𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 // 𝙠𝙩𝙝 ✓

Savor

I rested my head on my hand as I looked out the window of my grandma's car, watching all the other cars and buildings pass in a blur.

I held Taehyung's hand tightly so I knew I was really alive. To know that all of the cars and buildings passing were real. To know that I got out safe and sound.

Though I experienced something that made me feel taken advantage of, inferior and gross, Taehyung was all the reminder I needed to keep myself optimistic in any way. He reminded me it wasn't my fault and the pain would soon go away.

He went through the same thing and knew how I felt, making me have some security but also anger knowing he's feeling the pain I'm having. I hope that sick son of a bitch learned a lesson.

"Taehyung..." I whispered, making sure my grandma didn't hear me.

"Yes?" He responded quietly as well with a low voice, looking at me with sparkles in his eyes. "Do you know what happened to Yoongi?" I asked, needing to know if he didn't get away.

Taehyung went silent but soon looked poker-faced, replying with an unexpected response "He's dead."

I knew what he meant by his expression. He's dead but he murdered him. I could tell but this time he had absolutely no regrets for what he did. I didn't pity Yoongi one bit knowing what he did to me and Taehyung.

I just smiled slightly at his response and scratched his ears, earning a low purr come from his chest. Butterflies roamed around in my stomach knowing this is who I'm going to be spending a long time with.

We took a plane home to Korea after a day spending time with my grandma who was also able to provide us some clothes, food and a ticket home.

Luckily she was there to support us or who knows how we could've gotten home without our passport and such. The wonders she controls are never ending but nevertheless I'm grateful to be where I am and to have that family that would support me and my decisions as so.

Me and Taehyung are laying together on our grass portion of our backyard, cuddling in peace hearing the crickets surrounding us under the night sky full of stars.

I listened to his heartbeat from my side that was laying on his chest, his heartbeat slowing and fastening whenever I moved. It really made my heart flutter knowing how loved I am.

He rubbed my back comfortingly and peacefully, making my mind set at ease.

I wasn't alarmed, I wasn't afraid of my safety and I didn't feel as if something was impending.

I was finally at peace and in true love.

My eyes started to flutter closed as I started to feel drowsy. Even though I wanted to stay awake for just a little longer, I couldn't control my tiredness.

In Taehyung's response of noticing how tired I was, he started to sing a familiar song. One that reminded me of when we first met each other and one that set me fully at ease.

I snuggled closer to him, feeling his low voice vibrate through his chest and soon, I hummed along with him until I fell asleep.

"무언가 깨지는 소리
난 문득 잠에서 깨
낮설음 가득한 소리
귀를 막아 보지만 잠엘 들지 못해
목이 자꾸 아파와
감싸 보려하지만
나에겐 목소리가 없어
오 오늘도 그 소릴 들어
또 울리고있어 그 소리가
이얼어 붙은 호수에 또 금이 가
그 호수에 내가 날 버렸잖아
내 목소릴 널 위해 묻었 잖아
날 버린 겨울 호수 위로
두꺼운 얼음이 얼었네
잠시 들어간 꿈 속에도
나를 괴롭히는 환상통은 여전해
나는 날 잃은 걸까
아님 널 잃은 걸까
나 문득 호수로 달려가
오그 속에 내 얼굴 있어
부탁해 아무 말도하지 마
입을 막으려 손을 뻗어 보지만
결국엔 언젠가 봄이와
얼음들은 녹아 내려 흘러 가
Tell me 내 목소리가 가짜라면
날 버리지 말았어야 했는지
Tell me 고통조차 가짜라면
그때 내가 무얼해야 했는지"

The End

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