Two seemingly broken people seem to find something truly amazing within one another in the small town of Hawkins, Indiana. What started out as annoyance, quickly turned to something much more. Something neither Lana nor Billy wanted to admit. Things...
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The only thing on my mind at the moment, was getting to Billy. He had become like a safe haven for me, somewhere i could escape and just be myself for a while. We had evolved more together in the course of a few days than i ever had in my entire life. He was becoming something much more than a little fling on the side. I didn't want it to just be that. And i kept holding out hope that i was more to him as well.
"Where have you been?" Billy instantly threw the door open once he saw me coming from his bedroom window, agitated from the fact that i was showing up a lot later than expected. But he just wouldn't understand. I can't drag him into something that will only risk him getting hurt. Not when he is the one good thing in my life. Which is so odd to even say or think.
"My brother had me out uh.... chasing down this little animal he decided to adopt on his own and bring into our house that escaped. It's dangerous. And we were worried what it would do on the loose. We never managed to catch it and i have a feeling where it went, isn't good. I just...." He suddenly put a hand over my mouth the minute he slammed the front door shut behind us, placing his other on my waist in an attempt to slow me down. My heart was racing and my mind was wandering to everyone that i cared about, wondering if they were safe. And he knew something was wrong with me.
"Come on." He let his hand fall to his side once i followed him to his room, almost collapsing straight away onto his bed the minute we reached it. We were the only ones home and it was nice to have the peace and quiet. Well, expect for Billy's loud as hell stereo blaring for the whole world to hear.
"Billy!!" But that peaceful bliss i so badly wanted, quickly vanished the moment his dads voice rang throughout the entire house like a massive boom. Oh shit. I had perfect timing huh?
"Fuck.... okay, go out the window and just wait for me okay?" I followed his orders quickly before we were caught, jumping down to the ground and waiting just below the window for the storm to blow over. I was a nervous wreck.
The usual pain i felt suddenly struck me to the core, heightening the pain. I doubled over with a hand over my mouth to silence the tiny screams just trying to escape from me. It's Will. They're at the lab. They went back home.....
"Where is Maxine Billy?! You know what we discussed. You're supposed to watch her!!" Suddenly, a loud thud could be heard within Billy's room once the loud music had been cut off, startling me and beckoning me to look in the window of his room. His dad had him pinned to the wall with his face mere inches from his in complete anger, his words ringing in my head so furiously, i could barely stand it.
"She's thirteen dad! She doesn't need a full time babysitter. Besides, i have a date i'm late for. Susan said it's fine. I'm going." His dad instantly struck him in the face the minute the words left his mouth, flinching from the mere harsh sound coming through the slightly open window. Billy's sudden tears struck me in the heart, something that I've never seen him do. His father is a horrible man. And it explained a lot about Billy.
"Here is what you're going to do. You're going to call whatever whore you were going out with tonight, and tell them you're canceling. You're going to find your sister! Now!!" My eyes grew wide from the sound of the word whore ringing in my mind, like a stab to the heart. Like he had slapped me while he was at it.
I heard the sudden slam of Billy's door and the flinging of his keys hitting the wall once i managed to look back. Billy stayed against the wall with his tears coming in full force, a look of fear clear as day on his face. I so badly wanted to run in and comfort him.
But i was afraid, paralyzed to the spot I've been in since this all unfolded. What am i doing? Am i really just that? Some whore? I never stopped not one time since Billy and i have been going to think that he was doing what i figured he was doing from the moment he came to Hawkins. Hooking up with woman after woman. The thought hit me like a ton of bricks, and the pain in my heart overpowered the pain i usually feel anymore.
The way he looks at me, the way he talks to me and the things we do together that go beyond sex, was i just reading way too into it? Was it one sided, what i was feeling? My eyes burned with the tears i knew would eventually come, feeling like a piece of trash.
Why would i ever think someone like Billy, could fall in love with someone like me? I'm easily left, discarded. I didn't want to believe in love to begin with. But in the very short time I've known Billy, i think i felt it. It struck me and i hate it. I absolutely hate it.
"Lana...." Billy was suddenly standing before me with his now clear eyed face and a little smile on his lips, like he thinks i didn't hear a word of what was said. But he could tell i did from the way I was looking at him. Like a wounded animal.
"What is this Billy? Am i just some whore on your list?" His eyes widened, not expecting me to ask something like that. But it was eating away at me. And it clearly pissed him off.
"You are not a whore. Don't say shit like that. We're friends who hook up, sure. I like spending time with you, even though you annoy the shit out of me sometimes. You make me think differently Lana. But...... i can't. I can't let it be anymore than what it already is. You know that's the deal." I finally looked up at him, the heart shattering feeling i knew was soon to come happening all at once from the straight faced look he was giving me, like his words were actually true. A friend. Nothing more. Fuck Lana. Why did you do this to yourself? All over Billy fucking Hargrove.
"Good to know. Look, i gotta go. Call someone else to go out with alright? I have my friends who need me anyway." I wiped my face of the tears practically pouring from my eyes the moment i turned away from him to head towards the direction of the lab with his protests ringing out behind me. All i knew, was that i needed to leave. Otherwise, i would never want to. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A massive shout out, like always, to the amazing persons who made every single gif I use in my story. You're the best! Also, I hope everyone is liking the story so far. Let me know what you think. 🥰
