Inmate

𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚢-𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚛

-slight tw-

"I'm sorry, Father.." I mumbled, not looking at the angry man looming over me. He only scoffed in response.

"Have you been taking your suppressants?" He asked, his arms crossed.

I paused, almost completely forgetting about them.

"Yes, I take them everyday." I lied.

"Good.." He glared down at me before leaving my room, slamming the door behind him.

This disgusting feeling came back. I felt sick, like I was going to vomit again. I probably should get it checked out soon.

Maybe i'm eating too much and it's making me sick. I stood up in front of my mirror, lifting my shirt to look at myself. My stomach was larger and my face looked a bit swollen.

I should stop eating.

My eyes trailed from my stomach to the photo of Katsuki and I that was taped to my mirror. It reminded me of the note that I hadn't finished reading.

I don't want to read it, but at the same time I do.

Every thought of him hurts. He wasn't supposed to die yet.. not yet..

I keep thinking that he'll be there every time I wake up, but he never is.

The feeling of his embrace is slowly starting to fade, and all I have left is the memory of it. It's not enough. I hug myself constantly, hoping to get that feeling back, but it's never the same.

I wish I could run away. Run like how my thoughts do each night.

I rummaged through the bag of Katsuki's belongings, eventually pulling out the note. I lied on my bed, tears welling in my eyes as I stared at Katsuki's smiling face.

Before I could get too lost in my thoughts, I flipped over the photo.

Here we go.

"Baby don't cry when I am gone. I promise you're everything I want,

Haha, I heard that in a song once. I really liked that song. It always plays in my mind when you're around. It reminds me of you. Maybe you should listen to it, and it'll remind you of me. Although the song is in Spanish, I think you'll get the gist of it,"

A small smile tugged at my lips as my tears soaked my pillow. I feel as if he's really here, talking to me.

I continued to read.

"I hope you know how much I love you. I've never felt so infatuated with anything in my life before. Thank you, for helping me in ways you don't even understand. I've left a gift for you. It's special. You won't get the gift now, but in a few months it'll come. Be patient for me, okay? I want you to treasure this gift, never let it go. I'm not 100% certain that you'll get the gift.. since there are things that could make the gift disappear. To get your gift, I need you to take care of yourself, eat and rest well. I know it will be hard at first but do it for me.

I'll always be watching, mi amor.

-Katsuki

ps: the song is called lo que siento"

I was a sobbing mess by the end of it. If I eat anymore I'll just get fatter. But it's for Katsuki, so I have to..

The gift sounded important to him, so I'll have to do this for him.

I left the note on my nightstand before burying my face into my wet pillow, soaking it with my tears even more.

I miss you, Katuski.