The Kissing Booth: After The Break-up, Elle and Noah

Part 9

"I haven't told my parents yet.  Mom is going to be so excited, she has been hinting around lately that she wants grandchildren.  She is going to love being a grandma.  Can you follow me to Mom's so she can meet him and we can tell her together?'

"I am ashamed.  I look down and I tell him, "She already knows and has met him.  I ran into her yesterday and one look at Nate and she knew he is yours.  I had dinner with them yesterday."

I'm kind of pissed. My parents and brother met my son before I even knew about him.  "I'm not happy you waited so long to tell me, in fact I am fucking pissed at you for all of this, but I'll deal with it and get over it.  I'm upset I don't get to tell my Mom first, but again I'll deal with it, but Elle don't ever hide anything serious from me again.  If there is anything going on with you or Nate I'm the first one you call, understand?" She nods.  "I'm going to be a part of my son's life and yours, we will work it all out.  I would still like you to bring Nate over to Mom's so she can see us together, please."  She agrees, we pack up the picnic and she follows me there.

I get off my bike and walk to her car as she parks.  I open the door for her and I ask if I can get him out. She nods. I think she is surprised by how I'm acting. She doesn't know it yet, but She is still mine, I will get her back and make us a real family. It's what I've always wanted and that will never change.  I almost laughed when she was talking to about me being with someone, because the truth is I haven't been with anyone since she left me.  It might take time, but we have all the time we need to work this out, but she will be my wife someday. Hopefully sooner rather that later.  

I'm carrying Nate. He fell asleep in the car. His head is on my shoulder. I rub his back and turn my head and kiss his forehead.  I know I should probably lay him down on the couch, but I can't seem to let him go.  I had let Mom know we were here.  I've never seen her smile so much or so big as when she saw me with Nate in my arms. I sit down on the couch leaning back with Nate now sleeping on my chest.  Elle is sitting across from me.  She keeps glancing at me with a small smile on her face.  I wonder what that look is all about.  She says softly, "you both look so cute like that. I never thought I would see you holding him like this." She knows I normally don't like being called "cute," but in this case I think she could be right. I still scowl at her anyway and she giggles. 

I spend as much time with them as I can. She is teaching me what he likes and what he doesn't. I've never really been around kids so she is teaching me what I need to know about how to take care of him. She has given me a list of things I'll need to do to make my place safe for him.  She didn't really need to do all that, because Mom has already been to my place and "child proofed," my house.  Mom has already started decorating a bedroom at my house and one at hers for when Nate is over.  She is so happy being a grandmother and I think she is happier still that Elle is his mother. 

While I'm with them I keep trying to talk about the things she has had to deal with by having Nate alone, but she doesn't give me a lot of details.  All she really says is that all the struggles were worth it for Nate.  

We haven't talked about the things that happened between us that caused us to break up. I've tried a few times to bring it up, but she always changes the subject.  I'm getting frustrated that she won't talk to me about the past or the things she struggled with to have our son and raise him on her own until now. 

I asked Mom if she could talk Elle into letting her keep Nate for the night. Mom knows me and we have talked a lot over the last 5 years. She knows I've never stopped loving Elle.  She knew once I gave her my heart that I would never love another woman.  I love spending time with both Elle and Nate all of us doing things as a family, but I wanted to try to spend some time alone with Elle. I want to let her get to know me and me to get to know her. I also want to get her to discuss the past and the things that led to the break up. I don't feel there can be a relationship until we resolve the past.  Mom called Elle and has it all set up to take Nate on Saturday.