Reunion Under The Apple Tree -- A DDLC Fanfiction

Chapter 7 : A conflicted heart

I boarded the bus and found a seat to sit down quickly. I buried my face into my hands because I don't want others to see me crying. What I witness at Jason's house had completely broke me.

As I finally begin to calm down, I raised my head and looked at the view outside aimlessly. All of these horrible things were happening to what used to be the love of my life for the past three months, yet I have no idea this is happening. Monika, she was once my girlfriend. I vowed to protect her as long as I am still breathing, no matter what happened I will always be there to shoulder her pain. I failed. A simple, obligatory task a boyfriend should have done yet I didn't. Now those horrific images can never escape my mind. I can never unsee those footages and I will forever carry those heart wrenching memories with me.

But this is a minor problem. Those events belongs to the past. As much as I hated it, I could not change the past. What happened had already happened, and there is nothing I can do to undo Monika's suffering. There is a bigger question ahead of me.

Should I go and rescue Monika?

This question lingered in my head. The obvious answer is yes. Of course I should do everything I can to end her suffering. I loved her and it hurts me as well if Monika is being abused. However, saving her involves breaching into a billionaire's mansion located in another country. I couldn't go into the country with ammunitions on me, or else I wouldn't even pass the security check. This means I have to travel through illegal means. Besides, a billionaire's house is likely guarded heavily. If I am not careful enough I could have get killed. The potential risk of the operation is huge. On the other hand, my relationship with Sayori has been promising. If anything I could forget about Monika and simply move on with Sayori.

My thought was halted as the bus arrived at my destination. Still in a horrible mood, I disembarked the bus and walked towards my home. After I unlocked my front door, Sayori rushed towards me excitedly. 'A13 you are finally back! I missed you a lot.' She said.

'Yeah.' I said. My face is completely emotionless.

'Hey are you okay?' Sayori asked. 'You don't seem normal.'

'I am fine. I just had a bad day and I am bit in the mood now.' I tried to put it off lightly. I don't want Sayori to share my stress. Moreover, I don't want Sayori to know about Monika. I chose to lie to her before and I can't change my approach now.

'Hey, just tell me what happened. Your happiness meant a lot to me.' Sayori urged repeatedly. I begin to feel annoyed by her.

'I said I am fine. Please leave me alone.' I clung to my last bit of calmness as I speak.

Sayori refused to leave. 'Cheer up! Boop! Hahaha~' She poked my cheek playfully.

My last bit of sanity fell apart and I begin to lose my temper. 'Sayori! How can you be that ignorant! I am not fucking okay! Quit annoying me and fuck off!' I practically roared at her as I stormed back into my room, slamming the door shut.

I don't even have the mood to have dinner today. All I did afterwards was lying on my bed, still thinking about whether I should rescue her or not. Never in my entire life had I felt so helpless, conflicted and desperate. I had been a horrible boyfriend. The thought of it made me cry even more. Back when I realized Monika had moved on, I thought I could move on with my life as well. Anything happened to her is no longer my business as we are not connected anymore. I was gravely wrong. We are still connected by a thread called love, and that thread is literally tearing my heart apart, driving me insane.

'Sleeping helps dealing with bad moods. Maybe a sleep would be handy.' With that thought in my mind, I tried my best to put myself into sleep.

I opened my eyes and found myself floating in a void. I looked around. Nothing is in my sight, just pure darkness.