We are both a mess (an Ed Sheeran fanfiction)

Chapter 24 (+18)

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That morning we woke up early and went to see new houses in that area. I didn’t want a mansion, just a nice and cosy place where I can live with my boyfriend. We saw a very nice building, two floors and really lovely. It was not so far away to the town centre, and it was relative close to Ed’s studio. During the lunch we started talking about all the options we had and which could be better than the other.

 Finally we got Ed’s place. I was pretty tired, we both laid on the couch, with my head resting on his chest and his fingers playing with my hair, in silence. It felt so good when you know there is always someone there, who is supporting you. No matter what. No matter when.

In the afternoon I decided to text my brother and see if we could meet after his work. Before Ed and I went to Berlin, I needed to settle things down.

- I would like to apologize about yesterday night for wh- - I hugged him before he ended up his sentence.  To be honest I couldn’t be mad at John, even if he would tell me the worst things.

-I’m sorry for shouting at you, and saying all that stupid things. I didn’t mean them, I was just shocked and mad and…-I had to stop to breath because I was speaking too quick, which caused my brother to laugh.-  I guess I didn’t want to confront the problems but I must definitely talk to mum and dad.

-Just do it whenever you are ready. I didn’t want to put so much pressure on you. I am sorry for that. I know I can be sometimes overprotective and do things in the wrong way.

-But you know what? If you weren’t overprotective you wouldn’t be my brother.-we laughed at the same time and hugged again.

I couldn’t believe our trip to Berlin was already over. It had been the best four days of my life so far. Is what I needed, to spend four days with my boyfriend, without worries, without thinking too much. On the plane, I tried to teach him the few things I knew in German and he really tried to sound it like if it was German but it was impossible for him due to his British accent. My favourite night was when we ordered almost all the food it was in the hotel’s menu and they brought it to our room. Having dinner at bed had been one of the funniest things.

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-Oh fuck…I am sorry-I told him when I accidentally stained his hoodie with tomato sauce. Minutes later he put Nutella all over my lips and part of my cheeks ‘by accident’ he said.

-Let me clean that.-he took of my hands the tray with food and placed it on the trolley, where the rest of the food was.

I stayed quiet, without moving, waiting for his next movement. He got close to me and brushed his thumb against my lips trying to clean them.

-Hmm…it tastes good but I think this way would be better- With the tip of his tongue he started licking my lips. His breath was speeding up when I straddled him, with my hands tangled in his hair.

I started to rub myself against his body, feeling how he was getting harden and harden, looking at his blue eyes, almost gasping. Our lips finally touched and quickly I could feel his tongue looking for mine and his lips devouring every inch of my lips and later my neck. My hands were searching for his hoodie to take it off and once I did it, I helped him to take my shirt off and the pants of my pyjamas. He managed to lay me down on the bed, both shirtless, his hands stroking my breasts and massaging them while his tongue was playing on my inner thigh and then with my sex. When I reached the pleasure, he traced a way of kisses from the bottom of my belly to my neck to end up kissing my lips again. I was still gasping and what he just did to me it made me desire him more than anything in that moment and he knew it. Feeling him was one of my favourite pleasures, I was panting and that was mixed with his moans, going deeper and deeper made me feel completely filled. The last thing I remember is that we felt asleep once we both finished.

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The reality hit me when we got back to London. First of all we still didn’t have a place to live in and second I had to talk to my parents seriously about the fight we had and bringing Adam back to my memory wasn’t one of my favourite things. The next day when Ed was again in the studio I called my mum to meet them at my place.

-Sorry for all this mess, I am packing everything.

-What for?-my father suddenly said after seeing around 20 big boxes in the living room.

-Because Ed and I are moving together. You can sit over there –I pointed them the sofa while I was getting something to drink. It was the most uncomfortable situation, I couldn’t help but being cold and distant. Maybe that’s what we do to protect ourselves. I knew I wasn’t ready for this talk but if I didn’t talk to them in that moment I would never talk to them again. When I sat on the sofa, in front of them, was when my mother started to speak.

-We want to tell you that we are really sorry for what happened…as we told you, we didn’t really know how Adam was and we thought he was the best for you. Also we were worried for you for dropping out university. I think it was because…because…

-Because you didn’t want me to end like my brother, right?

-Yes. – My father said- After what happened to John and seeing that you would probably end the same way. We were disappointed with ourselves, we failed as parents.

-Yeah you did…but there are things I don’t really get…despite John telling you both that I wasn’t okay, that I had big problems…why did you turn your backs?

-I guess...We didn’t want to see how our little girl was falling down, we told John to take care of you. We know we were the most selfish people in the world and we are totally desperate because we don’t know what to do nor say to you to forgive us…

-I need some time and I will try to understand why you acted like that…but I need time.

-We understand, this time we want to do it right.

After that conversation, we caught up with our lives. I told them something about my relationship with Ed and they promised me that time they wouldn’t meddle in our relationship. It was strange because I finally get used to their non presence and I forgot how it was to tell your mum your problems, expecting her to give you her super advice.

My parents went home and I spent the rest of the evening packing some things and working on the computer. I was about to start having dinner when the bell rang. I was completely shocked when I saw my brother’s face covered with blood.

-John…wh-

-They’re back.

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