Odd Deceits ( Ongoing Story )

chapter 11

The day has passed by swift as feather. Not realizing that I was entertaining myself all the time. But I wasn't alone as I fought to achilles, thinking about him is always fit up to my schedule. He will never be a goner. He's always here.

Knowing achilles is quite odd too. By his appearance in my dreams before I can even know him is such an example of ubsurdity. Another one is that I feel something when I'm with him, cancel the thought that it's like the fluttering butterfly in my tummy but no. I contradict myself as I know it's something unusual. Something strange and unfortunately for me I'd like to meddle with it.

That even though it is mixed up, and he is mixed up, I'm ready for what is there to come. To know everything.

The lock of my door isn't really lock. I forgot to lock it myself earlier after Luke goes out. The door budge and it's now open, ready to let me saw who entered my so called abode though its only a room. It was auntie, with her almost all gray hair, with their curls making her looks like a young blonde only colored her haired into gray.

Auntie Maria looks so tired now. No. It's not the eye bags I usually saw everyday as she really work that hard and not having enough sleep. It's somehow related to what she feels. What does she feels right now anyway? No matter how I wanted to ask her, her countenance fought my thoughts out. She doesn't like to have further conversation right now.

She only comes here to deliver my food, not to talk to me. I somehow hate the fact that It didn't give me any satisfaction, and I  hate to admit that I was annoyed or miserable about it. She always talk to me whenever I have such problems but. Yeah nothing's permanent.

I don't bother to open my mouth whilst she's here no matter how much I tried to I just can't deal with this right now!

I was entertained by my thoughts with their snides all day that I forgot to make my stomach full. How stupid of me right? Why should I even think about that impossible person, I can't stand to be with him anymore especially that I assure myself I won't go anywhere with a men alone.

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"I'll find you, wait for me, hmm? "

"I'll find you, wait for me, hmm? "

"I'll find you, wait for me, hmm? "

My dream is now a goner. I stare at our blank roof, only to find its pastel cream paint, that makes me want to shut my eyes again. I waited for my alarm to be off itself for I was lazy for that right now. I was bothered thinking about the phrase that keeps repeating on my dream. Is it a message? Wait.

Am I dying, gosh is there someone out there that's gonna kill me?!

Argh, early morning thoughts. Gosh it's quite annoying to dream that, I can't assure myself that it's a message like some dreams like flying, floating being naked that have some certain message that you can search on the Google. It's from a man, no not a grown up man but a boy. Soothing and sweet.

I shrugged at the thought and find my way on my own bathroom ready to brush my teeth. I also please myself to take a bath before I get lazy again and not bothered doing that, like ew. I never went to school without taking a bath. I prefer myself clean and disgusting-odor free.

( Hey guys, if you're somehow thinking that the author is thinking about it that way, no. I expect that there will be people who will be thinking that I don't understand it that way, so I come here to remind you guys that I know that there are student out there that don't have any access to water and other further things concerning that topic so I come up with this message to remind you that the thought and point of view of all the characters in my story didn't portrayed such thoughts of the author

- love you guys. )

My morning is so quiet that even breathing is like a sin. I literally can here the crickets out there. The atmosphere is somehow entertaining and uncomfortable. I still don't have any idea why auntie is acting like that especially while I'm here alone 'eating in the long table. Can someone out there talk to me?

Because of what is evident to me right now, I finish my food in the fastest way though it's somehow rude. I also manage to bring my plate to the sink and wash it myself. I rarely do it since there is so many made in this house but they're acting like I've done something wrong. I'm not fond to them acting like that because they're close to me and they literally talk to me every day.

All of them are shocked and some are still in their usual pace. Not knowing what to do. Same. I didn't call anyone or even command or just requested something from them. I plan to drive myself today without someone else's help.

As I started the engine I can't believe I'm still having some snide comment like 'them being mad at me for no reason. Even Auntie. I never expect Wednesday to be like this cold and infuriating. I don't bother to get myself a cup of coffee or anything to drink. I was full of thoughts to even bothered drinking it.

Oh shut up. Is this about my mother getting the nerves for the tenth time? Maybe she ordered that I should not be talking to anyone but the hell, why?

Arrgh, such a good thing to start my day.

When I'm halfway into our university I can't believe I'm not wearing my uniform today. How stupid of me to drive halfway to campus not 'knowing that I'm not dressed up.

Anyway, I'm only wearing some sort of a tee shirt but a little but off as it didn't reach my tummy. This is under the dress code. Gosh.

The parking isn't that full right now. I plan to leave it at the nearest place where I can saw it later so I won't bother finding it after my last class. I lock my car and head to my first class.

The campus is big so ofcourse, it will be possible to interact with anyone right now and unfortunately for me I'm not up for it. I just give off my genuine smile as I wave my hand goodbye to avoid having small conversation to people who's greeting me. Not really rude, because they don't want to talk too. I'm always into small convo but I guess today is not the day.

And great. Achilles is looking at me not so far making me tremble with such embarrassment. I don't know if I can face him today, even though I shouldn't. We have great civility the last time we met but still, I'm currently having trust issues with men's right now. He's odd. Like the man who did that to me. They're the same. All of them are.

I found myself hyperventilating while running away from him. Not minding the nosy chatters of students sane age as me out there. He pace his run making me tremble in yet another embarrassed feeling.

He already noticed my odd, uncomfortable and shy countenance that makes my face complexion red. I managed to look away and half running away from him again.

" Eliana. "

I tried to focus my sight in my soroundings only to see him pulling me near him. The hell?

" Eliana.. "

" Get away from me! "

I shouted at him, his blue eyes is there again, making its way in me. Making me go near him. To let him into my life. Again?

He pull me once again by tugging my elbow, pulling me slowly but I was disgusted and afraid.

It won't happen again, I'm so scared for that to happen, again!

" Really, what is your problem?! " I dramatically waved my hand in the air, prompting him to go away but he always contradict to me. Argh.

" Will you always ran away from me? "

" Am I always the one running to you? "

Fifteen words that struck me out again. It was nostalgic. Never foreign and its sensation was familiar like he said it before. And he will say it soon.

Again.