No Matter What An Inspectokros Fanfiction

~Issues~

Sky helped me again!

!TRIGGER WARNING!

contains mentions of : depression ,anxiety ,blood/ su!c!de

Liz pov-

i wake up to golden light streaming onto my face in rays. I turn around to face my girlfriend who's sleeping peacefully. I'm so lucky to have her. A little while later her eyes flutter open and she smiles at me. ''good morning princess'' she says and kisses me lovingly. ''good morning'' i say after and nuzzle my face into her neck and take in the moment.

" how'd you sleep?" She asked while rubbing my back " good how'd you sleep?" I asked back trying not to fall back asleep " I slept fine" she responded a few moments later she stops rubbing my back and gets out of bed " what are you doing?" I ask " I'm getting in the shower baby you wanna join?" She asked grabbing her clothes and setting them out "sure" I say getting out of bed.

We get in the shower not long after ...and yet i feel the need to cover up myself. ''baby... it's ok... your bodies beautiful'' she assures me. i blush but still cover myself, suddenly i feel her arms around my waist and kisses on my neck , ''i love you so much Liz'' Amanda says softly in my ear. ''i-i love you too'' i say and i really mean it. She's the first person I've ever felt this way for... my parents were alcoholics and judged me all the time growing up so now... i don't have the best mindset. So now that me and Amanda have been dating for years is a nice change. We hide it thought, i feel like I'll embarrass her... she tells me to take my time though, she said she'd never be embarrassed over me. and i love her for that. No one in our college knows were dating.

We finish up our shower and dry off and get ready for the day. Neither of us had class so it was a stay at home and chill day. I threw on sweatpants and a tee shirt and waited for Amanda to get ready. She had such a nice body toned abs, muscles, she was to die over and she had a pretty face and was to drool over.

'I'm so lucky to call you mine' i thought. She walks over to me and kissed me ''I'm luckier'' she said and caresses my cheek before she kissed me again. I blush a bit when i realized i said that out loud. A little while later she sits on the bed next to me and pulls me close to her, i cuddle into her and she kisses my forehead and we watched a movie.

I guess I had fallen asleep because I woke up not remembering how the movie ended and Amanda wasn't in bed anymore. As I get up I smell something from the kitchen, it was pizza. I walked out to the kitchen to see Amanda singing, dancing, and making pizza "pizza?" I say walking over "yes baby I'm making pizza for us" she said cleaning up " yay" I say walking over and kissing her.

She smiles and we get settled down to eat. After a bit i go to the bathroom and look in the mirror, i hate what i see. i felt tears in my eyes when i remember all the harsh words my parents told me my whole life...

''stop eating your getting fat!''

''eat more your a twig!''

''god your so useless elizabeth'...'

''leave! no one wants you here!''

''your disgusting.''

''you'll never be someone...''

''your not gonna go anywhere in life!''

i felt hot tears stream down my face and i can't bear to look at myself anymore so i fall to the ground crying.

Amanda pov

As I'm pulling the Pizza out the oven I hear something hit the floor "Baby you alright?" I yelled I got no answer I then sent the pizza on the cooling rack and walked into the bathroom. " baby what happened?" I asked seeing Liz on the floor crying. " I-i hate it" she said hiding her face "hate what?" I say while sitting down next to her "myself" she said pulling her knees into her chest.