Don't Let Me Down

Chapter 12

   Wangji was driving in complete silence, even Xichen didn't dare to talk to Wangji. Few minutes later when Wangji stopped the car in a signal, finally Xichen got the chance to speak, "Wangji! Are you sure about that engagement? Isn't it too early? And have you asked Sizhui about this?" Sizhui wanted to speak but Wangji stated,"We'll talk about it in the house. Not now." Again the car got filled with deadly silence. Suddenly Xichen noticed that Wangji's left sleeve was full of blood. Xichen got worried, "Wangji, have you gotten hurt somewhere? Your left arm is bleeding probably." Wangji has already restarted the car, as he glanced at his left arm, he saw his white shirt is painted by someone's blood. Xichen noticed Wangji's grip on the steering got tighter,"No. I'm fine." Xichen remembered that Wei Ying also got hurted by the broken glass and by Wangji's reaction it was none other than Wei Ying's blood.
   After entering their home, Wangji helped Xichen to sit down on the couch and he sat beside him,"Brother! Are you really alright? Let me see the wound." Wangji lifted the corner of the shirt slowly and saw the stitches. His eyes got teary,"If I didn't leave early, it'd not happen. It's all my fault. I'm sorry." Xichen hugged his brother,"Wangji, there was nothing you could do even if you were there. Wei Ying was drunk and alcohol took the best of him. He didn't mean to harm me. You were way too much harsh to him. I heard everything." Wangji didn't say anything but carefully tightened his hug. Xichen continued,"And Wangji! What about this engagement? Why did you announce that kind of a thing all of a sudden? Even I didn't know anything about it?"
   Wangji sighed,"I'm sorry. I didn't think anything. I was angry and wanted to punish Wei Ying by any means and I didn't think of anything else more perfect than this engagement." Then Wangji turned towards Sizhui,"I'm sorry again Sizhui. Let's announce our break up in two days. I really didn't think it through. I'm destroying your life. I'm really really sorry. Let's not do this." Sizhui sat down infront of Wangji,"Lan Zhan, stop blaming yourself already. I have already told you I'm doing this as a friend. You don't have to think that my life could be destroyed by it. What would happen if we got engaged? Nothing would change. It will be still fake and no one suspect anything."
   Wangji scolded Sizhui,"Are you even listening to yourself? What are you saying? If we get engaged, that means your name will be always added with mine. Probably we would get married too, to prove this fake engagement. Then? Have you even thought about it that how would you like to live a life with a person whom you don't love. How can you agree to lead a fake engaged life? Fake married life? A-Yuan, back in London those five years I have been with you, I know you. You are such a great person who deserves the world then why are you ascending to hell with me?"
   Sizhui took Wangji's hands in his,"Lan Zhan, I have already told you I'm just doing what a friend should do. Have a fake married life with you is not a bad idea. We will lead our own world, being friends that's all. And most importantly if doing this is ascending to hell then you don't know the meaning of true friendship. I can do anything for you. So let's not get into fight among ourselves but let's start the preparation for our engagement." Wangji was feeling guilty like hell, "Then what about Rulan? You can have a proper love life. You deserve that. I really can't reason you. Sizhui let's not do this. I didn't think through when I announced that engagement. What about I'll announce that I break up with you because I had an affair or something like that."
   Sizhui chuckled,"Lan Zhan, don't be an idiot. No one will believe in your affair story. I told you already Rulan is just a crush. You don't have to cancel the engagement. What if because of this fake engagement you get back your love? We have to think about every possibilities. So, please Lan Zhan, do as you planned. I'm with you." Xichen saw determination in Sizhui's eyes. Xichen patted Sizhui's head,"I'm really glad to have juniors like you and Jingyi. Thank you for supporting Wangji." Wangji didn't look at Sizhui as he got up with Xichen,"Jingyi, Sizhui, you two have to do all work in the office for this week. I'll stay at home with gege. If you need help with anything then just give us a call. Is it okay for you guys?"
   As both of them said 'yes', Wangji took Xichen to his room carefully leaving Jingyi and Sizhui in the drawing room. Jingyi asked Sizhui,"Sizhui! Are you sure about that engagement? Aren't you going too far?" Sizhui smiled softly,"I'm sure. Lan Zhan saved us once and helped us through everything, how can I turn my back on him when he needs me the most. We were naive first year students then. All of a sudden Linda committed suicide and everyone suspected that we pushed her to commit suicide because she wanted to be in a relationship with either of us and we turned down her like quite a lot of times. No one believed us, even fellow Chinese students didn't come in our aid. It was Lan Zhan who helped us though he was a senior student, who contacted his family lawyer, private investigator and lifted up all of the charges from our shoulders. If it wasn't for him and big brother then we would probably be behind the bars not studying. Back then no one believed us but those brothers did and proved others wrong. They even included us in their family. I just want to do the same for them." Jingyi sighed, "Those were horrible days but they were angels to us. I can feel you. Then let's help him. Just always tell me what you are thinking or what you want. I want to help you out. After all I'm your brother. I'm always with you A-Yuan." They hugged each other and went to their rooms.
   Lan Zhan sat beside Xichen,"Gege! I know what Sizhui is thinking. He is trying to repay for helping them out back in London. But he can't understand what he is doing. Our lives are always under lime light, it'll burn him." Xichen sighed,"I think it's all my fault. I gave you this idea and now everything is going wrong. But there is no way out from this game. I'm sounding selfish but we have created a world out of lies so we have to endure everything Wangji. Don't think about it much, today was a real stressful day, just go to sleep now. We'll talk tomorrow." Wangji nodded,"I'm going to sleep here with you. I'm coming back after getting fresh." He walked out from the room leaving a worried Xichen behind.
   Wangji entered his room, as he looked at the mirror, he noticed his shirt. His left sleeve was painted in his love's blood. As he remembered Wei Ying's pained expression, Wangji started to cry,"Why? Why Lan Wangji? Why? Why on earth you have to hurt the person whom you want to cherish the most? I'm sorry Wei Ying, I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry. I want you to come back to me. I want you to acknowledge your faults so much that I'm playing this destructive game. I'm, I'm ruining an innocent life. Oh God! What have I become? What am I doing right now? Wei Ying, just come back to me. I'll stop everything. Just come back." Wangji stood up from the ground and put off his shirt, touched the bloodied sleeve and slowly caressed it. Then he hanged the shirt in his closet as if he was taking care of Wei Ying. That night both Xichen and Wangji couldn't sleep. One was thinking about what on earth he was doing and the other one was worrying about the person whom he cherished the most in the world, his little brother.
   That night Wei Ying didn't get back to Wen Qing's nor Jiang Cheng's and his apartment. He went back to his parents' house which was the only thing left for Wei Ying by his biological parents. His parents died in a car accident when he was only four. His parents used to be trusted workers of Jiang Industry and childhood friends of Jiang couple. So Wei Ying got adopted by Jiang Fengmin and Madam Yu. When Wei Ying felt lost, then Wei Ying used to come in that house to feel his parents' presence. Once he took Lan Zhan in this house and after the breakup, Wei Ying tried not to come there again. Wen Ning used to look after this house and maintain everything. It was six years later he came back to the house, lost. Wei Ying entered the house and went to his parents' room and sat infront of the big laminated picture of his parents,"Mom! Dad! Why didn't you take me away with you? Why? I've been trying to be strong for all of those years, then why now I can't be anymore? Mom! My Lan Zhan doesn't look at me or talk to me anymore. He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't want me back? Why? Why he is in love with Sizhui? Why is he getting engaged to another person who is not me? I love him so much. I want to scream that I love him still now... But I can't. Why I have to break up with him? That person made me break up with him, I promised him I would never go back to Lan Zhan. But I can't live by seeing him with another person. I will not let this engagement happen. I'm gonna ruin everything. I'll talk to him, he'll understand me."
   As Wei Ying was going to call Wangji, he saw a call from an unknown number. He picked up the call,"Hello! Who is this?"
  "Wei Ying! Congratulations! I heard that you got engaged. Good for you. At last you let go of Wangji."
  "Why are you calling me again? What do you want from me now?"
  "Nothing! Just don't think about telling Wangji anything. We had a deal. If you get back on your words, then you know very well, that Wangji has to face the consequences."
  "No. No. Don't do anything. I'll not tell anyone about this. It'll be a secret just like it has been for those past six years."
  "Good boy! Thank you for breaking up with him. After all you are not worthy of him. Bye."
   Wei Ying sat down on the bed again,"Wangji! What should I do? Sometimes I really wish that we shouldn't have met each other on the first hand. Though we had, why would we love each other? Why? Lan Zhan, just remember one thing always that I love you and I broke up with you because I didn't want to see you get ruined. I love you forever."