Emotions

You

When you hear a certain song does it remind you of me ?
When your at your house do you remember the days me and you would just be in your bed with each other ?
When you go to the mall do you remember us goofing around there ?
When you see my initial does your mind go straight to me ?
When you see a couple holding hands does it remind you of us ?
When your sad do you remember me being there for you at your hardest times ?
Do you ever think of me ?
Do you ever need me ?
Do you ever wanna just hold me ?
Talk to me ?
Laugh with me ?
Just be with me again ?

Look at me
Not knowing where your head is
Look at me
Questioning if u even give thought to me anymore because of all the times I've been there for you
Look at me
Thinking if you ever just think about me
Even for a second
Look at me
Just questioning if what I ever did for you was enough
Look at me
Questioning if you ever even loved me.

It's sad to see I was once this happy girl
Now i feel lost just because I don't have you
It isn't fair how I was happy
It isn't fair that because of you I'm broken
Because of you I'm not the same person
But also because of you I'm stronger.

I dealt with a heartbreak all on my own
I've went from one assumption to another
I went from thinking with time you'll come back to me
Thinking everything that was a "sign" meant the universe was on our side
I was crying everyday for the past couple months
I was sad every time I thought of you
I couldn't even enjoy life
But after time I started to gain my confidence
I tried my best to convince myself it was all your fault
I know I wasn't perfect in our relationship
I don't think anyone ever is
What I do know is that no matter what
I never stopped to give you the world
I never stopped being there for you
I never gave up on you no matter how hard it got
I always fought for you
I was always on your side
I always had your back
I motivated you
I did my part !
It was never me
Your the one who took the easy way out when things got hard

This is honestly one of the worst feelings I've ever felt
This is the lowest I've ever been
The saddest I've ever been
This is where I have cried the most
And smiled the least
All because of you.

How come I give you the world and you break mines down ?
How was I so stupid and blinded by your love that I put you before me
I put your feelings before mines
I put just you in general before me
I lost myself just so you can find yourself
I broke myself just to make you happy
I lost myself
While you found you
You're happier then ever
I'm the saddest I've ever been
How do you have the heart to do that ?
I'm just caring and your just heartless
It wasn't always like that
But after a while I guess you seen the soft spot I had for you
And you took advantage of that and broke me down.