept their secrets.  Now it gets even weirder, Olivia met one of Warren's step-dads and they ended up getting married, but now Olivia is pregnant and it's Warren's.  The whole time he was telling me this I was laughing so hard I was crying.  After he was through I told him I didn't believe him, that he had to be making it up to make me laugh, then he handed me his phone and told me to log into his social media account and look them up.  After that I really lost it and jokingly told Noah, well dam here you could have been the guy with both of them instead of Warren. Isn't that every man's fantasy to be with 2 women at once?  The look Noah gave me was priceless, I'm glad I had his phone ready and snapped his pic when I said that.  

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A/N: I'm am so sorry it has been so long since my last update. I have been working a lot which I believe helped cause my writers block, because  on my days off all I want to do is sleep.  Now that I have started to write again I hope it isn't as long before my next update.  I already know what my next 2 chapters are going to be about, I just don't know when I will write or if I can find the time. 

Thank you for your understanding and support.

TJSMIDI