Johndave- depression

Part five

I'm back in the waiting room, Kanaya and I stayed at the cafe for a long while just trying to kill time, but she needed to go home, so once again I'm alone. I'm not sure how long it's been but I figure I have a couple hours before I can see dave again. I've sat here doing nothing for so long I can see the nurse behind the reception counter glancing at me every once in a while. I force myself up and over to the desk "hey, do you have some paper and a pencil I can use" I ask almost a whisper "for what do you need it" she asks "uh.. I'd like to...um...d-draw?" I stutter, she smiles and tilts her head "there is some paper and coloured pencils over in the child's corner you can take from there" she chuckles "thanks" I mumble sending a sheepish smile back to her. There's a toddler over in the corner drawing I go to grab the tall glass that the pencils sit in but she sends me a death glare so I instead just grab a red, a blue and some paper then make my way back to my seat.
I don't Really know or care what I'm drawing I'm just passing time, I've gotten up for more paper 3 times and the once long pencils have been sharpened so much the red is barely longer then my pinky finger. "Are you john" I hear a man say shanking me from my trance I look up at him "um yes that's me" I say after a moments pause "Kanaya told me to get you once mr. strider could have a visitor, he is not awake yet but you are welcome to come in and wait there with him" he delivers plainly "oh-k, yeah.. One moment" I say fumbling around trying to tame the mess I had made. Finally I give up and leave papers strewn everywhere around my chair and follow the man. Silently we walk through the hospital until the tall nurse comes to a sudden stop "here is where mr strider is you may enter but please do not touch him and if he wakes up contact a nurse right away" he says before taking off down the hall again.
I take a long breath before finally pushing the white door open with a creak. I see him laying in the bed with his arms mounted wrist up wrapped in bandages, he's so pale all of the blood loss has left him white as a sheet. Seeing him lay there in such a bad shape so vulnerable I have to bite my lip to stop myself from crying. "Dave? I know you're not awake and you probably can't hear me but I'm here, it's me john" I say quietly, more to myself then dave.
"Dave I'm here, if you want to wake up, I'll be here" I whisper, I don't care what the nurse said I'm holding his hand and resting my head on his stomach. I see his nose twitch and my heart leaps, it's the first time I've seen him move since I've been in here "dave?" No answer, *sigh* I rest my head back on his stomach but not a moment goes by before I hear the door click. I shoot up and drop Dave's cold hand. "It's just me" kanaya walks in "have you been here all night?" She asks obviously worried, wow how long have I been here, I don't answer and just look at her "of course you have" she mumbles putting her bag down "well I guessed you would have so I picked you up something to eat" she says rummaging through her bag "do you treat everybody like this?" I ask genuinely wanting an answer "nope just you, to be honest it's just the way you held my hand before, I guess we connected I feel the need to watch out for you" she says as she hands me a muffin and a coffee.
I look to dave, watching his face for any change, waiting for him to wake up. "He will wake up soon, he just needs some rest" I look over to her and back to dave without a word. " so how do you know him" she asks trying to get me to talk "he's my roommate and my best friend, he thinks were dating but I dont do the homo" I answer her "okay okay I believe you, so how did you guys meet" she asks keeping the conversation light "uh funny story, well not really, but we met online I flew to his house a few times before he came to mine but we were fast friends, and just last year we decided to go to college and move in together. Oh no we have missed so many classes, toda-I mean yesterday was our first day with classes, do you have a phone I can borrow?" I say quickly and awkwardly

((Writers note
Sorry I took so long to update but I went on a road trip with the family and had no accessible internet but I'm back and will again update every 2-3 days unless I say so))